I didn't get all that far before Ichigo stopped me. I felt even more aggravated when he stopped me, and I really wanted to be alone. Normally, it wouldn't bother me that much to have somebody talk to me, but right now, I really didn't want to talk to anybody. That didn't work out much with my curiosity about what the heck an Arrancar is. I already knew that if I told Ichigo to leave me alone, he wouldn't. He obviously had experience with this Arrancar before. If he kept it from me, then I would definitely tell him to go away. I was a bit moody.
"You can't stay away from him forever. You left your body there." Ichigo said to me, grabbing my shoulders.
"I can try." I muttered.
He rolled his eyes. "Don't do that."
"What the heck did that Ulquiorra guy mean he is an Arrancar?" I snapped at him. "How come I was never told about this?"
He sighed and released my shoulders. "I'm sorry. I thought that problem was gone, that's why I never said anything about it. If I would've thought that Ulquiorra wasn't dead—although I swore I killed him—I would have told you."
I took a couple steps back. "Even if the problem was gone, you still should have told me. You can't keep doing this where you don't tell me stuff if you feel like it doesn't affect me."
He reached towards me but I recoiled from his hand. I was still upset. "Saru, I didn't know that you felt like that."
"You should have asked me." I snapped at him, feeling hurt. "You should have said something, or asked me."
"This is an overreaction Saru. I haven't kept that much from you." He snapped.
"You've kept enough from me!" I shouted. "I don't care if it wasn't that much! It was enough!" I was getting angrier and angrier. "You didn't tell me the thing about the Vizards, and now you haven't told me about these stupid Arrancar thing!"
"Saru!" Now he looked mad. "I would explain stuff to you, I've just been waiting! Why don't you understand?"
"Why don't you understand that you shouldn't wait to tell me things!" I took a few more steps back.
He glared at me, then took a few deep breaths and sighed. "I'm sorry. Really."
I just huffed angrily. "Right. Whatever."
"Look, I'll explain. Can you just calm down?" He still looked frustrated, but sounded a lot calmer than I actually felt.
"No, I can't." I growled.
I was about ready to walk off again, but I already knew if I did, he would stop me again. I wanted to be alone more than anything right now, but with the whole incident with Ulquiorra, I doubt I'll be allowed to go anywhere by myself. That was a little frustrating, but it didn't matter, I couldn't do anything to change it. I glared at him, still feeling hurt that he kept stuff from me, although it wasn't much. He didn't approach me, and he didn't back away. We were basically having a stand-off. I felt anger and betrayal radiating from my blade. I ignored it, although it was affecting my mood a little bit. I blinked, saw Yoso's angered face, and then I was back in reality. Yoso and I seemed to be bound to each other ever since the Hollow fight. I didn't understand how that worked, but I didn't want to ask, because I was afraid that he would say that it wasn't possible and that I was just making it up.
We stood there for a few more minutes, before I could completely ignore Yoso's rage, and calm myself down at the same time. I didn't get closer to Ichigo, but my glare turned into just a stare, and I relaxed slightly. I was ready for an explanation, and it was easy to tell that I was, now that I calmed myself down. I realized I was standing in a defensive position, so I let my arms fall to my side, and I just waited patiently.
"Are you calm now?" He asked.
I slowly nodded, not wanting to speak, I wasn't sure if I sounded calm or not. He hesitated, didn't get any closer to me, but he did explain it; he even explained what Ulquiorra meant by his comment. I felt my eyes go wide, and I stared at him for what seemed like ages. I wasn't processing what he said. I finally just let it all sink in, and I finally stepped forward, my hands hanging limply; I wished I had pockets in this outfit.
"Sorry." I muttered.
"It's alright." He rubbed my shoulder. "Really, I know how you're feeling right now. Let's just go back, and see if we can get Urahara to apologize, alright?"
I nodded and we held hands as we walked back to Urahara's shop. We were silent; I was unable to comment about anything he said. I didn't understand how he was still here, after his original fight with Ulquiorra where his Hollow defeated him. But it made a fact obviously clear to me; the Hollow would never completely go away. With all the training in the world, it wouldn't ever matter, I would always have to deal with her. The question is, how did Ichigo deal with his? I wanted to ask, but it would probably involve bringing Yoso and I's deep, and new, found connection. If that was normal, then I didn't need to worry, but if it wasn't, then I would really be freaking out. I wasn't ready for that, so I decided that I would bring it up later.
As we got back, Urahara was nowhere to be seen, which allowed me to breathe easier, except the fact that he was probably inside. I sighed; I really didn't want to go inside if he was in there, I just knew I had to go in there to get back into my body. Ichigo must've realized how tensed up I had gotten, because he squeezed my hand, in a reassuring way. If he was in there, I would only go in there, get in my body, and get back out again. But when we went inside, I couldn't' find my body. Anywhere. And Urahara was standing there smirking.
"What did you do with my body?" I snapped at him.
"I'll give it back…after…." He suddenly trailed off.
"After what?"
"After training."