You'd know if I owned Death Note. YAOI HEAVON!

Chapter 4

Light woke up from a gentle squeeze to his torso. He opened his eyes and immediately regretted it. L and Light were facing each other and L had his arms around the teen's waist. Light glared at L's sleeping figure. He kicked L off the bed, waking him up, but because of the chain he fell right on top of him. They were in a rather odd position with Light straddling L's waist and L sprawled out beneath him.

"Ryuzaki-!" Light's entire face turned red with embarrassment. L tried, and failed, to hide his amused smirk.

"It's your own fault for kicking me out of the bed."

"You were the one cuddling me in my sleep! Perv!" Light growled down at him.

L growled right back, "Damn brat." Light slapped him making L's head turn to the side from the momentum. L flipped them so he was straddling Light's waist and he pinned Light's wrists above his head. Light squirmed beneath him. L moved his face so that it was lined up with Light's and their lips were under a centimeter apart. "Listen here." L hissed while Light nervously glanced at L's lips. "I could have you arrested if I was even .1 percent sure you're Kira, so I advise you to calm down and listen to me." L's glare lessened until he was practically gazing down at the boy. "Understand?" Light nodded and stopped squirming. His eyes were no longer at L's lips but it was almost if they were gazing into each others' eyes. They were both caught up in the moment. Light's hands moved up and rested on L's hips and L stroked Light's cheek with the back of his hand. L leaned in the rest of the way and pressed his lips to Light's. Their lips moved together in sync and L moved his hands into Light's hair.

"Ryuzaki." Light softly whispered onto the detective's lips making L smile.

L felt Light's tongue on his lower lip and immediately got hard. L opened his mouth and shoved his tongue full force into the teen's earning him a moan of enjoyment. Their eyes were closed and their bodies and tongues moved against each others'. L rubbed the front of his pants down onto Light's, they were both in pure ecstasy.

The door was swung open and they heard a shriek. Light and L jumped away from each other, wiping their mouths with the back of their hands. "Ryuzaki! Light!" Matsuda's eyes were wide as he stared.

"It's not what it looks like!" Light looked horrified that they were caught. Matsuda looked at L for confirmation who just shrugged.

L shoved his hands into his pockets. "What you just saw... it was a mistake Matsuda, nothing more." Light blinked and visibly flinched at the words. He stared at the ground and shuffled his feet.

Matsuda smiled, "Oh, alright. I trust you Ryuzaki." He turned and left.

Light turned away from L and L sighed. "Light-kun..."

"Don't talk to me!" Light snapped.

The chain jingled as L removed his hands from his pockets. It was quiet for a second. "Very well." L unlocked the chain from Light's wrist. "You may shower."

Light immediately went into the bathroom and locked the door. He took a long shower and didn't get out until the feeling that he was about to cry passed. He didn't know if what L said to Matsuda was the truth but Light didn't care, it was the fact that he said it at all that hurt. It was silly for Light to be upset over a guy who pissed him off so much but it didn't matter to Light. What mattered was the unusual aching feeling in his chest. The feeling that stayed when Ryuzaki chained them back together. It stayed while L tried to make polite small talk but Light just ignored him. It stayed while they worked, side by side, for hours. It stayed while L kept nervously glancing at him in between working. It didn't seem to want to go away at all.

It was when the investigation team took a break for dinner when L finally tried to talk to Light again. "Let's get some fresh air, Light-kun." Light didn't even look at him, but he nodded which was a start. "Hungry?" L earned another nod. "Where would you like to eat?" Light didn't speak, no nod, nothing. L waited for a few minutes, giving him a few seconds to answer.

"Whatever you want." Light's voice was even and emotionless.

L nodded and stood, Light standing too. L gazed at the boy, really looked at him. If you had no idea what had happened you'd think everything was fine. But, Light's shoulders were slumped and he refused to meet L's eyes. His hair was a mess and his eyes darted. L knew he must've upset him greatly. I'll make it up to you Light-kun, L thought to himself.

L led Light outside and down the sidewalk. He felt no need to babble without anyone to answer him so they were silent. Light walked as far from L as the chain would allow and he didn't react to the stares like he usually would.

They walked into a sushi restaurant with no sweets in sight. They were seated way in the back so that they wouldn't scare away the costumers. They sat a cross from each other. Light still refused to look anywhere near L.

"You're acting very un-Kira like." L tried for a smile. He tried to get Light to speak again. "So, unlucky Matsuda, huh?" L laughed but it sounded nervous and shaky. "Well-"

Light finally met L's eyes, his eyes were hard and uncaring. "Don't talk to your mistake."

"Light-kun..." L started.

"Don't worry about it. All it was was a mistake to you. It was a mistake for me too." Light snapped and L's eyes widened seeing how much he had actually hurt Light. "We're simply coworkers, nothing more." Their food was set in front of them but Light pushed it away. "I'm not hungry anymore. Can we go?"

L wordlessly nodded and stood. Leaving the sushi untouched they returned to the workroom finding the rest of the team back already. They sat beside each other and started working but L couldn't seem to concentrate to get anything done.

"You can all go home, we'll pick this up tomorrow." He finally dismissed everybody after ten minutes of staring aimlessly at his computer screen. Only after everyone left did L speak again. "Light-kun, you need to eat. I'll make you something." Light didn't answer but he also didn't object when L pulled him into the kitchen.

L got out an apron and tied it around his waist. Light couldn't help his snicker which was the exact reaction L hopped for. L pulled out a box of macaroni and Light scoffed. "You call that a meal?"

"Only the best for my Light-kun!"

Light rolled his eyes but didn't correct him for claiming him. "Whatever Ryuzaki."

L made the macaroni and afterwards Light did end up eating it when L wasn't watching. But L noticed and he had to hide his smile. Light pretended to be difficult but he actually wasn't at all. He tried to act all grown up and mature but L knew that if Light could open up enough he'd have a youngish glow. L smiled small just thinking about it. For one day he'd give anything to see Light act like a real teenager...

The next day Light went back to refusing to talk to L, especially in front of Matsuda. He knew it was childish and that L probably didn't mind the silence but he did it anyway. He didn't get much work done, his thoughts always straying to the detective's lanky frame with legs up to... he mentally shook his thoughts away and scolded himself for thinking such things. L was Light's boss and he refused to think of him as anything more. Besides the detective basically already said he wasn't interested but that didn't stop Light from glancing at him every so often.

"Hmm." Everyone turned towards L who kept his eyes on his glowing computer screen. "It seems that all of the gang rivals of the one called Bloodhound have all dissapeared, all there members died of heart attacks. Definitely not a coincidence." Everyone murmured their agreements. L turned his chair to face the investigation team. "I believe we need to send a new decoy member to infultrate and steal the Death Note as evidence." No one disagreed with the world renowed detevtive. "I believe I shall be the one to-"

Light cut in. "Out of the question, Ryuzaki. You're too valuable."

"My life is no more valuable than anyone elses." L stated plainly.

"Bullshit!" Light snapped. The entire room was now silent and L blinked at the outburst. All eyes were now on Light. "I think I should be the one." His father opened his mouth to argue but Light held up his hand for silence. "Think about it, he probably knows all of the police members' names and faces. So,if he reconizes any of you then you're good as dead."

L looked up at Light with an unplaced emotion in his eye. "They don't know who I am, Light-kun."

Light turned so that he was looking at L. "Yes." he agreed. "But, if they found out what you were doing than the loss would be so much greater. The world needs you Ryuzaki." His voice broke and he lowered his voice so only L could hear him. "More than I ever could."

L just stared at the boy, he couldn't argue with logic like that. He didn't want Light to do it but he knew it was probably for the best. The task force was silent, waiting for L to give the go ahead. He didn't want to send his Light into a dangerous situation though. L was actually getting angry at Light's offer. "Do you have a death wish?" he snapped at Light.

Light blinked, taken back by the response. "No, I-"

L glared up at the distraught teen. "You'll probably end up dead if I were to say yes. Dead Light-kun! It's too dangerous for such a child!"

Light clenched his fists and glared back down at L. "I'm not a child! I don't need you to take care of me!"

"Obviously you do!" L screamed back. "Or else you'll end up dead!"

"I can help if you let me, L!"

"Out of the question! I'll do it myself!"

Light controlled himself but let out a low growl. "I won't allow that."

L actually smirked. "Does little Light-kun have a crush on me or something?"

"I hate you." L could barely hear Light's voice but he repeated himself. "I hate you, Ryuzaki." Light's eyes looked completely broken. Why did L have the need to say such a thing?

L turned to the task force. "We'll pick this up tomorrow." They all practically ran for the door. Then L turned back to Light. "That was unkind of me." No answer. "Don't do this Light-kun. Don't push me away." L reached out and took Light's hand but it was limp in his grasp. "Light-kun is afraid of getting close to anyone for fear of getting hurt." L observed.

Light smiled bitterly. "Can you blame me? Honestly? You can't. Love doesn't exist. I'm just a mistake."

"Light-kun... Come on now, don't be like that. I only said that so Matsuda wouldn't say anything."

"I get it. You're embarrassed of me."

"That's not what I meant and you know it. I just thought that was what you wanted."

"Well you were wrong." Light pulled on the chain, as if to break it. "Dammit! I just wanted to be away from you for five fucking seconds!"

L stood and put a hand on Light's shoulder, making him stop struggling and flinch away. L tried again, this time Light actually let him rest it there. "Can I be the one person you don't push away?" L was begging. "Let me be the one person who keeps you safe." L rubbed his thumb in small circles.

Light's bottom lip trembled slightly. "You promise? You won't leave me?"

L shook his head no. "Not unless I were to die."

Light let L embrace him and they just stood there until Watari came in and served them dinner. There was a new happiness to Light and a smile would grace his lips every now and then when it wouldn't before.

A/N: L can be such a sweetheart! Light doesn't know how lucky he is! Guys can be such assholes... no offense guys but in my experiences its true... heh. sorry if i dissapointed you with the lack of sex! Damn that Matsuda.(;