chapter 14- Déjà vu

Joey POV

I sat in the kitchen wide awake. My hands clutching to a steaming mug of coffee as I let my thoughts twirl around in my head. It was still dark out and I'd guessed I hadn't had much sleep at all. Lauren was fidgeting like made and my mind was just in over drive. She was 7 months pregnant now and seemed to have had a new lease of energy. All her fatigue had disappeared and she wouldn't sit still. Sleep was the same, most of the time she would be splayed across me which we found very comfortable but not that night. I was finding it impossible to sleep so, trying my hardest not wake Lauren I retreated to the kitchen.

I left it plunged in the darkness not wanting to wake Bella who was sleeping in the hutch and really not wanting to be in the light- things would suddenly be more real. The house was dark and quiet, with no TV or music playing, no conversation to distract the voice in my head- That stupid irrational voice saying irritating things. It's the perfect environment, to get lost in your own head space.

That's why the morning has always been the nest time for me to get me head straight, before anyone awakes, before traffic starts up. It's the still of early morning that allows my voice to come through. Only on this occasion I didn't really want to hear the words it as saying.

I wasn't having seconds thoughts about Lauren… god no, that would never happen, we'd started planning the wedding now too, the date set for 3 weeks. I'd received a letter a few weeks before hand from the prison where Paige was. I'd told Lauren about it, and had said she could swivel, she was no longer anything to do with me; knowing full well Lauren would flip if I'd go and we were doing everything possible for a stress free environment.

Paige had requested a visit from me. I didn't know why and because of that some part of me wanted to know why. Whether it was for closure or what I just didn't know. But sitting there in that kitchen I needed to make a decision and quick, the time for visiting was only a few hours from then. The clock hands dragged around, ticking by the minuets. I went to the fridge and stopped seeing Zoe's drawing from a few weeks ago. Taking it off the door and into my hands I stared down at the image and in a split second my decision was made.

Laurens POV

"Mummy… Mummy" I shifted uncomfortably in the bed rolling over to see Zoe sitting and beaming at me. I smiled at her pulling her down into my embrace.

"Good Morning beautiful" I'd remembered then the school had two training days so it was a long weekend I got to spend with my babies. "What you doing up so early?"

She kissed my nose and giggled "Daddy Gone out and I hungry"

"What do you mean Daddy's gone out?" she frowned and tugged on my hand pulling me from the bed.I had a strange sense of Déjà vu, if he'd left on bloody business again it freaking kill him. She paused, waiting for me to slip one of Joey's hoodies over my head and followed her down to the kitchen. "Do you want something to eat?" she nodded as I waddled around placing cereal in a bowl for her.

She was digging in straight away and then passed me a piece of paper, she chewed and swallowed what was In her mouth "He left a note" she smiled going back to the cereal.

I opened the folded paper addressed to me …

Know I'm doing this because I love you, Be back soon Love you baby xx

What the hell was he playing at ?

Only small I know but it'll make sense for it to be like this when you read the next chapter :) may be up later if not tomorrow :) xxx