I ignored Ichigo's alarmed shouts at me to leave, and head butted Ulquiorra, as the hollow skin now covered the top of my head completely and I had back facing horns, but I hit him with the middle of them, which were still sharp, and sent him stumbling backwards. He lashed his tail at me and I blocked it with my own, getting a grip on his.

"Saru, stop!" Ichigo yelled.

I looked at him. "Why should I listen to you?"

I looked back at Ulquiorra as I heard Ichigo gasp in surprise. "Does she not recognize me?"

"I don't think that's it at all." I heard the red-head say as I kept Ulquiorra still by holding his tail and charging a cero directly at him. "I think she can't tell if we're enemies or friends. She knows who we are."

I fired the cero, Ulquiorra protected himself with his wings, but at such a short range, his wings got blasted clean off and I released his tail so he got sent flying backwards. He slammed into a column quite a ways away from us.

"Saru." It was Ichigo again. I was getting annoyed. "Look at me."

I turned and faced him. His eyes widened. "No."

I looked down at my chest. The hole had finished opening. But why wasn't I a full hollow? And why was I so confused about who I should side with? Something seemed off here.

"You must be incomplete…" His face suddenly went blank.

"I don't know who to…" I trailed off and frowned, staring hard at Ichigo. Something stirred inside of me when I looked at him. But what was it? I gripped my head as it pounded from the confusion.

"Remember Ulquiorra is the real enemy. Don't let the Arrancar injection change that. Keep fighting." The voices sounded more individualized. I got even more confused and I dropped to my knees.

Something was wrong. Why can't I remember who is the enemy? I was so sure it was Ulquiorra at the beginning and now I'm doubting myself. I couldn't make any sense of it. My vision blurred and suddenly I was inside my head. My inner world was a dead desert. My stomach clenched. I knew this wasn't right.

"Saru!" Someone shouted at me from behind, I turned around.

It was Yoso and the hollow, they were almost completely fuzed together. "You have to remember that Ulquiorra is the enemy. You have to remember that you can't give up, even if you just want to give in to the transformation. You're already half way there, you're chest has a hole in it. You have to fight it so it doesn't become too late." I was thrust back out of my head, to find myself shuddering on the ground, curled up in a ball.

My mind was racing. I couldn't make any sense of what was going on. I couldn't move; I felt sick. Every movement and I felt like throwing up. Was this the end for me? Was my body locking up so I couldn't resist as it finished the change? I couldn't let it. I noticed the fight was continuing, moving further away from me. I slowly uncurled, having to stop after getting hit with a wave of nausea before I could keep moving. My movements were slow, getting up was practically impossible. I just sat on my hands and knees, staring at the ground, slowly piecing together was had temporarily been distorted in my frenzy to stop the change. Why did I forget whose side I was on? I had to get up and help them, show them that I remember. The injection really messed me up, but I was able to think clearly now, which means it was less effective.

I slowly got to my feet, and as soon as the nausea went away, started running towards the fight, solely focused on Ulquiorra. My body seemed to know what to do because I appeared right behind him without meaning to, and with claws full of electricity, ripped apart his newly regenerated wings and attacked his back. I hadn't realized my left arm had hollowfied up to my elbow; I hadn't been paying attention to that until now. I continued slicing apart his back, blood spurting everywhere, splattering onto me. He whirled around and planted a solid kick into my gut, I got thrown backwards, but I flared my wings out to prevent myself from going back too far. I landed and charged forward again, firing a cero I didn't even know I had charged. He was so preoccupied with the other three, his wings weren't regenerating, so the cero his him square on in the back. He was thrown forward and slammed into a wall, dust and rubble exploding everywhere. I noticed he wasn't getting up when I approached. And that's when the pain in my head started. I dropped to my knees and put my hands over my ears. I couldn't make it stop. The pain was only getting worse. I started screaming.

"Get her away from him, we'll finish this." Someone said, but at this point I couldn't tell who.

"Right." I felt someone grab me under my armpits and flash step away. The pain lessened.

I was able to sit up and look around. It was Rukia who had grabbed me. I stared blankly at her.

"What's going on?"

"They're finishing him off, then we have to get you to Soul Society because we gotta reverse this." She bit her lip, like she wasn't sure taking me there could get me fixed.

"Is he dead?" I felt a spike and then Ulquiorra's reiatsu was gone.

"He is now. Hopefully he stays dead this time."

My head started pounding even harder than it had and I hissed, and my vision blurred violently. I lost consciousness before the other two came to us.

When I came to, my throat was raw, from screaming, my body was thrashing about uncontrollably. I didn't understand, I couldn't control myself. I could tell I was somewhere I didn't recognize. I heard voices going back and forth, sounding panicked and agitated. I recognized none of them, but I tried to make my body stop thrashing, but it didn't work. A hoarse scream escaped my throat and I wished I would lose consciousness.

"Is it getting worse?" One voice sounded really irritated.

"It's progressing a lot slower, but it is getting worse." Another sounded annoyed at the irritated one.

"Is the injection finished yet? The final injection?" The irritated one shouted.

"Almost!" The annoyed one snapped back. "And keep him out until I'm done!"

"That won't be easy." The irritated one now just sounded tired.

"But you can do it." The annoyed one growled. "Do it so I can finish without distractions. Otherwise I can't save her."

Before I could make an understanding of what was going on I went back under.

When I came to, I was in a different place, but I guessed still in Soul Society. I was staring at the ceiling, lying on a mat on the floor. I slowly sat up, testing my hands. Normal. I was normal. I stretched my fingers, and curled them into a fist, and let them rest on the blanket covering my legs. I blinked and looked around. The room I was in was entirely empty, and totally blindingly white. And the door was white. Where exactly was I?

I started to stand up but my legs gave out. I growled and pounded the mat in frustration. I felt an unusual amount of anger pulsing through my body. I nearly punched the floor and let out a hiss between my teeth. I never felt this kind of thing before. Was it an after effect of what Ulquiorra did to me? I shouted in anger and hit my palms against my forehead. I took deep breaths and closed my eyes, which wasn't a good idea. I saw it all over again and I opened my eyes, gasping, and my heart pounding. I threw myself against the wall, panting. And then the door opened, and someone stepped in.

It was Ichigo.