Once Upon A Straight Tequila Night
Chapter 11 - Second Chances
Derek's POV
Finally after being in New Mexico for almost 2 weeks we are getting ready yo board the jet and make our way back to Quantico VA, I am going to take the time on this flight to put pen to paper and write my Baby Girl a letter to confess to her that while being away from her for the the past 2 weeks has made realize what is missing in my life and what is missing is her I have barely been able to keep my mind on the job at hand while here in New Mexico as I have been thinking about Penelope, but now I am on my way home and ready to fight for a second chance to have my one true love.
The jet takes off and I pull out my pen and paper and being writing my letter to Penelope,
Dear Baby Girl,
I just want to let you know that I am so sorry for being such a jerk to you, I should have let you explain but instead I jumped to conclusions and it made you upset, I will do absolutely anything to try and make it up to you, I never intended to upset you but when I saw you with your brother I thought that he was coming to take you away from me again and I snapped because I told you that I loved you and then here is someone else that was making you smile and laugh.
Had I let you explain who he was we could have avoid both of our heartaches but I was jealous and the jealousy turned me into a jerk and for that I am very sorry, I have thought about calling or texting you but I thought I would leave you be to sort through what ever feelings you have towards me and I will completely understand if you want nothing to do with me, believe me when I say this I wanted nothing to do with me after the way I acted towards you but unfortunately I couldn't do anything about that.
And last but not least please Baby Girl if you decide that you don't hate me could I please have a second chance, I am in love with you Penelope and I have been for sometime.
With All my love
Derek
I feel better now that I have poured my heart out on paper, now all I have to do is deliver it on my way home tonight I have a key so I can get in the main door and I will slip it under her door and hopefully she reads it and hopefully she give me a second chance to make it up to her.
The jet lands in Quantico VA everybody grabs their bags and we get off the jet our SUV's are there waiting for us I choose to ride with Hotch and Rossi while Reid rides with JJ and Emily, the girls have been hating on me ever since they found out that I was a jerk to Penelope, we arrive back the office and we all head up to get our paperwork done before we get to go home I go straight to my desk and begin my paperwork so that I can get out of here and get to drop the letter off at Penelope's apartment.
I have finally finished my paperwork I gather it all together and take it to Hotch's office I knock on his door and he says "come in" I enter his office and place the files on his desk and then turn to walk out but he says "Derek what is going on with you" I sigh and turn back around to face him and say "I think I have screwed up my chance with Penelope, I have been a complete and utter jerk to her so I gave her some space and I have missed hearing her voice and I have missed being in her company so I am feeling just a little down in the dumps at the moment but on the plane ride home I sat and wrote her a letter and I am hoping that she will give me a second chance" Hotch looks at me and says "well lets hope she does give you a second chance because you look like shit, go home and get some sleep and we are on 2 week stand down as of tonight so enjoy your time off."
Getting into my SUV all I can think about is my Baby Girl as I drive towards her apartment when I get to her apartment I park my SUV and get out then head to the door I find the key and insert it in the lock and turn the key and open the door I entered the building and made my way up the stairs to Penelope's apartment door and slipped the letter under the door and then got out of there before I knocked on the door to beg her to give me a second chance.
Arriving home I am once again greeted by an energetic Clooney who has been patiently waiting for me to get home, he jumps up at me wanting attention I give him a pat and a scratch behind his ears as I dump my go bag near the door I move through the house and into the kitchen and give Clooney a bowl of kibble before heading to the living room and sat down on the couch Clooney jumped up on the couch with me and lay his head in my lap as I watched a movie on tv before calling it a night I am worn out as I have not slept well for the past 2 weeks.
Penelope's POV
Since being released from the hospital I have been on strict instructions from my doctor he doesn't want me lifting anything and he wants me to rest as much as possible but all I can think about is how much I miss Derek even though he has been acting like a jerk, I miss our flirtation and witty banter I miss the excitement that runs through my body when he is near and most of all I miss his company but with him acting all possessive over me is not helping to get me better, the team has been away on a case for 2 weeks now and he has not so much as called or texted me which just goes to show that he really doesn't care about me.
Markus and I have spend most of our time cooped up in this little apartment watching movies and playing online MMORPG (massively multi-player online role playing games) while I recover from being shot and having surgery, by the end of the second week I really want to get out of the house and go back to work but I still have another 2 weeks left of sick leave.
I am sitting on the couch watching a movie when my cell phone rings I look at the caller ID and see that it is JJ swiping at the screen to answer I say " hey Jayje how are you" JJ chuckles and says "hey Garcie I am fine how are you" I smile half-heatedly and say "I am ok just getting a little sick of being stuck in my apartment I am ready to go out and face the world, because being tuck here bored has me thinking about Derek all the time and at the moment I don't want tot hunk of him he has been a jerk to me, did you know Jayje he has not bothered to call or text me the whole time you guys have been away and here I was thinking that he cared for me ... huh... yeah right the only person he thinks about is himself and I don't need that right now.
JJ listened as Penelope rambled on about Derek before saying "Garcie do you really want to know something, Rossi ripped Derek a new pair on the flight over to New Mexico about his treatment of you and to be quite honest with you Derek's head has not been on this case the past 2 weeks and I spoke to him the other night and I asked him if he had spoken to you and he told me no he hadn't and do you want to know his reason why he hadn't called you is, his reason for not calling or texting you s because he wanted to give you some time to deal with everything you need to deal with without his jealousy taking over and so that he didn't upset you and slow your healing, but the entire time we have been in New Mexico he has been thinking of you Pen he looks like shit because he is not sleeping nor eating properly when we get back to the hotel each night he doesn't go to his room he head straight for the hotel bar and drinks until he needs to be helped back to his room he drinks shot after shot of Tequila with no lime and no salt he drinks it straight because he feels like he has lost you all because of the big green monster on his back named jealousy.
I sit here listening to Jayje telling me all about Derek and what is happening to him and I can't help but get upset, tears are beginning to well in my eyes and before long they are trickling down my face, I hate knowing that he is abusing that statuesque body of his all because of me, but I need to get better before I begin to deal with all his shit again, from where I am sitting on the couch I can see my apartment door and something catches my eye as it come from under the door carefully getting up I make my way to the door and realize that it is a piece of paper that someone has placed under my door bending down ever so carefully I pick up the piece of paper and look at the writing on the front of it and immediately I know who putt it there I quickly open the door and step out just enough to see into the hallway I look in both directions but the hallway is completely empty, I figure he pushed it under the door and took off before he did something stupid like knock on my door, I sniff the air just in front of my door and savor the smell that I have missed the air still smells like his after shave and his masculine body fragrance it is a heady combination of the two, I look back down at the letter in my hands as I close my door.
Realizing that Jayje is still on the other end of the phone talking away, I hear her voice but nothing is being taken in by me I am completely in my own little world, suddenly I am made aware that I need to speak when I drop my phone to the floor bending down I pick it up and say "sorry Jayje I was off in my own little world there for a minute, I just got a letter pushed under my door and as soon as I saw the handwriting I knew exactly who had delivered it and then I opened the door and was greeted by the scent that I have dreamt about for the past 2 weeks heady scent of Derek Morgan, he was here JJ and he didn't knock or anything he just pushed this letter under the door and took off why is he doing this JJ? why? JJ then said it is his way of dealing with his actions towards you, Garcie he has barely said boo for 2 weeks the only time he has spoken is when giving information on the profile, he kept to himself he is just waiting for you to get better then he will do everything in his power to get back in your good books.
After nearly an hour on the phone JJ and I hang up and I am now sitting on the couch with the letter from Derek in my hands but I just can't bring myself to open it so I call out "hey Markus can you come her for a minute please" Markus comes into the living room and sits on the couch beside me and says "what is wrong P" I don't speak because I know if I do I will burst into tears again but I hand over the piece of paper to him, he looks at it closely and then opens it up I take a few deep breaths and nod my head for him to start reading it.
Markus looks at me before looking back at the letter and he begins
Dear Baby Girl,
I just want to let you know that I am so sorry for being such a jerk to you, I should have let you explain but instead I jumped to conclusions and it made you upset, I will do absolutely anything to try and make it up to you, I never intended to upset you but when I saw you with your brother I thought that he was coming to take you away from me again and I snapped because I told you that I loved you and then here is someone else that was making you smile and laugh.
Had I let you explain who he was we could have avoid both of our heartaches but I was jealous and the jealousy turned me into a jerk and for that I am very sorry, I have thought about calling or texting you but I thought I would leave you be to sort through what ever feelings you have towards me and I will completely understand if you want nothing to do with me, believe me when I say this I wanted nothing to do with me after the way I acted towards you but unfortunately I couldn't do anything about that.
And last but not least please Baby Girl if you decide that you don't hate me could I please have a second chance, I am in love with you Penelope and I have been for sometime.
With All my love
Derek
I sit here with tears rolling down my face he wrote me a letter confessing his love for me, when he told me loved me when I was in the hospital I had no idea that he was serious I just thought that it was more like you are my best friend and I love you not you are my best friend and I am in love with and have been for sometime, now this is where my feelings for him come into play because I feel the same way he does for me I have been in love with him since the first day I met him but I never thought that he would reciprocate those feelings because every time we go out to a bar he always has stick thin hussies hang from every limb of his gorgeous body, but all I know that as soon as possible I need to go and see him I need to tell him that he will get his second chance.