My thoughts returned to my mind then. Jacob had just appeared only metres away from us. I pulled away from Luke.
"No, I, I can't. You know that."
"You can if it's what you want." Luke looked at Jacob. "Nod if you agree. I'm assuming you can't talk when you're fluffy?"
Jacob nodded. I ran over to him at super speed and flung my arms around his neck. "Jacob, I'm so confused."
"Don't be, we're all here to support and love you. You have literally forever to make your choices, or not make them." Why did Luke have to sound so much like Jacob? I knew Jacob was annoyed with Luke, but he would accept him as long as I didn't get hurt.
"But I can't love you both, not like this." I was almost crying now. "It's not right. Luke, you know I'll love Jacob that bit more, forever? But please remember I'll never stop loving you." He came over and hugged me. Jacob was still standing right next to me. When Luke let go, I moved over to Jacob's side and leant on his strong, furry shoulder. "Please just try to get along with each other, and please stop being so competitive over me."
"Yes boss." Luke mock surrendered. Jacob snuggled his head up to me. I loved it when he did that. Those replies where promises enough for me.
I thought I'd got things right in my head. I'd be with Jacob, but no-one minded if I loved Luke, maybe as a brother or best friend. Only problem was, he wasn't either of those.
Luke kept trying to get in closer, but not getting at Jacob. He wanted me to give him a day, just one day, where I opened my eyes to my other option. I kept saying I didn't need more mess, and if this was going to work, he needed to let me do it my way.
Example:
Luke had got a better control of his hunger. Jacob and I accompanied him hunting. We were fairly deep into the forest when Jacob caught the scent of something. He went off to follow it, and as soon as he was gone, Luke was straight to the point.
He was there, suddenly, right by my neck from behind. I turned my head to give him 'the glare' when Jacob sticks one paw out by Luke's knees, and knocks him into a face plant. I don't know how he was there so fast, but I do remember very clearly, the sight of Luke landing face first in the mud by my feet. He got up, mud all over his face, smiled and jumped backwards at Jacob. They rumbled for a bit, then Luke would be standing there with his foot on Jacob's stomach. Then Jacob would grab his foot and they would play fight at super speed for a few seconds. This usually ended with Jacob pinning Luke flat on the floor, face up. Just to annoy him, Jacob would sometimes lick Luke's hair, and then retch hairballs for the next half hour.
This kind of thing happened every time, and it was kind of fun. I think the two numbskulls I loved were becoming friends. Maybe.
Hey um, I'm Jacob. Yeah I'm a werewolf. Sort of. Well, not really at all. We're shifters. I'm the alpha in a pack of wolf shifters, grandson of Ephraim Black.
Yeah, this Luke guy is a total nuthead. I know he keeps trying to hit on my girl, but, you just can't TOTALLY hate the guy. I would fight for her if he got her first and I loved her too. Whoever is reading this, I hope you'd do the same.
Ever since I imprinted on Nessie, she's been the only thing that matters. I haven't spoiled her too much... ok maybe a little, but when she knows she needs something (which just means really really really want) she will find her ways of getting it. For instance, she needed me, even after I saw her with that leech, so she got me. She needed him, so somehow, she kept him of execution. Yes I'm annoyed. He's a frickin nuisance. She needed both of us in her life, and what a surprise, here we are, two for one.
(God I hate interviews) What else do I say?... No I don't like him... Why the hell do you think I'm gay?!... I do not shift into a unicorn... I'm not pink... I need proper ideas... No. Just no. No way. Uh uh. I am not discussing my sex life... Please no. YOU ARE NOT FIRING ME I AM A VERY IMPORTANT PART OF THIS STORY...
Fine.
So, yes I did kiss Bella. Twice. The first time, I nearly broke her hand, although that was totally not my fault. The second, saved my life. I would have gone and killed myself if she hadn't realised she loved me. But I do not love her anymore.
I love Nessie. Renesmee Cullen. If I could change her, I definitely wouldn't. If she was a shifter, she wouldn't be her. If she was human (this is just sick) she wouldn't be the Nessie I love. Sorry humans. I have kissed her a lot. A lot. She keeps asking me to go further, but I don't want to ruin her. I'll soon give in, I know. But I want to make her youth last. Because after, she'll be different. When Bella had Nessie, she changed, loads. I'm glad, in a way, because I loved the old Bella, not the new one. But I don't want that to happen to Nessie. I want her to always be her, never changing. Never growing older. I know that saying no just so she'll love me is selfish, but we can all have something we want, right?
That's it. (And just for the record I am still a virgin. Where did you reader people get the idea to write stories about me imprinting on Aro? I mean wtf?... No I don't wanna... I give up.)