The following month I had a hard time dealing with myself, I knew what happened and that I had to except it shortly but I wasn't about to jump of the next train to 'Normal-Ville' I had sex with a complete stranger. The leaves began to fade and fall as winter soon made its appearance.

"Bella look" I glanced up from the book as Alice came running into Edward's room with jasper on her tail. "I found you the perfect outfit" She smiled before pushing a white bag towards me. "I matched me and Jasper up, Emmett and Rose and I match you and Edward I hope you don't mind"

I glanced up at jasper as he shrugged. I unzipped the bag and found a nurse outfit, or should I say lack of nurse outfit. "Alice I'm not walking about in something that is skin tight and only comes to my ass" Alice sighed as she took the bag from my hands

"Fine I will find some incredible cute leggings to go with it" Alice waited for my response to say something else to disprove of the outfit but I just looked blankly at the blanket. "Jas can you give us a moment?"

The bed shifted as the door closed. "Bella what's wrong?" I looked over to the window refusing to look at Alice. "I don't have a clue how much you're going through and I'm not going to sit here and say that I do but I'll I know is that you're the same Bella, the one before that horrible night" I made a nose and laughed without humour as Alice grabbed my hand.

"You still don't see yourself. Bella you're the same person, nobody can change you. You have been though a horrible 4 months and I know that but your going to fight through this bells I promise" She hugged into my side closer "You have me, Emmett, jasper, mom and dad, and you have Edward. He hasn't left the house you know. We will get through this Swan"

Swan. Swan. The word struck a nerve as I pulled away from Alice and stand up on the other side of the bed "Bella what's is wrong?"

Swan. Swan. "I've heard the word Swan from somewhere" I looked Alice dead square in the eyes as she looked back at it with a strange expression

"Of course it's your last name. Are you sure your alright?" She got off the bed and started to make her way around it.

I put my hand up as I moved backwards "No I heard if someone somewhere" I looked out at the dark of night as I sighed "And why would I want Edward"

"Because he's been more worried about you than anyone of use combined"

"Yeah and he's also the one who hurt me the most"

"Bella he has been here in his room every night watching you sleep, I know it sound creepy but I asked him why and he just said to make sure your safe"

I laughed again without humour. "Safe when he was the reason this thing even happened"

"How was Edward the reason you slept with some random guy"

I looked over at Alice as she stand behind him with her hand on her waist ready to defend her cheating, idiot of a brother "Way to go Alice stand up for the guy who wanted me to be his wife when he would go behind my back and sleep with his girlfriend, oh wait it wouldn't be behind my back because I would have knew it would be been behind your guys back and I would have had to lie to keep his secret double life" I got off the bed and made my way over to the glass wall.

I didn't hear anything else after only the slam of Edwards bedroom door. Alice was going to take her brother's side in this fight and that would leave me defenceless again. I sighed as I looked into the mirror at the reflected image of the broken girl standing in front of me.

I had dark spots under my eyes caused by the lack of sleep, I was wearing Edward's old college hoodie which Alice must have put on me when I was asleep. I reached up and touched my face as the mirror image did the same. I was broken and needed to be fixed but now I had no one to turn to.

Phil was the only one who kept me together in the first fight but now since his past I've quickly realized I had no one to turn to, my best friend Alice was going to take Edwards side, my mother would have token Edward's side, Emmett, Jasper, Rose, Esme, even Charlie would of all token Edwards side leaving me alone.

The fight replayed in my head as I remembered Alice saying Swan.

Swan. Swan. Swan. The word was like replay in my head along with the voice. Where did I heard it from. I sighed as I fell to the floor. Swan. Swan.

I turned around and put my hands on his chest as I started to dirty dance and grind upon him. "Well I like this side of you Swan" I ignored the comment as I keep on dancing. I shot up from the floor as I closed my eyes and sighed. I haven't really thought about that night until now. The person knew my last name and he called me by it like Alice had.

"Bells, Alice was worried about you" I looked up as Edward walked into the room. I nodded my head as tears formed at my eyes. "Are you okay?" I nodded 'no' as the tears fell from my eyes and I dropped to the floor holding my head in my hands. "Bella"

Edwards arms wrapped around me as he sat down next to me pulling my limp body in his arms and started to gently rock me back and forth. "Shh, it's okay hun" I clung onto his top for dear life. "We're always going to be here for you"

I pulled away from embrace as I stood up. "Please leave Edward" Edward stood up along with me as he reached out to touch my arm but I jerked away.

"Why? What did I do?" he looked confused as I sighed and rolled my eyes.

"EVERYTHING! Edward you have done everything. You the reason I'm so broken right now!" I yelled at him as he flinched at my every word.

"Bella, pleas-"

I cut Edward off "No you don't get to explain yourself or try to come up with some cute saying that will make everything alright, Edward it isn't alright. I'm a broken girl who slept with a complete stranger because of you" He's lips formed a tight line

"HOW WAS IT MY FAULT!" he yelled back at me.

"Because I was broken after the marriage thing Edward! It was your stupid idea, Alice was on cloud fucking nine and you came up with that stupid agreement so you can stay with your slut of a girlfriend"

"That still don't make it my fault you were a slut and slept with someone" His anger was showing as he speak through his clenched teeth.

"Really Edward and you wanted a wife and a girlfriend at the same time. And I was getting to that part"

"Your taking you dear time with it then" he spat at me.

"I drink so much that night that I can't even remember my name if someone asked me because I wanted to forget about what you put my through that's how it's your fault"

"You'll come up with every excuse wouldn't you!" he throw his hands up as he turned back to me and started for the door.

"i wasn't done with you" I followed him as I grabbed his hand. He turned around as he yanked his hand out of mine and left giving me a dirty look.

Alice ran around her room grabbing millions of things as she put them all in front of me on her desk. We haven't made up from our fight yet so it was tense "Alice why do we need all these things?"

She poked her head out from her walk in closet "Oh those are just the small things wait until I show you. Um once sec. Ahh here they are" she emerged from the closet holding a death machine in her hands, heels. She put most of our fight behind her or that's what she said at lease but I knew she was lying.

"Alice I can't wear them I'll be down with a broken neck"

"Oh Bella there only a pair of heels"

I sighed as she started to play doll with me. She curled, straighten then curled my hair again finally putting a jell it in to keep the curls in place. She did my nails next as she painted them red to match parts of my Halloween custom then she put a clear coat for the finished.

"Are we going to talk about today?" I looked up in the mirror as she looked back at me. I dropped my head as I sighed something told me she didn't want to talk about our fight.

"That fight or the Swan thing?"

"Swan thing, lets just forget the fight I'm sorry" she gave me a sad smile as I grabbed her hand which was on my shoulder and smiled.

"I'm sorry to and it was about that night"

Alice stopped flinging my hair as she looked at me again in the mirror "What about that night?"

"I remembered that he called me Swan but I was to drunk to even realize it" I bit my lip, which was a nervous habit of mine.

"He called you Swan?" It sounded more or a comment then a question. She turned the chair and grabbed some foundation as she started to apply it. "Which means he must know you"

I looked up at the light fixture "Yeah I guess but that don't make me feel any better about it"

"At lease it isn't a complete stranger"

"That don't make it any better" Alice closed the makeup as she started on my eye lashes. I stayed quite as Alice hummed to herself which seemed to be her nervous habit.

"Lets get you dressed" I got off the chair not even looking at myself, I wouldn't care if Alice made me look like a clown.

She walked back into the room holding my outfit as she grabbed hers and headed for her en suite bathroom. I removed my top and pants as I slipped on the pair of leggings and grabbed the skin tight outfit. I stepped into it as I pulled it pass my tights and over my stomach. My hands stopped at my stomach since I couldn't pull it up further. Great, now I have my weight to be self confident about.

Alice walked out of the bathroom as she looked up at me. "Need help?" I nodded as Alice pulled the fabric up but it didn't budge, instead it started to hurt me.

"Ow Alice stop" I turned to her as I pulled it back down and stepped out of it "I think you got this a size smaller"

Alice eyebrows knit together as she picked up the outfit and looked at the tag "I bought this a size bigger then your size because I thought you would have gained weight after everything and I know you hate skin tight stuff"

I looked down at my stomach which was now bigger then I remembered, I knew I gained a few pounds but the bump on my stomach was bigger then I expected.

Alice saw my confused glare at my stomach as she covered her mouth with her hand "Bella when was your last period" I didn't understand why she was asking such a question. I counted back the days as my realization scared me to death.

"Over a month ago" I dropped my hands to my stomach as Alice took off out of her room. She arrived with two bags as she dropped her jacket on the floor, grabbing my hand and walking me in her bathroom.

She put the two bags on the floor as she removed a small box from one of the bags and passed it to me. I removed my hands from my stomach as I grabbed the box and read it 'pregnancy test'.

I pee on six stick and placed each on the side of the tub before walking out of the bathroom. Alice got off her bed as she walked over to me and pulled me into a hug. "Bella we're going to be here for you, no matter what the answer is" I nodded as I sat down on the floor in front of Alice's bed.

The longest five minutes of my live was stopped by the beeping of Alice's cell phone. I looked up at her as she looked back down at me "Can you do it please?" She nodded before disappearing into the bathroom. This was the first time I have ever seen Alice to calm, it scared the shit out of me.

She walked back out holding all six sticks as she looked at me "I'm going to be an aunt" My heart dropped as I started to cry. I can't be a mother, I can't have a kid. I had no clue who the father was, let alone if he was a creep. "Bella it will be okay"

Alice left as I dropped my head in my hands and sighed. I had a hard time taking care of myself, with everything from the arranged marriage I managed to get out, to the random hook up after getting drunk to being pregnant from the random hook up. I was going to be a mother.

"People are starting to arrive" Edwards walked into the room dressed in his doctor costume as he notice me crying "Bells what's wrong?"

I looked over at Alice as she gave me a small smile and touched my stomach "Edward... Bella's pregnant" I looked up at Edward as he frozen in place looking at me the my stomach. He looked like someone just killed his mother, he looked confused and guilty.