Hey guys! Quick update for you! One more time I have to thank all of you for your amazing reviews and all the new follows and favorites you guys are amazing thank you so much! It's incredible how much love I'm getting! So here is chapter 10 for you (episode 9 of glee). This one follows the usual row of Tina's POV. Enjoy!
Tina's POV
Confetti is still falling on us. I'm… frozen on the stage. M-Marley is on the floor. She… fainted? In front of everyone? I blink and my brain starts working again so I slowly move my legs and I reach all the others that circle Marley on the floor. I look at the audience who's shocked too and I feel tears filling my eyes. No Tina stop. Be strong. This is not over. I see that everyone stands up and carries Marley away from the stage. I follow them without really paying attention to where we're going. It… it seems like we're going to the choir room. Unique shouts at us that Marley needs room and space to breathe. My mind spins and I remember that I have some Halloween candy in my locker. Before I can do anything Blaine throws a juice at Sam and Marley drinks it. I now see that all the graduates are here too but my vision is too blurry to find out where Mike is. Mr. Schuester suggests we return to the stage and I almost start walking but coach Sylvester comes in the choir room and announces that the Warblers won.
.Won.
A chill runs my body and my vision becomes blurry again. My mouth opens to say something… but I don't have anything at all to say. I catch Mike looking at me sadly. This is it.
We lost.
Before I can understand it I'm moving. I'm out of the choir room going… I don't know where but I need immediately air. When I reach the door I get out of the school and the cold air hits my face. And that's when I start sobbing. I don't know how much time I'm sitting here. I'm shivering from the cold and the hot tears that come out of my eyes are the only warmth for me. Except the two warms arms that wrap around me a second later.
"Tina what are you doing here? You're gonna get cold. I've been looking for you everywhere. Come here" it's Mike's voice and then my face is buried in his chest and the sobs start again "Come on Tee we have to go inside. You're gonna catch a cold"
"I don't care" I whisper and his one hand caresses my hair.
"Tee" he starts but I interrupt him looking at him.
"Don't you dare say everything is gonna be ok. Cause you know it's not gonna be" I say while tears run down my cheeks.
"Tina it is gonna be ok"
"How?" I ask and he kisses my forehead.
"Maybe the judges will see what happened and they'll decide a callback"
"This is not happening Mike. It's over. Everything is over" I shout getting up and climbing down the stairs of Mc Kinley.
"Tee where are you going?" he asks catching my hand.
"Home" I answer with a throaty voice.
"Ok just... wait a minute. If you don't want to go inside just let me get your things and your coat and we can go home" he pleads and I exhale deeply then nod.
"Hurry" I say and he is already running inside. One minute later he's out of school and he puts the coat on my shoulders but takes the keys from my hands "What are you doing?" I ask him as he reaches the driver's side.
"I'm not gonna let you drive in this condition Tina. Get in the car"
"My condition is fine. Gimme the keys" I say but he gives me his usual –don't be ridiculous- look and I give up getting in the passenger's seat. He drives me home and in the whole ride he looks at me every five seconds.
"You want me to come in?" he asks when we arrive and I shrug. Of course he comes with me and lets me go immediately to my room explaining to my parents what actually happened. When I reach my room I close the door and sit on my bed. I don't bother taking my clothes off and I just hug my pillow tightly.
When I wake up I'm in Mike's arms and my face is resting on his chest. Didn't he go home last night? I guess not. I get up trying not to wake him up and get in the bathroom. I shower quickly and clean the makeup I didn't yesterday. When I get out of the bathroom he's still asleep so I take some clothes to change and put new makeup on my face. I let my hair dry and curls are already making their appearance in my hair.
"Good morning Tee" I hear him say while he's still lying on the bed. I try to smile but I fail.
"Good morning" I answer and he looks at me suspiciously.
"Are you ok?" he asks and I shrug. When he exhales deeply I get out of the room and reaching the kitchen I make myself some coffee.
"You want some?" I ask cause I feel him watching me from the corner.
"Yeah sure" he answers and I nod "So…" he starts but I move my head negatively.
"I don't want to talk about it Mike" I say and he frowns.
"You always used to talk about things like that with me"
"Perfect tense. I used to do so. I've changed Mike. I'm not the same"
"Well… I think it would make you good to talk about it"
"I think it wouldn't"
"Why are you so negative?" he seems annoyed but so am I.
"Why are you so persistent?" I ask but and he looks at me weirdly.
"Cause I want to help you"
"I don't need any help" I say through my teeth cause I don't want to wake up my parents with my shouts.
"Fine. I just wanted to make things better"
"Things are not getting better Mike. Get down from the big cloud you're living and see what's happening. Everything is over. Things are not good. And they're not gonna get better. And stop getting on my nerves" I spit out and he looks very angry cause he gets up from the seat he is sitting on and looks at me with a murderous look.
"Ok if that's what I'm doing I guess I should leave to… stop getting on your nerves" he says in a sarcastic tone and I roll my eyes.
"Fine"
"Fine" and with that he takes his jacket and gets out of my house. The old Tina would start crying or kick her foot on the ground for the dumbness she had down. I don't. I just stay there and try to calm down. I drink the coffee I prepared and prepare my things in a hurry cause I'm kinda late.
Things seem to get worse as they day progresses cause it seems that coach Sylvester took over the choir room for her Cheerios practice. Great. So here we are now sitting in a completely empty choir room with no glee club and… that's it. No more Glee. I'm furious actually and I don't care that everybody says I'm bitchier this year CAUSE CLEARLY SOMEONE HAS TO TELL THE TRUTH HERE and not hide behind their finger so I don't regret any of my next words.
"Can I just say what everyone is thinking? This is Marley's fault. New Rachel my butt. I knew Rachel Berry, I was friends with Rachel Berry and you Marley are no Rachel Berry" and I'm happy that Artie agrees with me adding "Preach" cause I need to know that someone share's my pain.
And let me just say that WE ARE NOT going to perform for whatever reason Finn wants us to. I mean… We're losers. Again.
"I love to sing and dance as much as anybody but without a competition it's hard to get motivated" I say sadly and Finn goes on about how we're gonna win next year. And here's the question spoken by Sam.
"What about us who won't have a next year?"
When the "meeting" with Glee club ends I find myself walking alone the Mc Kinley halls. If Mike was with me right now like he used to be every time I needed him I wouldn't feel so bad…. Maybe I shouldn't have talked to him like that. Maybe I was too harsh. Well… he was persistent too. It's not only my fault. So what am I gonna do now? I'm so used to glee club. How am I going to fill my time? Maybe… I guess I should find a new club to join.
"Ouch" I say hitting on someone hardly.
"Watch it loser" a cheerio says to me and I look at the ground. Some time ago I used to friends with some of them. I was on the winners side. Now I'm a loser again.
Well… I can change that.
I see Blaine at his locker and I approach him. His is a good friend. He can help me. I guess…
"Hey Blaine" I say and he turns to smile at me sadly.
"Hey Tina. Can you believe we don't have a glee club anymore? I was so used to it"
"I know. But we can be part of another club… We can't spend our last year without being part of a club you know…"
"You have something in mind?" he says smiling lightly and I nod.
"We can join the Cheerios" I say and his expression is priceless. His mouth is wide open so are his eyes and he can't say a word "Surprised?" I ask and he blinks nodding.
"I mean.. The Cheerios? How did you even think of that?" he says and taking him by the hand I lead him away from his locker.
"Why not? I mean... Kurt had joined the Cheerios some years ago" I say and his eyes lighten up at the reference of his ex boyfriend.
"Yeah I know but… Do you think Sue is gonna let us?" he asks and I shrug.
"We can try… So… Are you in?" I say excitedly and he exhales deeply.
"It's not that bad idea… Well… I guess we can try" he says and a wide smile appears on my face.
"Thank you Blaine thank youuuu" I give him a quick kiss on the cheek surprising him.
"It's ok Tina" he says smiling and we get out of school.
Mike hasn't called me today. He must be still mad. Well… He will get over it I guess. I just hope it will before he goes back to Chicago. Tonight I sleep thinking about how Sue is gonna react when we will tell her we wanna join the Cheerios.
"You ready?" asks Blaine the next day and I nod. He knocks the door of coach Sylvester's office and we get in.
"What are you glee-addicts doing here?" she asks and I try hard not to roll my eyes.
"We came to ask you something" I take the courage to speak and she looks at me.
"You're Asian number 1. The one who used to stut-"
"My name is" is start but she interrupts me.
"Tina Cohen Chang. I know. I'm actually disappointed you didn't accept that change in your name I attempted two years ago"
"Tina Cohen Loser? I don't think it fits me" I say and she raises her eyebrow.
"What is it that you want?" she asks and starts exercising.
"We wanna join the Cheerios" says Blaine and she signs us to see down.
"Uh-oh" I whisper and Blaine seems afraid too.
A quarter later we are out of her office with Cheerios uniforms on our hands.
"We did it" I say and Blaine seems surprised too.
"Yeah we did" he answers and we smile at the same time.
"I guess we should change" I propose and we head to the bathrooms.
When I change and my hair is up in a ponytail I look at myself in the mirror. I'm a Cheerio. Wow. I'm really part of the Cheerios. The bathroom's door opens and the girl that hit me yesterday comes in.
"Why are you in a Cheerio uniform loser?" she asks and I look her in the eyes –and please don't stutter Tina cause I'm gonna punch you… I mean myself… I mean… Whatever.
"I joined the Cheerios. So if I am a loser you're a loser too" I respond and I see her shocked expression.
"You can't join the Cheerios" she says and I turn to look myself at the mirror and fix my ponytail and then look at her again.
"Hmmm oh yes. I can. Watch me" I say in her face and get out of the bathroom without looking again at her. I find Blaine outside.
"How is it?" I ask and he looks at me with a smile on his face.
"It suits you" he answers and I smile.
"You too. Should we get going?" I ask and he nods. While we walk the halls of Mc Kinley I catch some of the students looking at us in confusion but I try to ignore that. That's when we see Artie and –What is he wearing?
"Oh hell no" he says and I look at him confused.
"What happened to you?"
"I joined the marching band" he says like it's completely natural "What happened to you?" he asks and Blaine answers that we joined the Cheerios. Artie asks suspicious if Sue let us and I answer honestly that it was way easier than we thought it would be. As it seems Jake and Ryder joined the basketball team and Unique joined the Mc Kinley floor hockey team. I express my confusion cause I really didn't know our school had so many clubs but then Joe comes to confirm there is another one –the Inter faith paintballing or something like that. Like Blaine says… All of us have moved on. It's true. When one dream is being destroyed forever you have to catch something strong to hold on to. Finn is a big problem though… We have to tell him some time.
Well when I said "some time" I seriously didn't mean three hours later. But somehow we got dragged in the auditorium where we are now and Finn is looking at us like we are UFOs.
"I can't believe it's been like what… two days that you've all gone and completely separate in totally insane directions" he says pointing at me. What? What was I supposed to do? Sit and wait… for what?
"We lost Sectionals" I tell him annoyed "Our season is over. You can't be upset that we moved on. It's the healthy thing to do"
And ok maybe it's not ok to take orders from Sue Sylvester but I can't stay idly. And then Finn goes on about rehearsing on Friday night and of course Marley has to say she will be there and – is she doing it on purpose? How does she expect not to be attacked by me when she says things like that?
"Yeah we'd all be here if you hadn't face planted at Sectionals"
"Tina enough"
That's what Finn says.
And .BETRAYED.
Betrayed by my own friend. Who's attacking me when he clearly knows that I am right and IT IS Marley's fault. And I'm really disappointed in him so I look at him blankly and then leave the auditorium without a second thought. As I get out I try hard to fight tears back. It's not fair ok? Why nobody understands me? It was my biggest opportunity. And I've lost it from some stupid naive girl who fainted cause she wasn't eating when she should have done so. If it was my fault I would admit it. But I would know –just like Rachel when she chocked on her Nyada audition- that it was MY ENTIRE FAULT. But it's not. Ok?
As I step in the choir room where we now have practice I see it's empty so I wait for everyone. I decide I can warm up by my own so I start doing exercises. Blaine steps in the choir room but I avoid his look.
"Don't be mad at him ok? He just had a big dream about leading the New Directions" he says sitting beside me.
"That doesn't mean he can run our lives like he wants to" I answer and Blaine gives me a sad look "Ok I know he had a big dream –so did I- but now it's over. The faster he understands it the faster he will move on"
"I know… It's just sad" he says and I don't answer "Are you gonna go on Friday?" he asks and I move my head negatively.
"Are you?" I ask and he thinks about it for a second then sighs.
"If you're not going I'm not going either"
"If you wanna go then go. I will be fine"
"The fact is that EVERYBODY has to go. Not just two or three of us"
Our discussion ends cause Sue and a bunch of cheerleaders get in the choir room. When coach Sylvester sees us she smirks evilly.
"What are former glee club members doing?" she asks and that's how practice starts.
Friday today. We have practice with coach Sylvester and OH MY GOD she's kicking our butt. I still haven't spoken with Mike. I think I should call him when practice is over. Or not… Cause he is just calling me.
"Hey" I answer and smile a little bit.
"Hey Tina. I just called you to tell you I'm leaving earlier. They want us to do a group choreo at college and I have to get back to meet with the guys"
"Oh" is the brilliant answer I give him.
"I'm leaving today. Actually in two hours and I wondered if you wanted to say goodbye…"
"Oh sure. But… Crap I have practice with coach Sylvester"
"What practice?" he asks confused and I clear my throat.
"I… I joined the Cheerios with Blaine" I answer and for a second he doesn't answer back.
"The…. Cheerios? Since when?" he says after a second.
"It's been three days now" I answer and I lean on my locker.
"Wow. I don't know what to say. Ummm… Well can't you just.. you know… miss this practice and come see me?" he asks and I bite my lip. I can't do that. If I start missing practice that early she might kick me out of the Cheerios. And I won't have a club to be a member of anymore… Shit "Uh I'm sorry Mike but you know how Sue is. She won't accept it" I say and hear him taking a deep breath.
"Kay Tina if being a Cheerio is so much more important than seeing me I guess you should stay there" he answers in a harsh tone. It's the first time he talks to me like that.
"Mike… come on you know that-"
"Don't bother Tina. Bye" he says.
And the telephone line goes off.
Did someone stub me with a knife? Cause that's how I feel right now.
"Tina are you ok?" I hear Blaine's voice beside me and I gulp. I just nod. I don't trust my voice "Are you sure?" he asks again and I nod one more time. No I'm not ok. Why does Mike behave like that? I don't get it. And why is he so furious at me? It's just not right. We always used to love each other and be kind and gentle and… now everything is gone. One more part of my life gone.
What more is that I have to lose?
So as the weekend goes on and my mum still can't believe I have joined the Cheerios I find myself looking at photos of the glee club. Here is a group photo and – oh. It's one with Mike. One we're dancing together. I look at the big smiles that are plastered on our faces and I exhale deeply. We used to be so dreamy and happy.
And I now realize that leaving Glee club means that I leave my family. I leave the place where I can express myself the most. Where I can be happy. So when Finn texts us on Monday to tell us that Rachel won the competition and that he settled a new meeting for the glee club I look at Blaine the same time he looks at me. I nod and he smiles. I return home and change quickly, putting on warm clothes and a beret cause it's snowing and I quickly climb down the stairs of my house.
"You just came back. Where are you going?" asks my mum and I smile at her.
"We have rehearsals with Glee club" I say and I see a smile on her face. When I open the door Blaine is already waiting for me outside and quickly takes my hand leading me to the car.
"We're gonna be late" I say and he smiles.
"Maybe a minute or two"
When we arrive we quickly climb the stairs. I see that Marley and Finn have already started singing so Blaine and I join them. They are both smiling at us. By the time we are in the middle of the song the whole Glee club is reunited and we climb down the stairs reaching the others. Finn hugs me and I see it in his eyes that he regretted talking to me like that so I smile at him. And that's how Glee club comes back.
I wonder what Mike would say about that…
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