A/N: Thanks to all the people that read and reviewed the first outtake. I'm glad people are enjoying them.
This next one is set during chapter 5. It is the day after their kiss in front of Gale and Katniss has just left Peeta at the edge of the woods while he sketches. We will see exactly what Peeta thought about that kiss.
Outtake: Unhelpful Advice
Katniss leaves me at the edge of the woods as she goes off to savour the delights and mysteries within. I watch her hips sway as I see her visibly relax as soon enters the place she feels most at home. I can't help but notice how natural and beautiful she looks in this environment.
Eventually I break my gaze on her and turn back to my sketchbook with a shake of my head. I shouldn't be having these thoughts about her.
I don't know where they have come from. These last 6 weeks we have gone on countless "dates" and spent copious amounts of time in each other's company but not once has she stirred the feelings she did last night. Electric is the best word to describe what I felt. Her kiss seemed to lick a fire throughout my entire body, burning into my soul.
Something changed last night. And I have no idea what it all means.
We hadn't discusses kisses before last night. I know Katniss is an extremely private person and assumed that she would be uncomfortable with big displays of public affection. I didn't want to push her too far. But she was the one that kissed me last night. She was the one that opened her mouth to me and let me in. I know she said it was to prove a point to Gale but I can't help but wonder if there is something more.
I let out a heavy sigh as I try to forget about it. I have spent 30 years of my life not having these thoughts about her. I can easily continue to have purely platonic feelings towards her
Just as I begin sketching a bird sitting in a nearby tree, my cell phone begins vibrating in my pants pockets. I put down my pencil with a sigh and look at the caller ID. I smile when I see the name flash up on the screen.
"Hey man. What have you been up to?" I ask the person on the other end of the phone.
"Nothing new. Just made it into work and thought I'd find out how your little adventure is going," my friend Thresh replies.
I chuckle lightly as I lean back against a tree. Much like Katniss and Madge, Thresh and I have been best friends for years. Ever since we both sat in the sandbox in kindergarten and decided to make the biggest sandcastle possible. He is the only person I have admitted the truth about Katniss to. He has teased me relentlessly ever since.
"Not bad. Lots of free drink and food. And I think I may have someone interested in some of my work," I say trying to sound nonchalant.
"Uh oh. What's happened? I can tell there's something you are not telling me," Thresh responds.
I run a hand through my hair and chew on my bottom lip. He knows me too well. I should tell him about the kiss with Katniss. Maybe he can help me figure out what it means. But at the same time I am scared voicing it out loud will make it all real.
"Katniss kissed me last night at the cocktail reception," I reply.
"With tongue?"
"Yep."
"Sweet," Thresh replies. "I knew that Katniss was feisty."
"Stop joking around. This isn't funny," I reply annoyed at my friend's amusement over the situation.
"Peet it was just one kiss. She probably had a bit to drink."
"But that's the thing Thresh. I want another one," I admit.
Now I have said it out loud I realise how true it is. That the reason I can't stop thinking about it is because I want to do it again.
"Dude…" Thresh begins to say.
"Something was just different when I woke up this morning. I actually sat and watched her sleep for a few minutes after I woke up. Do you know she doesn't scowl while she is sleeping? I just couldn't get it out of my head how beautiful she looked," I say as every thought I've had in the past 8 hours comes rushing out.
"Jesus Peet. This is Katniss. You've being rolling about with her ever since you can remember. She's like another sister to you," Thresh replies.
"I know and that is why it is so wrong! It's particularly incest! Kissing her should have felt so wrong but then why did I have one of the best kisses in my life?"
"Have you told her any of this?"
"No. I kind of told her this morning we should limit the kisses. I just panicked about wanting to kiss her again so instead lied saying more kisses would be crossing a line."
I can almost see Thresh shaking his head at me down the phone.
"Well you could leave it like that," he replies but I can tell that is has something else to say.
"Yes…" I say, prodding him to speak further.
"Or you could just bite the bullet and sleep with her," Thresh adds.
"Thresh! That's not helpful!" I exclaim.
"Why not? I'm not saying that you have to make the relationship real. But have you ever heard of friends with benefits? It's a wedding. Everyone hooks up at weddings."
"Still not helpful. I don't even know how she feels about it. And I'm pretty sure Madge would slaughter me for sleeping with her best friend."
"Stop pussy footing around it. I know you Peet. I can tell when a girl has got you all hot and bothered. Just do the deed and be done with it. I don't want to have to hear you moaning about it for the next week. You're too sensitive for your own good at times. Most guys would have already tapped that by now."
"Remind me to not to call you whenever I need advice. You suck," I say.
Thresh chuckles.
"Whatever dude. I think I'm right. Go take a cold shower at least," he replies.
"Thanks for all your wonderful advice. I'll catch up with you next week," I say frustrated that this conversation didn't help me at all.
"Enjoy the rest of the wedding. And I hope to hear that you took my advice," Thresh teases.
We say our goodbyes and I hang up the phone. I don't know why I thought Thresh would be of any help. His advice has always been the same when it comes to women; everything can be solved with sex.
I run my hand through my hair in frustration. Why did this have to get so complicated?
I go back to sketching and it takes my mind off the Katniss situation for a little while.
A while later Katniss sneaks up behind me and puts a gentle hand on my shoulder. The walk in the woods has done her wonders. Some of her hair has escaped from her braid and the soft tendrils frame her face. Her grey eyes sparkle with contentment. There is a small smile on her lips. My heart beats faster. She is breathtaking.
In that moment I realise that I am in trouble. That I can feel myself falling for her. I've known her my entire life and am suddenly made aware of all the amazing things about her; she is smart and loyal and adventurous. She's my friend but now I want to make it more.
But I have no idea how she feels. Up to this point she has only ever seen me as a big brother and I'm pretty sure she still has unresolved feelings for Gale. I don't want to scare her with any declarations. It could make the remainder of the wedding very awkward.
So I make a decision. I won't say or do anything unless her actions suggest otherwise. I won't go there unless I know she feels the same.
I smile up at her warmly and greet her cheerily as I rise to join her. Friends will just have to do for now.
