"Bella?" Phil came running back into the kitchen as he glanced over to the empty side of the kitchen then back at me confused "What are you looking at?". I looked back up at the empty side of the kitchen sighing in relief. It was just a daydream.
"I thought I seen Edward" My voice cracked as he came over to me and hugged me.
"Don't worry he will never come back" Phil promised me as he hugged me.
"Edward honey where are you?" I said while making my way down the hall. He always used to wait up for me when I got off work after putting Alex to bed. I walked closer to our room when I heard someone laughing. I tip toed towards the door as I slowly turned the door knob revealing a naked woman jumping up and down on our bed.
I pushed the door opened as I crashed against the wall making the fake bitch fall on the floor. I watched as Edward moved to the edge of the bed to see if she was okay. "Stop" My voice froze every moment in the room as I looked down at her "Get your fucking clothes and get out of this apartment NOW!" I watched as she jumped up grabbing her clothes in a rush to get out.
I heard a door squeak from down the hall as I knew Alex must have woken up. I turned back to them "I'm going to make sure my son is in his room before your ugly worn out slutty body scars him for the rest of his life" I never looked at Edward as I walked down the hall to my son.
"Mommy what's happening?" He looked scared as I dropped down on my knees to his level and pulled him into a hug.
"Nothing honey go back in your room, mommy wants to talk to you" He nodded and walked back into his room as I turned to mine just in time to see them kissing. I rolled my eyes as I walked in and closed the door. "Okay honey, mommy needs to tell you something important but you can't tell daddy okay?"
Alex nodded his head as he sat down on his bed kicking his feet and smiling. "We're going to visit Grandpa Charlie just me and you okay bud. I want you to pack up all your favourite clothes and your teddy bear because we're going to leave tonight" He smiled and jumped off his bed. He was always excited to see Charlie.
I turned to face Edward and his broken expression as he asked Alex to leave his room. I watched as Edward slammed his bedroom door after he left "Who the FUCK do you think you are?" He asked as he moved closer to me, making me move further away from him. "That is also MY son you know, he's OURS we get to make the decisions and I say he can't go"
I stopped when my back meet the wall but Edward kept walking towards me. I looked into his cold eyes as I found the courage to stand up to him "That little boy is mine, you haven't done nothing for him expect show up every night with some slut you fuck in our bed" His temper raised as he closed the distance between us "He will never be your son" He raised his hand as it snapped against the side of my face. He slapped me.
I jumped out of bed as I looked around taking in my surrounding at my mother beach side home. The following month the nightmares kept coming, every night they we're about Edward.
Phil started to get sicker as he decided to give up and let death find him, which completely killed my mother to watch her partner died in front of her eyes and have the chance to save him. It killed me also to watch someone so strong just give up a life he loved, I was determined more than ever not to give up mine. Alice found out where I have disappear to and tried to come in contact with me but I wouldn't answer her calls knowing all to well she would want me to come back to Forks.
Three weeks ago was the day that was spouse to be the best day in my life, my wedding day. I remember sitting in my bed looking at the wedding book as I flipped each page imagining what it would have looked like, and how Edward would have looked standing at the end of the aisle waiting for me to be his wife. But reality was that Edward didn't want to actually be my husband, he was planning to use me, to take away every bit of my control to choice. I couldn't sit by faking love towards him while every night he would be sleeping next to another person, the person he loves. Not me.
I was a strong believer in the fact your can't hide from anything. I wanted to dig myself a hole and hide in it forever or until this whole wedding crap just blew off, both options were fine with me. The wedding planning book sat across the room from me as I kept glancing over at it.
"Bella" My mother rushed into the house as a flower pot crashed on the hardwood floor so did all hopes "Phil has token sick call 911" I did as I was told and shortly after the ambulance showed up. I never watched as they toke away Phil on a stretcher, I just knew I couldn't lose another person. I've become close to him and crying now would just put my mother in a worse state. I had to be strong.
I grabbed my keys and cell phone as I locked up the house after making sure everything was turned off. I raced after the ambulance as it weaved around cars on the highway. It was mid day so the beach was packed, I would give up everything for a day to be like them, not a care in the world and everything was for them to plan for themselves.
"I can't believe they can't tell me anything" My mother walked back into the waiting room as I glanced up at her from my magazine. "I'm his wife for god sake I should have the right to know" She paced the room back and forth as she finally sat down next to me placing her head between her legs. I put down the magazine as I rubbed her back.
"No new isn't bad news" I said as I hold back a yawn. I fought the want to close my eyes. "Right?"
Renee sighed as she leaned back into the chair and looked back over at me "True" she gave me a small smile "Why don't you get some sleep" she passed me a pillow as I smiled at her. I lid down in the chair moving around to find a soft spot soon after my eye lids won the fight and I fell into another nightmare.
"Excuse me, Miss" My eyes snapped open as I faced an old woman with gray hair. She smiled to me as I moved to sit up straight. "It looked like you we're having a nightmare sweetie .. are you alright?" I nodded as I pulled the blankets off me and got up.
"Thanks, and I'm alright" I grabbed the blanket as I put it around my mothers worn out body. "Do you know where I can get some coffee?".
I followed the directions the old woman gave me as I found the café' five minutes later. It was 6 in the morning so the café was empty as I ordered a large coffee and waited. I turned around as a little girl ran into the room dressed in Dora pyjamas. She ran over to me as she bumped into my leg and looked up at me "I lost my mommy" I gave her a small smile as I bend down on one knee.
"I'll help you find her okay sweetie" she smiled and nodded her head. I got up and paid for my coffee. I turned around to find the little girl asleep. I placed the coffee on the counter and told the worker I would be back. I scooped the girl in my arms as I started down the hall.
"Maddie!" I turned around and followed the woman into the waiting room. She was running and yelling.
"Excuse me but is this your daughter?" She turned around as she covered her face in her hands and sighed. "I found her in the café about ten minutes ago, she told me she lost her mother before falling asleep on the floor" The woman walked over to me as and extended her arm in reach for her daughter.
"Thank god, I turned my back for a second and she was gone" I smiled as she passed the little girl to the father before turning around to me "I don't know how to thank you, anything could have happened to her but thank you so much" I nodded.
"It was no trouble at all" I backed up slowly giving them space. I walked back to the café and grabbed my coffee, thanks the staff before sitting down on a chair.
I wanted a child, a perfect family, a two-story house with a white picked fence. I wanted the all American dream. I knew with Edward I would have my two store house with the white picked fence, I would have anything I ever wanted because of his family's wealth. I wanted the beautiful little bouncing boy, with his father's hair and my eyes or a pretty girl with my brown bouncing hair and her fathers eyes, which ever colour that would be. I wanted my child to be healthy.
I followed the rim of my coffee cup as I heard my name being called "Bella". I turned around to find Alice in all of her glory. Her black hair was now damp as she was wearing a rain jacket, it must have rained outside which was very uncommon in Jacksonville. "How come you never called me back? I've been waiting for your call for a while" I sighed as I placed my head in my hands and sighed.
"Alice I really don't want to deal with this now" I got up as she walked over. I grabbed my coffee and cell phone.
"Bella just sit down" I rolled my eyes as she placed her hands on my shoulder pushing a bit of pressure, I sighed as I sat down. "I'm not here to get you to come back or to bombard you with the million's of questions I'm dying to ask you" she placed her purse on back of the chair as she sat down across me "I'm here because I'm your best friend and now your step father is dying of cancer"
I replaced my head in my hands as I sighed again "It just so hard when he can save his own life but he's giving it up" I toke another sip of my coffee as Alice reached across and toke my hand in hers.
"I know Bella bear but maybe he just wants to go in a peacefully way, or maybe he don't want to be poked by a needle everyday of the rest of his life. He's not going to be the same, he will not be able to play baseball again"
"I know but he will be with my mother, shouldn't that be enough?" I looked up at her "My mother is the love of his life, their soul mates. He shouldn't just give up on that, I know I wouldn't" Alice looked away as she sighed.
"Edward wanted me to give you this" She remove her hand as she opened her purse and passed me a small envelope."I know he is the last person you want to hear from, even with everything that is happening here but you have to believe me, just read it"
"Alice I'm not sure I want to" She gave me an encouraging smile "I mean after everything that has happen, I don't want to know what he has to say" I knew Alice didn't know what mine and Edwards little deal was about but she needed to know. "You do know what happen between us right?"
She looked at me confused "Yeah you didn't want to go throw with it" I laughed as she looked at me even more confused.
"Your completely wrong"
"Bella, Edward even told me himself"
"Edward is a lying ass hole Alice!"
"What the hell is this all coming from?" Alice's voice was raising as she moved closer over the table
"Your brother already had a girlfriend. Edward's plan was to marry me and then in two year's leave me and while in those two years he would be in a relationship with who ever that slut was. I was free to date anyone who would agree to date me, I called it off because I couldn't even think about having to share my husband with someone else. Edward would never love me, our life would be one complete lie" I looked up from my coffee as Alice looked down at the table.
"Is that true? Edward wanted you to do that?"
"Yes, he did"
"I don't believe you, my brother wouldn't do that" I looked up angry as Alice grabbed her purse "When your done lying I'll be helping your mother, the one who is losing her husband" and then she left.
I told Alice everything but she didn't believe me, how the hell could I even come up with a lie this huge, it made no sense for her not to believe me. I grabbed my coffee as I got up and walked back to my mother. I walked around the corner as a red light flashed and a bunch of doctors ran pass me and into Phil's room.
"What the hell is happening?" I screamed at a nurse as she turned to me.
"Code red, he's dying"
"Na shit, he has cancer he has been dying now for a while"
"He's really dying now" she pushed her chair from the desk as she walked into his room. Everything happened at once as I started walking backwards until I hit the wall than side down the wall. I put my head in my hands as I looked down at the floor.
I looked up about five minutes later when the doctor walked out holding bloody scrubs. I found my feet as I got up then stopped when I watched my mother double over crying while Alice rubbed her back. The nurse walked up pass my as she touched my arm "I'm so sorry for your lose" my breath caught in my mouth as she walked on, I over heard them "Time of Death 8:47 am"
I had to get out of here, I had to. I rushed past Alice and my now widow mother as I pushed open the doors to the hospital, the morning sun was just rising as the rain fell from the sky. I walked out into the parking lot as I raised my arms and let the rain fall on me, wishing to feel something.
"Bella" I turned when I heard his soft voice. Edward walked closer to me as I felt tears running down my cheek. I didn't feel anything at this moment. I was completely numb. He kept walking towards me as he wrapped his arms around me, I felt in his embrace as my tears fell like the rain. I couldn't stop it if I tried. "shh it will be okay" Edward tried to calm me as I kept crying. He pulled away from me as he wiped a tear from my face "I'm not going anywhere"
"What about your girlfriend?"
"She's not as important as now" I knew he was up to something, but right now at this moment all I needed was comfort and I didn't care where I found it, all I knew is that I needed someone. Edward hold until the rain stopped and the sun was high in the sky. I pulled away as he looked down at me and smiled "I'll do anything for you love" and that's when I froze and reality hit.