Hey guysssss! How is everyone doing? I'm gonna start with A HUGE THANKS for all your amazing reviews for the previous chapter! You guys are amazing you made me feel so happy and loved! So thank you for everything. Now I have to apologize cause this episode and the next two are gonna have a lot of blina… I'm so sorry but I have to keep up with the show… So here you go…
Tina's POV
"Are you crying Tina?" a voice gets me out of my thoughts and I close my locket quickly not turning around to see whoever speaks to me. With a very distinctive move I move my one hand to my eye scratching it but what I try to attempt is to hide this single tear that appeared in my eye.
"Of course not. Why do you say that?" I ask turning around only to see Blaine looking at me worried.
"Oh… I.. I thought you were crying. Are you ok though? Those last days you seem out of place" You have no idea…
"Sure I'm fine don't worry" I answer and try to walk away but he follows me.
"Did anything bad happen?" he asks walking by my side and I shrug.
"I just had a fight with Mike" I say and my voice cracks when I pronounce his name. Not just a fight though… It was way more than just that. It broke me in two.
"I thought you guys were on good terms" he admits and I frown. Not so good anymore.
"Yeah… We were. Not anymore"
"That's bad. But don't worry. Everything's gonna be ok you know. Don't be sad" he takes my hand in his and pulls me for a hug. Okay… I really don't know how I feel about this. It's kinda awkward cause ok… we are friends but we never were so close but on the other hand, it makes me feel kinda safe in his arms. And his hug is so warm. It reminds me of… Mike. He caresses my back and I can sense tears filling my eyes. When he lets go he kisses my forehead, gives me one last smile and goes away.
What the hell was that?
And why does my heart beat so fast?
A day has passed since Blaine's weird behavior towards me but thinking about it better it's not weird at all. He's my friend. And maybe he needs something more than just a friend. He maybe needs a best friend. I would love to have him as my best friend.
"Morning Tina" he greets me and I smile.
"Good morning" I respond smiling and he smiles back.
"You seem better today" he comments and I shrug.
"Someone was really sweet to me yesterday and made me feel really good" I answer and he grins.
"Thanks" he answers and I take a fake serious expression.
"Who said I meant you?" I ask and I can't hold myself when I see his shocked expression – ok that was a blush too "I'm kidding" I laugh hard and he seems relieved then laughs too.
"You scared me" he says and I laugh harder. Then the teacher gets in a class starts. Blaine gives me one more look and turns around to pay attention at the teacher.
That's how the last days pass. I and Blaine have become very good friends. We go everywhere together. He makes me laugh and I feel so happy to have him as a friend. Although for some reason every time he's near me my heart beats fast. It's weird. It's like this feeling you get when you get in love with somebody and you feel like.WAIT.
It's like this feeling you get when you get in love with somebody. It can't be. Can it? I… I still love Mike. But you should move on from him. You told the same thing to him. Move on.
Yeah but not with Blaine. He is my friend. My best friend. And… he's.. you know… gay.
Who cares? Take your chance.
No I really can't do that.
I sit at my chair again and while the teacher talks I catch myself writing on my notebook Tina + Blaine = BLATINA 4 EVER. Like how old am I? Five? But I really feel like my hand is trembling. Why did I even write that?
Blaine stoops and I get a clear view of his back. I catch myself getting a little bit up from my seat. I know this feeling… It's the same with…. When Mike was dancing in front of me showing his abs. It's when I first kissed him. I… I have the same feeling with back then.
Oh my God. I'm falling for Blaine Anderson.
And the bad thing is that only two days have passed and I'm already thinking of him in a less friendly and more romantic way. Oh there he is.
"Hey Blaine" I greet him and he smiles kindly.
"Hey Tina, what's up?"
"Nuh, the same. You?"
"We have the student council meeting today. Don't forget it" he reminds me but Really? How would I forget it? I have something very important to announce. Something I decided yesterday and that if I don't take the courage to suggest it now then I might be stuck to my misery for Mike for my whole life.
"No I'll be there. Don't worry" I reassure him and we walk to the next class together.
Three hours later Sugar and I are waiting for Sam and Blaine to come.
"You're going to tell about what we talked yesterday at the 'Too young to be bitter' club?" she asks me and I nod.
"Yeap, it's my killer move" I respond and she chuckles. I can hear Sam's voice outside and both Sugar and I open the door to look at Sam and Blaine talk to each other.
"Guys you're late" I point out and we all get in the room. When we sit down Blaine takes some papers out and I smile.
"First order of business secretary Cohen Chang will please read the minutes from the last-" he doesn't get to finish his sentence cause I interrupt him. Like he doesn't know what we did last time. I tell him that last time Sam was doing impressions for the forty five minutes – which he does too now- causing Blaine to smile and respond "That's fantastic thank you secretary Cohen Chang" and he moves on with Sugar but I HAVE TO ANNOUNCE my idea so I raise my hand. Childish I know but it catches his attention and he smiles lightly "Yes Tina?"
I get up with a huge smile on my face cause I have THE idea so I speak "It is now officially 142 days until prom, where all the girls get immediately snatched up by all the hot guys, and the sorta hot girls get asked out by the sorta hot guys, and then all the rest of us have to sit around and wait for all the nerds and the freaks and the burnouts and the losers to work up some courage to ask us out to the most awkward night of heavy petting we're likely to get til we wake up in a nursing home getting groped by an orderly" I take a deep breath cause the speech was too long but Sugar looks at me proudly.
What surprises me is that Sam goes on with "Ok, well, for the record, I think you're totally sorta hot, like if I was like in a bunker with you, I would totally hit that" making me look at him confused and a little shocked you could say. Isn't he dating Brittany or something? So anyway…
"Tina what are you suggesting?" asks Blaine turning my attention from Sam to him which makes me feel relieved in some way.
"I propose the first annual Mc Kinley High Sadie Hawkins dance. It's what you call a dance where the girls ask the guys" I say the last part sitting down and Blaine seems indecisive.
"I'm not so sure that it's a good idea" he says and I feel like rolling my eyes.
"Why not? It was the topic of discussion at the last meeting of the 'Too young to be bitter' club" I say remembering the meeting yesterday. All the girls would go on about not being confident and all. That's when I suggested the Sadie Hawkins idea. Like I said then, the guys are always the ones empowered to ask us to the dance so why not decide for ourselves? We can choose whoever WE want to ask and have a great time.
"All in favor of a dance where the girls ask the guys" I immediately raise my hand so does everybody else except from Blaine.
"Wait, wait, wait a second hold on" he says but I interrupt him.
"It's official. Get ready for the first annual Mc Kinley High Sadie Hawkins dance" I announce and he chuckles at my enthusiasm. He's cute when he does that. So cute… We clap and while Sugar cheers Sam whispers "Sorry" even though he doesn't seem a bit sorry.
It's Monday. My weekend wasn't as good as I thought it would be. I mean… this entire situation with Blaine kept me busy all week but now that I am in my room alone I can't help not thinking about Mike. I used to get a new email from him day by day but I didn't bother seeing them. I deleted them immediately.
"Block him" that's what I told myself yesterday.
No this is too harsh. I shouldn't do that.
Why not? You have to get over it. Block him.
I am aware that seems I won't be getting any new messages from him. My hand moved to the mouse and I took a deep breath. I was on the block list when I got another email. Again from Mike. All the rest messages were entitled like: Tina open it or Answer or something similar. This one was titled: Why are you so cruel to me?
Why am I so cruel to him? Why am I so cruel to me? To us?
I deleted this one too and added Mike to my block list. I HAVE TO MOVE ON. And if I don't do it now it will be too late.
Today I meet Blaine outside school. He seems extremely cheerful today. Until lunch time I have laughed so much that my stomach hurts. When Blaine, I and Sam get in line to get our food Blaine puts more tots on Sam's plate but doesn't manage to put more on mine. But it's still funny and we're all laughing and Blaine has his arm around my shoulders. It feels so nice. Four hours later is when Blaine is telling me a joke while we enter a classroom with the rest of the Glee club.
"I wanna sit under Uranus" I hear Sam saying and looking at us he smiles "What's so funny?" he asks but neither Blaine nor I explain at him. We just sit next to each other.
"This week's Glee club it's a ladies' choice inspired by the Sadie Hawkins dance" says Finn and I raise my hand.
"Which I thought off, it was my idea" I turn to look at Blaine.
"Yes thank you Tina and every girl will sing to who they want to take to the dance" he continues and Kitty says something but I don't really care. I'm currently thinking what song I should sing to him. My date will be Blaine. He is the perfect one. All day I'm thinking about him. The song has to be romantic and sweet and it has to be perfect. I have to practice a lot. My mind is free for a little while as Sam does some of his usual impressions making me and Sugar laugh. But when I arrive home I start panicking. What should I sing? It has to be special. So I pass the rest of my day and night looking for the perfect song. When I wake up in the morning I get in the shower, take a quick bath and wear my clothes. I brush my wet hair and make them curly. I then put some makeup on. It's the day. I'm gonna ask Blaine to the dance.
I really don't understand how the hour passes cause I'm already in front of everyone ready to sing my song.
"Aright. So Tina is ready to present her solo and make her choice. Gentlemen prepare yourselves for Tina Cohen Chang" he says and everyone claps.
"Thank you Finn. For my song I'll be performing I don't know how to love him from Jesus Christ Superstar. It's about the pain of-" I try to present my performance but Finn interrupts me reminding me that we don't have enough time. So with a sorry I start to sing. I catch Artie looking at me expectantly. He can't think I sing for him can he? We are friends. I see him whispering to Sam and I try to ignore him. Ryder smiles at me wrapping his hands and biting his lower lip… okay…
I walk up to Blaine singing at him. He seems happy and encouraging. It feels so good to be accepted. This is how my song ends and everyone starts clapping.
"So… Blaine will you go to the dance with me?" and that's when his encouraging face turns to confused and surprised.
"Oh uh… Wow um… Tina… I don't know what to say… um no… Thank you but no, no thank you"
So my world crushes down at the same moment the football players come in to change for practice.
I help Brittany and Marley to ask out Sam and Jake. Of course they say yes. Only I get always rejected. I try to keep my face cool all this time but now that they said yes I can't help looking at Blaine who looks on the floor.
Why doesn't he want to go to the prom with me? Am I that bad? I thought that we were good friends. Obviously he doesn't feel more things than just friendship. But he could obviously accept even as a friend…
OH MY GOD. The dance is a Sadie Hawkins one. Why didn't that come to my mind earlier? He has a bad experience from another Sadie Hawkins from his previous school. That's why he rejected me. I have to talk to him. I am so stupid. Why didn't I think about it earlier? I look for him and find him at his locker with envelopes in his hand. Go talk to him.
"I owe you an apology" I say and he turns and looks at me so I take more courage and continue what I want to say "I also think you sort of owe me an apology because that was maybe the most humiliating moment I've experienced in Glee club" I say thinking about it so I try to focus again on what I want to point out "but still I'm sorry. I forgot that's what you told about your old school, the whole reason you transferred to Dalton's was because you got bullied at a Sadie Hawkins dance. No wonder you don't wanna go" he looks at me with those puppy eyes "I apologize" I end my speech and he seems sad.
"Thank you Tina but that's not why I can't go to the dance with you" he explains and… WHAT? It's not the reason? Then why? Why did he reject me?
"Then what is the reason?" I ask while he looks at his locker.
"I, I can't tell you that, it's really embarrassing"
"I swear to God I won't tell anyone"
"I have a crush on somebody and I don't wanna go to a dance where everyone's gonna be romantic but me"
"Who?" I ask and he closes his locker "Who is it?"
"It's a guy and he's straight and doesn't know that I like him"
"I swear to God I won't tell him" I answer waiting for the name of the guy.
"I'm not some predatory gay so it… nothing's gonna hap-"
"Who is it? Tell me Blaine. You can trust me" I interrupt him almost begging him and he sits on the floor looking at me and when he exhales deeply he admits it.
"It's Sam" Whoah. What? I raise my eyebrows "It's stupid" he says and I take a light breath.
"No" I smile sitting next to him on the floor "It's not stupid. I know what it's like to have a crush on somebody who's never gonna love you back" I admit looking at him. He seems so desperate.
"I don't tell just a fantasy. I… I mean I'm proud of our relationship. I'm proud that the gay guy can be friends with the straight guy, I'm proud of showing the school that… I just… I don't want to jeopardize our friendship you know…"
"Blaine" I step in. He feels so bad. And I feel it's my duty to make him feel better "You miss Kurt. You need some place to put your love right?"
"I guess"
"And then there are those lips" I tease trying to lighten the atmosphere. It works.
"Those lips…. Yes those lips" he says and I laugh and he points out Sam's habit of making impressions and I give an example of an impression Sam did some days ago. And that's when I decide to do the best I can to help him. I nod.
"Ok"I say getting up and looking him from above "Here's what we're gonna do about your very human and moving dilemma. We are going to the Sadie Hawkins dance together. We'll go as best friends and we're gonna have the most fun night ever. Okay?" I give him my hand and help him get up from the floor too.
"Ok" he accepts and we walk together with his hand still in mine. That feels good…
Thursday night and I'm freaking out. Ok decorations are great I have to admit it myself. I did a great job. But I'm so stressed. I wear a blue and black dress and I've caught my hair up leaving only some strands of hair out of the ponytail. It's very ironic I know. But I wanted to be kinda similar to how I was when I left Mike in Chicago. I was wearing black and blue then too. My hair was up in a ponytail. I wanted it to be similar cause that day was one of the worst of my life. So this time I'm gonna make it be one of the best. I'm gonna turn the pain to happiness and I will give myself what I really deserve. When the bell rings I climb down the stairs and see Blaine in his black tux. He is so handsome.
"Tina you're so beautiful" he says smiling and I smile back. Mum gives me a confused look. Yes mum I'm going with him to the prom. And yes he's gay. Stop looking at us like freaks now. While we drive to school a low music is playing in the car.
"Don't worry it's gonna be great" I tell him and he nods smiling. It's when we arrive and get in the school that he seems more relaxed.
"Tina… these decorations are incredible"
"Well Sadie Hawkins dance is sometimes called Snowballs so that's where I got the idea for a snowflake theme"
"I'm really glad that you invited me into this" he admits and I bite my lip lightly.
"No post traumatic stress disorder from what happened before?"
"I thought there might be but no" he confesses and I smile.
"I'm thrilled" I respond and give him my hand to get on the dance floor. I catch Brittany looking at me while I walk next to her holding hands with Blaine and I smile. I dance while he and the guys sing and he gives me some smiles and looks and it feels awesome…
It's one hour later when we're dancing together, spinning around and laughing and having so much fun.
"This is so nice" he says and I smile.
"It is isn't it? I told you this would be fun"
"You were so right. You know.. I love your new attitude those days … it's so empowering"
"I love your… everything. You're perfect" I admit having him so close to me.
"Oh Tina Cohen Chang where have you been all my life? He asks as he dips me down.
"Right here" I answer serious stop dancing. He is looking in my eyes so deeply and… I.. He… We actually both lean towards each other. And his lips are only centimeters away from mine. I can feel his hot breath on my lips and…
Sam interrupts us.
"Wait" I shout "Blaine and I were just about to…"
"To what?" asks Sam clueless.
"To keep dancing" I find the strength to say.
"I'm sorry Tina this is beyond all this… I gotta go"
"Where are you…" I try to say but he is already gone with Sam. And for the fifth time in my life everything is getting destroyed. It's too much to take…
The first time was when I broke up with Mike, the second when we lost Sectionals. The other one was when I left Mike (again) back in Chicago, when Blaine refused my invitation to the dance and now. That he left me in the middle of the dance – we were about to kiss damn it- and he preferred to go with Sam.
"You can dance with us" says Sugar who's sitting on Artie's lap –he's smiling for a reason I don't understand- but I just look at where Blaine went. I get out of the dance floor and into the girl's bathroom. I don't know how much time I'm in there but Brittany comes in to tell me it's about time to perform. I'm really not in the mood to do it but I put on a fake smile and hold back my tears. I follow her and as I get on stage I look around to see if Blaine is here. He's not. I just wish he could be here like I was there for him. Focus Tina. You're performing now. Clear your head.
"Alright ladies grab your date and get on the dance floor" I say and after Sugar's words the song starts. We start singing and dancing and everyone claps and dances with us. I give the best of me. I have to be strong. When the song ends we start dancing again and clapping at Unique who's still on stage dancing.
I decide to get a break since I know the next song is a ballad sang by Ryder. I don't have a date to dance with, so I just walk out of the dance floor. Sam is with Brittany so I guess Blaine left. Great. I put some drink in a glass, I smell it and decide to not drink it.
"Tina" I hear Blaine's voice and I turn around "Excuse me" he says to a couple passing from them and he reaches me.
"Hey I thought you split" I say trying to hide my annoyance for what he previously did.
"No, no, not at all. We were just doing some Glee stuff" he explains and I nod lightly.
"Anything good?" I ask uninterested.
"I'm not sure yet but if it works Sam and I may have just saved Glee-club" he admits and I punch myself for being mad at him.
"Is there anything you can't do?" I smile at him and he seems flattered by my words.
"I know I can't possibly leave here without having this one last dance with you" he says extending his hand. It brings a huge smile in my face and I take it gladly. While he leads me on the dance floor again I can feel my heart beating fast again. I rest one hand on his shoulder and my cheek is lightly touching his. And I can say I'm very happy right now.
The dance ends on a cheerful tone, happy faces are all over the room. Blaine offers to bring me home. I accept of course and when we arrive I give him a kiss on the cheek which he accepts gladly. When I get up in my room I take my high heels off and sit on my bed. My computer is still open. I check my emails. No emails.
Of course stupid you blocked him. You can't see his messages even if you want to.
No stop it. It was the right decision. Now get to bed cause tomorrow you will see Blaine. You should only care about him.
When I wake up the next day I feel great. I will see him again. I get up and take a shower, then dress up. I check my emails. No emails. Why do I even look at them? Stop looking at your emails. Nothing new will come. When I arrive at school I'm not the only one with a big smile on the face. Every other girl is so happy. And when 'Too young to be biter's time comes I grin even more. Sadie Hawkins was a complete success.
"The dance couldn't have got more perfectly if I do say so myself and just between us girls I think I found the love of my life"
"Wait are you talking about gay Blaine?" asks Becky and I ignore her. Ok maybe 'love of my life' is a BIG word and a little bit extravagant but he is the only one who makes me feel so good these days. And so we all start cheering and dancing and I really feel like I can actually get away from all the Mike-pain and drama… I will get over him. No matter what. I.. I just need a little time. Right?
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(Meanwhile in Chicago: after the whole Blina and Sadie Hawkins drama)
Mike's POV
"Dude forget about her. You are in here for days" I hear my roommate's voice and I so want to roll my eyes. He is a clueless man obviously. He doesn't even know what pain from love means. He never had a serious relationship like me. Still I answer at him even though I know it's not worth it.
"She hasn't answered to any of my emails. I send her one every day. But I don't get any response"
"And obviously she won't respond. She doesn't want to. Get over it. Find a new chick or something. Go out meet people. But don't stay here full of misery" he answers and I shake my head. It's not that easy. But he can't understand.
"Ok, go out with this new girl that you're gonna dump after you have sex with her and then come here. I'll be here with my misery" I respond and after huffing he gets out of the apartment. Better now.
I scroll down the page. My eyes stay at the last email I sent her. Why are you so cruel to me? That's what I typed for a title. Because she DOES torture me. I really don't understand her. She first dumps me for Sue Sylvester and cheerios, then comes here for me, then leaves me again. What's going on with her? I open the message I wrote her. I read it for the millionth time.
From: Mike Chang
To: Tina Cohen Chang
Subject: Why are you so cruel with me?
-Hey Tina. You know it's one of the numerous messages I send you every day. But actually instead of telling you that you were not right to leave me again and all these… Please answer this question. The one that doesn't let me sleep at night. The one that tortures me since the day you left –for the second time. Why? Why are you so cruel with me? Why don't you just accept that whatever happens we belong together? That we shouldn't break up. Not once, nor twice but never. It's so stupid Tina. You and I both know that you love me. And I love you more than my own life. Why are you making this so dysfunctional? Why do you keep making both of us feel so miserable and unhappy?
I love you. Why is that so difficult to accept? Please answer to this message. Please don't ignore me. Try to think about what I'm telling you. I love you ok? I hope I'll see your response quickly.
Mike.-
I still don't have any answer from her.
I hear my cell phone ringing and I get up from the floor. It's Puck.
"Hey brooo" he says before I can speak and I smile.
"Hey Puck what's up?"
"Great I'm in Lima again"
"Nice what's going on there?" I ask and I can't help but wonder what Tina does.
"I know what you wanna learn Chang but I don't have that good news for you"
"What do you mean Puck? Is Tina ok?" there's no reason to hide. He's my friend anyway.
"Yeah great although a little bit of crazy those last days"
"Which means?"
"She organized a Sadie Hawkins dance here at Mc Kinley –which I attended yesterday it was great"
"To the point Puckerman" I say and I can sense him chuckle.
"Alright, she asked out Blaine" he says and suddenly I laugh hard.
"Ok so what's the bad news? They went like friends" I ask and he answers immediately.
"According to accurate sources they almost kissed while dancing, and then they danced again like really close, and this whole week they are inseparable and Tina sang a song at him to invite him at the Sadie Hawkins called I don't know how to love him" he says and I frown a little bit.
"Puck… Blaine is gay. And he loves Kurt. He can't be interested in Tina"
"That doesn't seem Tina can't fall in love with him"
"She can't" I almost shout and then try to calm down.
"Whoah Chang sorry I just wanted to inform you. You're my bro and I'm trying to help"
"I know Puck thanks. Can you… can you please keep informing me if anything new happens?" I ask and he accepts then says goodbye.
Tina with Blaine. Is she crazy? I go quickly again and type a message.
- From: Mike Chang
To: Tina Cohen Chang
Subject: Emergency!
WHAT are those rumors about you and Blaine? You can't like him. You know that. Why are you doing this? ANSWER ME. -
Please answer Tina
Those last chapters are sooo long. It takes me so much time to write them. I hope you liked this chapter even though it didn't have so much tike. I'm trying to write as much tike as I can. Thank you one more time! See ya all next time! Love you!
Also, If you haven't already, don't forget to read my new tike one-shot here:
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I hope you like it. And more one-shots are gonna come in the near future!