Luka woke up at first but couldn't go to sleep. He looked affectionately at his lover, Miharu, asleep in his arms, then at the puppy curled into Miharu's chest. He giggled then reluctantly got up to fix breakfast. Laharl-Sama raised his head and put it down again then crawling up to Miharu's face. He licked the sleeping boy which woke him up. Miharu looked at the puppy on his chest. He hollered loudly in surprise.

Luka came in with a worried look on his face. "Miharu?"

"G-g-get it off me! Luka help me quickly!" Miharu cried out with a look of pure horror and fear on his face. Luka chuckled and motioned to the puppy, Laharl-sama, who immediately jumped off the bed and scampered to Luka giving him a lick on his leg as a greeting. "Get dressed Miharu I'm making some rice and Miso soup right now!" Luka said cheerfully.

"L-Luka...Are you mad at me for something?" Miharu asked softly rolling over onto his stomach and looked at him with another look of fear.

"Don't be so paranoid first thing in the morning." Luka said sighing. "How could I be mad at you after what happened last night." He added his voice a little sexier.

"I'm sorry. I'm so sorry." Miharu replied quietly as got up and walked behind Luka and placed his head on the other's back. "I just don't know right now."

"Well I do!" Luka said happily as he spun around and gave Miharu a quick kiss. "Now get dressed, you can't skip more school when you're planning on becoming a writer!" Luka said as he walked toward the kitchen. "Keep me company while I cook Laharl-sama!" Luka yelled back at the puppy. "I'll even give you a little taste!" He added in a whispered voice. Laharl-sama happily followed him.

"Okay." Miharu said walking to his own room and shutting the wood door a little harder than usual. He got dressed in a pair of ripped jeans, a black tanktop and his thick banded bracelets. He had more on than usual due to the bandages covering his wounds. He came out of his room and sat down at the bar heavily. He stared at the granite countertop. His eyes were glassy and he was severely pale.

"Miharu are you ok?" Luka asked concerned as he set the food on their table and started eating.

"I'm fine, I guess…" Miharu was obviously lying as he began to eat his food.

"Are you sure you don't want to tell me what's wrong?" Luka asked again with his mouth stuffed full of rice.

"W-well...I had a nightmare last night." Miharu replied with a shaky sigh.

"Wanna tell me about it?" Luka asked softly with just a hint of curiosity in his voice.

"I was younger and covered in I don't know whose blood. I was dirty and obviously homeless. I saw this young man. He was kind. He told me: 'Shh. You're safe now' and that's when I started to cry and fell unconscious. Next thing I knew I was waking up in your arms. That's when I heard a gunshot and you fell on top of me, dead. I screamed when I realized what I had done. That's when the mutt woke me up." Miharu explained nearly breaking down into tears multiple times.

"Laharl-sama isn't just a mutt you know! He's a purebred mutt!" Luka joked.

"I'm not in the mood for a joke!" Miharu yelled as a single streaked his face.

"I'm sorry!" Luka said immediately as he leaned forward and wiped the tear from Miharu's cheek. Then he smiled. "So you do remember." He said happily.

"What do you mean I remember?" Miharu asked as his blood ran cold. "Don't tell me… I shot you?"

"No way!" Luka said. "That was just your worries manifesting themselves into your dreams. I mean the first part, that nice young man was me!" He said grinning from ear to ear.

"I don't get it… I don't remember having that happen at all. What's wrong with me?" Miharu asked grabbing his head.

"Absolutely nothing." Luka said softly as he gently placed his hand on top of Miharu's "At that time you were having problems with your memory due to some sort of trauma that you may never remember."

"Wait but that means that I may have forgotten something important about you! I-I need to remember what happened. D-do you think there's some history record on me somewhere? I need to know what I've forgo-!" Miharu trailed off like every time he had a panic attack.

"You will remember when you're ready, Miharu." Luka said sternly in his all business speech again. "If you find out before your memory you may have an even bigger panic attack that could send you into a coma or even erase all of your memory."

Miharu's eyes widen as he jumped out of the chair and ran into his room mumbling nonsense about his father. Suddenly a muffled scream was heard. Cries. More screams. A strangled sob. When was it going to end.

Luka abandoned his breakfast and quickly ran into Miharu's room and wrapped his arms around Miharu.

"Miharu, You did remember the first time we met though. Which means that your memory is slowly coming back!"

"Father...No please you can't do that. I-I'm your son. It's wrong!" Miharu yelled indicating a panic attack. "Father! Please it's too big it'll hurt. You can't!"

Luka's face flashed with anger but instead of running away he held Miharu's face and yelled. "I'm not your father, I'm Luka! I love you dammit so snap out of it!" Luka then kissed Miharu and once again wrapped his arms around him.

"L-Luka, Father's coming. Help me! He'll do it again!" Miharu trembled.

"No he's not, Miharu. Your ok. I'm right here and I won't let anyone hurt you like that ever again!" Luka said soothingly.

"He is! No matter where I am he'll find me! I'm scared, Luka! I-I don't want this anymore! I don't want this anymore.

Luka felt hurt by what Miharu said. "You don't trust me? What is it you can't do anymore?" He asked sadly

"I-I trust you. I can't live in fear anymore! I don't want to live in fear any more. Even if he's not here, he'll pass the abuse job onto another person and they'll find me and hurt me. Luka I want to move away. I don't want to stay in this town anymore." Miharu sobbed.

"Miharu do you want to track down your parents to gain back your lost memory, even if it means the possibility of slipping into a coma or losing your entire memory?" Luka asked gravely.

"I don't! I just don't want them to track me down!" Miharu wiped a sore eye as his panic attack finished.

"I promise as soon as we finish school I'll go to a medical school far, far away and we can live in peace!" Luka ran to his room and returned a minute later "If you really want to remember what you had forgotten open this." Luka said as he handed Miharu an unopened envelope. It was given to you by child services, I just never wanted you to read it out of fear of what might happen..." Luka's voice quietly trailed off.

Miharu looked at the envelope and looked at Luka. He was waiting for approval.

"It's your choice." Luka said.

"What do you want, Luka. Do you want me to read it or not." Miharu's voice choked.

"I just want you to be happy." Luka said. "And no matter what I want you to stay by my side. Luka leaned down and kissed Miharu's forehead.

Miharu's hands shook as he opened the letter. He took out the slip of paper and sighed. He barely hold on to it let alone do anything else with it. He opened it.

Luka stared at Miharu looking for any changes in his facial expression.

Dear Saito Miharu,

Ayumu Luka reports finding you in an alleyway dirty and bloody.

It was obvious that you were uninjured. We tested the blood on your

clothes. The test came out as your father, Kamane Saito,0 and mother, Mika Saito.

It turns out after investigating the matter Your mother

killed your father and then herself to protect you. We have you under the

care of the Ayumu family.

Ayumu Luka told us that he will protect you and if any problems were to

come up he would contact his caretakers. We understand you most likely do not

want to talk about this so we will not make you. You are not in trouble. You

did nothing wrong. We strongly advise staying away from

any family or family friends due to the fact that they may just try to hurt you.

Sincerely,

Child services

Miharu's face twisted into one of pain and anguish. Luka immediately embraced Miharu hoping that he could feel him. Miharu began to cry realizing this letter was the cause of the nights when Luka would sit at his desk and just sigh. He would run a hand over his face in a stressed way. This piece of paper was the cause of Luka's stress. Miharu pushed him away gently and ripped the letter in two then into small shreds. Luka's eyes widened.

"What?" Luka asked surprised.

"This has been making you suffer. I won't allow that to happen in this house!" Miharu smiled sadly.

"Can you tell me what it said?" Luka asked curiously.

"My parents were killed. The blood on me was from them. When you found me you and your family took me in. It said you vowed to protect me and not to go near family or family friends because they may try to hurt me." Miharu snuggled into Luka's chest.

Luka blushed. "Everythings going to be all right isn't' it." Luka said smiling.

"Yeah. Everything's going to be fine. Luka."

Miharu wiped the sweat from his forehead and looked at all the boxes. He sighed and began to push them out into the hallway. "Luka! I'm done packing up my room? Is everything else done?" He called.

"Just about!" Luka called out cheerfully. As he walked up behind Miharu and hung on his small shoulders.

"I'm so glad to be out of school finally." Miharu smiled as he looked at the empty house.

"You should try sending one of your novels to a publishing company when we move into the new place!" Luka suggested.

"I will. I am going to be a novelist." Miharu said pushing the box towards another clump. Just then a fairly large dog ran into the room and dropped a chew toy into one of the boxes. "Good boy Laharl-sama!" Miharu said affectionately as he patted Laharl-sama's head earning a lick.

Miharu sighed and called the moving guys into the room to moved the last boxes. They were finally on their way to their new life. Luka drove toward their new home with Miharu at his side and Laharl-sama in the back.

"Hey Miharu…" Luka said.

"Yes, Luka?" Miharu asked happily feeling around for his knife in his pocket to make sure it was there.

"I love you."

"I love you too."