OMG GUYSSSSSSSSS! I'm so sorryyyyyyyyy for not updating for so long! Omg I'm horrible I know! But I didn't have time cause we always had someone at home and it was Christmas and then New Year's eve and OH HAPPY NEW YEAR (I know it's too late to say that but I wanted to share my greetings) and yeah I'm not gonna talk anymore. I'm going straight to the story. One more thing. THANK YOU SO MUCH for all your love! You guys are amazing. And once more sorry for the long wait. I hope this chapter will make up for my lack of updates! Enjoy!

Tina's POV

So apparently Finn's back. I thought he was in the army but it seems like this idea didn't turn out good. I actually feel very happy to see him. Finn is one of the original members of glee club. He is my friend as much as all the other guys that left after graduation. And… he gave us the perfect idea. Grease. That's just… so awesome! I mean… I LOVE Grease. One of the best musicals ever. But to be honest Finn's arrival scares me a little bit too. Why you may ask… It's just because… What if the rest of our friends come back too? What if… Mike does? I'm really not ready to see him. I really feel that if I see him I'll start shaking and stuttering. Real stuttering this particular time.

No I shouldn't be thinking like that. It's just Finn. He came back just to stay here, see us and you know… have fun with us again. So now I have to focus on what I'm gonna sing for my audition for Grease. I have so many things to do. Also I have given my assistant a break cause suddenly she's freaked out about something Kitty did that I didn't even understand what it was so now I have to do everything on my own. Let's just say that I've come back to the previous Tina where she always did everything on her own (with the exception of Mike). Uhhhh not again. Why? Why am I ALWAYS thinking about him? Why can't I just get him out of my mind? Stupid Tina…

"So what are you gonna do for the audition?" I hear Blaine's voice beside me and I turn to look at him. He seems so… sad. Vulnerable. Hurt. So I refuse to answer his question and I ask him the most obvious question.

"Are you ok? You seem… down" I put it in the most honest way and he shakes his head.

"No… I... uh… I'm not good. You know I did something… very bad" he looks at me with teary eyes and I stop walking so I can look at him better.

"Which is?" I ask and I can see the tears threatening to fall from his eyes. He tries to speak but his voice gets out very low and I barely hear him.

"I cheated on him…" he whispers and my eyes widen. Him is Kurt.

"You did what?" I shriek and I see his face turning to more hurt than before. Oh god I really shouldn't be shouting at him. I try to calm down and take a deep breath "Sorry" I say and he sits on the ground so I follow him.

"I don't know what to do… I've hurt him so much… I can't believe I really did that" he whispers and I frown.

"Why did you do that?"

"BECAUSE… I really missed him. I wanted him by my side but he never was. I wanted to be with him just for a little while but he was always busy. He couldn't even talk to me to the telephone. And I felt so lonely…. I was completely alone. And I wanted to cure that wound that appeared in my heart but I just made it bigger…" he says and I put a hand on his shoulder. He quickly hugs me and I hug him back even though I don't know if I should be doing it. I mean… HE CHEATED ON KURT. Kurt's one of my best friends. And he broke my best friend's heart. But Blaine is also my friend and putting aside all our conflicts of this year I feel bad about him. About him feeling alone. Cause I can understand completely what he feels like. This feeling that makes your heart beating hard, your hands tremble and your eyes tingle from the tears you're trying to hold. I've felt all this numerous times from the day I broke up with Mike. Sometimes you just have this illusion that your beloved person is right next to you…. It isn't. And it hurts more. It makes you feel miserable.

The difference in me is that if I still were with Mike I wouldn't cheat on him. Even though sometimes all these feelings smother me… I wouldn't do this to him. I wouldn't cause such a problem. Nor to him neither to me. I would try to keep calm and strong and patient. It wouldn't be easy. That's why I decided to break up with Mike. That's why I decided to separate our ways from the beginning of this story. I did this so that later I wouldn't come up with all that Blaine does now. But that doesn't seem that I don't feel the same with him.

"It's gonna be ok. Kurt is going to understand…" I try to say but he stops me.

"Understand what? Everything he says is right. I cheated on him. I promised to never hurt him but look what I did now… It's entirely my fault"

Promise to never hurt… Big promise. Mike always used to promise me that. He would always cup my cheeks with his warm hands, he would lift my head so he could look into my eyes and he would promise me that he would never, ever hurt me.

"Maybe it's your fault but now you can't do anything else… Just let him a little bit alone. Let him think about it. I'm sure he will see that you still love him" I try to encourage him and he nods. I wipe the tears off his eyes and he gives me a small smile.

"Thanks Tina" he whispers before I get up and leave with a nod.

Seems that this week is the week of break ups. First Kurt and Blaine. Then Santana and Brittany. Now Finn and Rachel too…

"Is she here?" I ask Artie and he shakes his head disappointing me.

"Nope. She came here only for a couple of hours. She broke up with Finn. And after that she left immediately" he answers and I pout.

"I missed her" I admit and he smiles kindly.

"I think that everybody misses her. Her attitude… even her clothes. Though someone told me that the Rachel that came here was completely different than the one we all know"

"They say that when you go to New York you make an extreme makeover. To your life and appearance" I let myself daydream a little bit but soon my thoughts get interrupted by my phone. I look at the screen and then at Artie who looks at me expectantly "I'm gonna go answer that" I say and leave him looking at me as I go to my locker and answer the call. I mean… I can't ignore him for that long… I haven't answered to any call he's done the past days… And he's been calling a lot.

"Hello?" I say keeping my voice as steady as possible.

"Hey Tee. Is everything ok? I've called you so many times but you don't answer…" I hear his voice and even though I try to control myself, a big smile appears on my face.

"Everything's alright Mike. How are you doing?"

"Oh fine you know… I'm just here. I… we are in a break and I thought let's call Tina to see how she's doing"

"That's very kind of you" I nod my head and I can hear his breath fasten a little bit.

"You know… today we were rehearsing here and they picked a great song"

"Which one?" I ask and I see as Artie is still waiting for me so I turn around.

"Dream a little dream" he answers and I freeze. That's… That's our song… The song we used to dance to. The one we danced in front of the whole glee club. Our favorite one… I try to speak but suddenly I feel like I have a knot in my throat.

"G-great" I stutter and I curse under my breath for showing such weakness.

"Yeah… It reminded me of the time we danced it together. Remember?" he asks and I can hear the excitement in his voice.

"Sure…Um Mike look I have to go so… we're gonna talk another time. 'Kay?"

"Um… ok take care?" he says more like in a questioning tone and I end the call. Please keep calm. I turn around and approach Artie.

"Everything alright?" he asks and I gulp.

"Everything's ok" I answer and we start getting to class, he talking about our musical and some of his ideas and I, chewing the inside of my right cheek in order to keep myself from screaming. Screaming from the pain and lost. I can feel Artie's eyes burning me. But I really can't pay more attention to him right now… this feeling deep inside my heart tells me to keep silent and just move on. Till I reach my house… and free all these screams I'm now holding under my breath…

Hey guysssss you know that next chapter has REAL tike ;) you know what I mean. Not only messages, emails etc. You will have an exclusive behind the scenes just like we all deserve. At least I'll try to hehe. See ya next time! I'll try to make an update faster! See yaaaa!