Hey guys how are you? I hope everyone is fine! I'm so so tired because I'm constantly studying… we have exams in a week at my university so I have to study a lot… ugh… anyway here is the new chapter. I hope you like it! Enjoy!
Tina's POV
Ok… First Mr. Schuester saying he's gonna leave (which I respect it's a big step for him and I want him to be happy and everything) but giving Finn (Finn of all people) the responsibility of the Glee club? Seriously? Finn doesn't even know how to make the musical. HOW is he gonna lead us to Sectionals and help us win? This is so bad… Oh my God we're gonna lose aren't we? Ok so first that. And now apparently I have ANOTHER problem to solve. Marley's having problem with her weight. I mean… the girl is thin. So thin but how can she gain weight from one day to another? I have to fix her outfit all the time. I don't have the time to do this! I have to make the boys' outfits too. Brittany and Sugar seem pretty pleased with their outfit. I'm glad that I get to do it though. I know that last year I complained about how I'm the one to make the costumes and that I'm tired of it but come on… it's Grease! Who wouldn't be honored and interested in making all those cool outfits?
Anyway. Things are so messed up these days. My mind is about to explode. I have to worry about Mr. Schuester leaving, about Finn getting in charge for Glee club, making the costumes, rehearsing for my part –cause I have to be perfect- and running my lines, and then… I have Mike too. It's not so easy to have him always around you know. He does this thing that he passes right next to me and gives me one of his knowing and heart-melting smiles so then I really can't focus on anything I'm doing and I have to get it from the top. Sometimes he comes by to say hi or bring me coffee –he exclaims that he does that because he knows I need energy and that I'm working hard- I know he just wants to spend some more valuable moments with me.
So here I am currently taking a break cause I'm exhausted. I need to relax somehow so I decide to text Kurt. I need him to give me some advice too about a costume so it's a good chance to chat with him. As I text him I take a sip from my water cause suddenly it's too hot in here and when I receive his message I smile a little bit. Greetings from Rachel. I wonder how she's doing! We haven't spoken since ages. He asks how the costume designing is going and I have to frown at that. I text him about Marley's problem and I wonder if I have to make ANOTHER costume in case she has stress bloating or whatever again.
"Wow that's a serious face" I hear Mike's voice and I lift my head. He's just in front of me lightly smiling.
"What are you still doing here?" I ask and it sounds differently than I planned it to sound but I can't correct my tone so I leave it there.
"Well… Finn wants a little bit of help with the musical so… I'm helping him. We started practicing with the guys –method rehearsal you know- and we just returned… How's your work going?" he says as he approaches me and sits next to me.
"Fine I guess" I say shrugging and he laughs.
"Fine I guess means that you have a problem" he points out and I nod "What is it?"
"Well I have a problem with Marley. She keeps on gaining weight so I have to remake her costume. And then…"
"Yeah?"
"Then it's all the news about Mr. Schuester…"
"He deserves it"
"He does. BUT he can't leave Glee club to Finn!" I almost shout making him jolt.
"Uh look… Finn sounds very confident about that and I think…"
"The fact is he CAN'T do this. Yes he might have some great ideas but let's face it. It's Sectionals. It's important. We can't just play around!"
"I think you worry too much Tina" is the last thing he says before I get up and start preparing my stuff to leave "So what are you doing tonight?" he asks while I reach my cell phone.
"Kitty invited us for sleepover so I'm going there. You?"
"Dinner with my parents. Not much" he chuckles and I smile lightly "Need a ride home?" he asks and I actually need a ride home so I nod and we head together to his car. It still feels weird to have him by my side but it's better than earlier.
"I'm glad that you have so many friends you know" he says all of a sudden and when I look at him with a raised eyebrow he just shrugs "It feels better to know that you have great company. I feel less guilty for not being here with you"
"Please Mike… Don't be silly. I know that those two years we used to be all the time together but I know how to have fun and how to take care of myself alone"
"I know… it's just… It was difficult in the beginning. At least for me… I was too used of you always holding my hand or whispering in my ear or just standing next to me"
"Well it was weird in the beginning but now everything is alright. And I'm happy I found myself and that I can count on me"
"I'm glad too. You're very strong Tina. That's one of the things I love about you" he says and I feel like my heart stopped right now. Did he say he loves me? Was that a clear declaration of love? What should I say now? "Are you ok?" he asks like everything is alright and I look at him. He seems so cool. Maybe it was indeed just a manner of speaking and not a declaration. As we reach my home I can see my mum hiding behind the curtain and I roll my eyes.
"I'm gonna kill her" I whisper and Mike laughs.
"She still uses to do that huh?"
"See? Not many things changed since you left" I tease him and roll my eyes again "Ok thanks for giving a ride. I guess I'll see you… tomorrow?" I ask and he nods smiling. I lean forward to kiss his cheek and I'm surprised that I didn't even thought about it twice. He returns the kiss and waves at me.
"Have fun tonight"
"You too" I respond and get out of the car. I take my keys out but mum is already one step ahead of me and opens the door widely so she can wave at Mike who is grinning in return. He then starts the car again and goes away.
"Mum he's left. Close the door" I shout behind me and I see her rolling her eyes. See? That's why I do it so often.
"He brought you home?" she asks and I give her a look meaning Obviously.
"What do you think?" I ask before climbing the stairs to reach my room and start preparing for the sleepover.
"This sleepover… It's gonna be just girls?" she asks following to my room and I take a deep breath.
"Yes mum. Just us girls"
"Who is this Kitty anyway?" she asks again and I turn to look at her.
"She is a new member in Glee club, she's a cheerio, most of the time she's a bitch and she has a role in Grease too" I give her all the "juicy" information but clearly she's not satisfied. Not that I care "I'm done talking about it" I say when she's about to speak again and I see her frown.
"How are you gonna go there?" Well… she does have a point right now cause I have NO IDEA how I'm gonna go but I shrug.
"I'll ask Britt to give me a ride" I answer and finally she leaves me alone. Britt accepts to give me a ride but she says that she won't be able to give me a ride in the morning cause she has something to do… Well… with Britt you never know. Maybe Lord Tubbington got in prison again and she has to get him out.
"Tina wake up" I hear Britt's voice and I open one eye "Come on you have to get ready. We have to leave" she almost drags me and I groan.
"Ok, ok I'll get up don't pull me like that" I complain and she finally stops pulling me. When I get ready I see Sugar, Unique, Marley and Britt talking with Kitty.
"You want a coffee?" asks Kitty but I say no. I check my cell phone and I have a new message.
You need a ride home?
It's Mike. I smile a little bit. Yes I answer and I send the address. Kitty keeps talking about her role in Grease and that it's very important cause if it wasn't it wouldn't even be in the play when I get a new message.
I'm waiting for you outside
"Oh I have to go" I say as I put my coat on.
"You have a ride home?" asks Brittany and I nod.
"Yeap" I answer and I reach for my bag greeting everyone. I open the door and there he is. Handsome as ever. I hear the girls from inside whispering and whistling but I ignore them.
"Hey guys" Mike greets them and they all smile all too kindly "You need help with that?" he signs at my bag and I smile.
"No I'm ok. Bye" I wave one last time as I close the door and walk to his car.
"How was the sleepover?" he asks when we get inside and I smile.
"It was great. Thanks. How was dinner with your parents?"
"Good. As always. Do you want to stop by your house?"
"Yes please" I smile and he nods. By the time we arrive I look at him "You wanna come in?" I ask and he smiles then nods. Of course my mum throws a party the moment she sees him. I get up to get ready and I can hear her AND MY DAD laughing. What is going on here? I really don't understand. I climb down the stairs ten minutes later and everyone looks at me.
"Ready?" asks Mike and I nod.
"Do you want something to eat sweetheart?" asks my mum but I refuse the offer.
"No I'm fine. Let's go. I'll see you later mum. Bye dad"
"Bye Tina" he greets me and then HUGS AND KISSES Mike. Ok someone should be laughing in my face. As we get out of my home I mentally check the list of the things I have to do.
"Everything checked?" he asks me –knowing me too well- and I nod.
BUT it seems that I have ONE MORE problem.
"Tinaaaaa. Oh my god we have a huge problem" Sugar freaks out in front of me the moment I and Mike get in the choir room.
"What is it?" I ask and try to ignore the looks that everyone is giving me and Mike.
"WE HAVE NO RIZZO" says Sugar and my eyes widen.
"Wait. I thought Unique was gonna play Rizzo" Mike speaks before I do.
"Change of plans. His parents won't let him" says Artie and I put my head in my hands.
"Hey we'll find a solution don't worry" says Finn and I take a deep breath. And it hits me. I can play Rizzo. I don't have anything to lose. So I quickly get out of the choir room ignoring everyone's shouts to come back and help them. Nope. I have to fix the dress of Rizzo. What I don't expect is Santana to come and get the part from me. I spent three valuable hours to get the dress fixed and learn the lines only to be told that Santana –who for the record isn't a student here anymore- took Rizzo's part. Yes. You really have to be kidding me.
Ok. Today is Grease time. I am so stressed. I change in my outfit and I can feel my hands trembling.
"Are you nervous?" he asks behind me and I don't have to answer to let him know. Only a look is enough to see I'm nervous like hell "Hey don't worry. Everything is gonna be alright" he tries to calm me down.
"You know what is gonna calm me down?" I ask and I'm sure he does and he nods and I don't wait any more, I don't even think about it twice and I hug him tightly. I love the way his hands embrace me too making me feel like home. We just sit there for a while me breathing when he's breathing, listening to his heart, smelling his cologne, feeling his warmth. I can feel his lips pressed on my temple and I can't help it but smile widely.
"Thanks" I whisper and he rubs my back.
"I'll always be here when you need me. Now take a deep breath and go shine" he kisses my forehead and leaves. I don't move. Oh my god I'm returning to old Tina don't I? It's exactly the same like it used to be. Me being vulnerable and him comforting me and telling me sweet things. No. It was just a moment. I am strong by my own. I'm gonna make it.
When it's time for my part I take a deep breath. I can't help it so I give Mike one last look only to see him winking at me. And here we go…
Oh my god it was so great. All this energy. I feel so good that I got that part. Seriously even though I was so nervous I felt really good after a couple of seconds.
"Tina that was so good. Congratz girl" says Sugar and I thank her.
"Hey Tina please drag the dresses that way cause Santana's performance is ending in about a minute" I hear Artie say and I nod but he stops me "By the way Tina" he says and I turn to look at him "That was pretty awesome! You were amazing" he compliments me and I smile widely.
"Thanks Artie" I say and I start dragging the stuff when I hear Rizzo's song ending.
"Tina" I hear Mike's voice behind me and I turn around to look at him. I turn again to see some guys taking the dresses away but I don't care that much cause I'm too happy and Mike's speaking to me and I feel like I have butterflies in my stomach "You were incredible as Jan. Finn was right. No one can play this part better than you" he says and I can't help the full grin on my face. I whisper a "Thank you" while my heart is beating fast from excitement and happiness.
"You know this last week I've been thinking…" he says and my face goes a little bit straight cause I think I know what he's gonna say… "Maybe we shouldn't have broken up" Yeap that's what I knew he would say "Maybe it was premature" his face seems so cute right now. But I've promised myself to not fall for his cute faces anymore. So I answer.
"Maybe… But we did" I see him looking at the ground "And it really tested who I am. And I'm liking who I am" I say and he keeps looking in my eyes. I know that he misses me too much. I miss him too. Oh what the hell I'll just tell him "But I miss you too" I say in a trembling voice and I see a little smile appearing in his face "So… we can talk about it" I say shrugging and I feel so relived inside that I actually catch myself laughing at my own words. It literally feels so good. And it feels even better when he takes me in his arms again smiling. It's a small hug but so reassuring. As we pull away –not too much- we still stand close to each other. I can see it in his eyes. HE WANTS to kiss me. And…. I do too. So I start leaning forward.
"Oh my God look at Marley she looks amazing. Thank God you made this extra outfit Tina" I hear Brittany next to me (and she also pulls my sleeve- what's up with her and pulling me?) so I turn to look at Marley who wears the black costume I made.
"You made this?" asks Mike and I nod. He smiles and then it feels so awkward cause we were about to kiss and I don't know if we should try again and Britt is looking at us weirdly so I decide to go away. So then it's the last scene with You're the one that I want and I see Mike looking at me dancing with Jake and I can really imagine him dancing with me like we used to do and singing to each other You're the one that I want and then I get back to reality where the number ends and I see Mike clapping and cheering for us.
We all end up in the choir room listening to the critics about our musical. Mike and I sit away from each other cause it still feels weird after the confession of love and the almost kiss and I just try to pretend like I'm cool and stuff but I still feel myself shaking and I also catch myself thinking about Mike a lot and looking at his direction when I hope nobody's watching. And I'm clapping happily for our success and then feeling bad cause I'm gonna miss Mr. Will and then all emotional cause I look into Mike's eyes and I remember that because of the glee club and because of Mr. Schuester I got to know Mike, date him and love him. Mr. Schuester was the one who always used to pair us in dance numbers. In glee club we both got the chance to declare our love for each other, sing together, laugh and get sad together, be together. Actually Glee club is my home. I gained friends, good friends, a good teacher, a boyfriend that used to be my everything –he still means so much to me but right now I've put myself in front of everyone else- Glee is my LIFE.
I'm really gonna miss Mr. Schuester.
Cause if he leaves… many of my memories are going away too.
Mike seems to understand when I feel right now.
I know this look in his eyes.
He does indeed understand me cause he feels the same.
How do I know?
I just do.
Cause even though I hate to admit it… We used to be one. And we still are…
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