Chapter 12- Lost without

Laurens POV

The most beautiful place anyone can ever be in is the arms of their soul mate, their one true love. Its the one place that a person loves to be in and feel at home in they feel safe in and for me it doesn't get much safer than Joeys arms. The second place I know as safety is our home-our family home that we've created together. The house that we live in now, we will probably live in for the rest of our lives, and I can honestly say , no thought had ever sounded so appealing. The house isn't anything special, not to anyone else at least but to me and Joe it was Home. When I first saw this house, I was about 5 years old. Mum and dad had had yet another row and I remember sitting on the steps of Number 5 staring down the road wondering if every family was the same as mine. I remember walking off down the road and somehow finding myself staring at this house. It was different to all the rest, stood out in a way. I sat on the curb opposite and looked at the house. It hadn't changed much in those 13 years. It looked exactly the same on the outside, the cottagey brick and small little windows; the only different was it looked like it was loved now.

Over the years I'd walk past it seeing it change and lose its identity as owner after owner changed it to suit them. In my head I had always seen myself living here, raising my own family and giving the house a proper purpose, make sure it was loved like I knew it could and should be. My heart stopped several times that day Joe arrived here, telling me he'd brought this house. It was simply a dream come true and I know it's a cliché but it was. I don't think Joey knew how many of my dreams he'd actually brought to life that day. All that ridiculous dreaming when I was a child was no longer a dream; it was reality, my reality to be precise.

This would be the house where memories were created and our family called home. The last few weeks though it hadn't been the harmonious home I'd dreamed of. Without Joey, it was nothing, it wasn't complete and I felt like another one of those people from my childhood abusing its potential, I was lost without him.

Joey had picked me up from the hospital as soon as was possible, I'd been going insane in there and needed my home. I needed Joey and his hugs and our house. Stepping through the door I inhaled the sent I'd always taken for granted. It was a mix of mine and Joe's body sprays, Zoe's Pop tarts and I was sure I could smell chicken soup. Joey shut the door behind me his footsteps following me through to the kitchen. It was quiet without Zoe but she'd started at school last week. Which she'd proceeded to tell me every time Joey brought her in to visit, she looked adorable in her uniform, it was too cute to comprehend. Most days when Joe brought her she'd have pictures she'd done in the day or a worksheet to do. Joey had had a complete panic not knowing how a school run worked or what she'd need but with a few words of encouragement and a bit of a reality check he was doing great.

I leaned over to the cooker and lifted the lid on pan of bubbling liquid "Hmmm Is this…"

"Chicken soup? Ye, Cora sent a big batch over, she knew you were out of hospital today"

"God I gotta love My Nan sometimes" I placed the lid back on and turned walking straight into Joey who apparently had been admiring the soup like I had. "Oh hello" I smirked, my hands trailing down the front of his shirt. Seriously it had been too long for him to be standing this close to me. I groaned as his arms pulled me flush against his body.

He pressed a kiss to my temple, the gesture causing me to shiver "Do you know how much I want you right now?"

"then have me…" I breathed feeling his muscles ripple beneath my fingertips

"We can't baby, doctors' orders" He said that with so much conviction. But I knew I wouldn't have to do much to convince him as I could already feel his erection pressing against me. "Lauren…" He hissed as I slowly dragged my hand down to his crotch running my fingers up and down.

"I think you have a problem baby" I smiled leaning up and kissing him

"Ye that you've just created…we've only been home like 10 minutes and your already trying to have sex with me" Cocky sod I thought, no pun intended, but it kind of fitted.

"Are complaining?" He laughed and kissed me deeper

"Definitely not…but we still can't" I pouted and frowned, a plan mapped out in my mind.

"Ok then…so you're just going to deny the mother of your children what she needs? Your very pregnant hormonal, horny finance who hasn't been with you properly for over a month?" I sauntered off down the hallway. "if that's what you want… I'll be in the shower…on my own…it is the doctors' orders after all" I smiled and started up the stairs, knowing full well I'd be leaving him with an image of me Naked in the shower. I reached half way up the stairs and Felt Joey sweep me into his arms. "Thank you" I smirked.

"Screw doctors' orders, I think we need each other right now"

Before I knew it we were both stripped of our clothing and I was lying on the bed, joey stalked over to me and hovered over my body, his insanely muscled arms supporting his weight above me. He pushed into me and gazed deeply into my eyes , I looked back into his seeing the emotions on his face, I smiled grazing his cheek with my fingertips as he gently lowed himself further to my body. "This will never grow old, baby."

"Good" I smirked leaning up and quickly catching his lips with my own. "I'll never get tired of you doing this"

He lowered his forehead to my chest and then to my stomach leaving a trail of hot hisses behind him, his thrusts increasing in speed but they were still carful, The twins were now a little in the way which made it more challenging to have sex like this. His hands slid down my body and settled on my hips, the warm of his hands were so hot in comparison to my skin . I pulled him closer kissing him desperately, it had been way, way too long since we'd been able to do this and despite what the doctor had told us, it seemed sex was what was calming me right now. I started to move with him a little, Joey laughed as my bump pushed him out the way a little, their kicks staring to commence.

Moments later I was moaning in pure satisfaction as we both came. Joey kissed back up my body until he reached my lips. His hands lay across my stomach "I think we woke the twins".

"They were already awake" I smiled watching the movement of them.

I feel to sleep a little while after that and woke to Joey kissing me… "I'm going to fetch Zoe from School you staying here or coming with me ?"

"Coming with you" I replied rolling from the bed "I'll surprise her" I held my hands out to joey, getting up was now a two man job unless I wanted to fall flat on my face. Instead of pulling me up though he scooped my into his arm's and carried me bridal style to the bathroom. "Joey!"

"Lauren!" he replied in the same jokey tone. "Have a shower you kinda smell" He smirked. I looked at him feigning shock when an idea came into my head.

"If I smell you must be twice as bad" I said pulling him into the shower with me. Good Job he didn't have much clothing on.

"You're so naughty" He laughed pushing me a little further under the water.

"But you Love me"

"Ye I love you…Too much"

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