I know some of you had been wondering where I I had been, right? Okay, the truth is I was busy with final exams, it was tiring but finally it is holiday~

Please enjoy this chapter. I tried to write about traditional marriage but maybe...it is a failure

The red head was watching everyone rush around him. His eyes focused on a woman who was busy "painting" him with white power, from his head to his toes. She said it was the first time she had ever seen a male "bride" in a traditional marriage. She was a middle aged woman, dressed in a night black kimono. What could Gaara say ... apart from that she looked like a nice and gentle woman.

"So what is your name, young boy?" she asked; her voice sweet and gentle.

"It is Gaara," he said, quite amazed that she didn't know him. Well, he was the ex-kazekage, so she should have heard his name, at least once.

"Gaara? What a wonderful name. I was wondering what the 'bride' would look like because you are a man. But, I think you will be a very pretty bride because you have such a beautiful face," she smiled tenderly. Gaara's cheeks turned pink.

"Th-thanks," he managed to murmur.

"Do you know the meaning of me painting you with white power? It means the bride is still pure when she... oh I mean when he faces Kami-sama. I wonder, why are you marrying at such a young age... but anyway ... I hope this painting will make you a little happier in your marriage," she spoke softly.

Pure ... That word struck him deeply. He was far beyond pure. He was tainted, a victim of rape. He looked downwards, a small frown on his lips as he tried to control his thudding heart. He was doing everything to fix all of his and his soon-to-be-husbands faults.

He hoped everything would be alright.

"I am amazed with all your courage, not a lot of people wish to marry. Most your people nowadays only declare their love for a short amount of time, they live together and then break up. They no longer have the courage to marry the one they love because they are afraid of being bound to someone for the rest of their life," she mumbled, looking a bit irritated.

Gaara managed a little smile. He felt better, yeah he did have the courage, but he still wondered, would the Kami-sama forgive him for marrying someone whom he didn't love.

"Don't worry too much. I know lots of people who get nervous before they marry, I'm sure everything be alright, okay?" she reassured him. The red head nodded slightly.

When the 'painting' was finished, a few more women came in to help him get changed into the bride's kimono, Uchikake. Some of them were embarrassed because Gaara was a guy, but they didn't really mind because Gaara looked so nice and pretty in his white kimono.

"Now ... What should we do?" Temari spoke up, suddenly appearing out of nowhere with a black wig in her hands. Gaara looked at her, not knowing what she meant.

"Well ... Usually the bride will wear a wig then they will use a tsunokakushi, but we don't have a red wig and I don't think it would fit you, Gaara," she spoke to herself.

Gaara thought for a little while. Tsunokakushi? Did she mean the head cover for a bride? Every bride wore them, but they were girls. They needed to wear a wig to put the tsunokakushi on their heads. The wig itself was very traditional for women; the hair was tied to the back of the head.

The Shukaku container trembled, wondering how he would look in that kind of wig. He really didn't want to find out.

"So, what shall we do with his hair?" one of the women asked Temari. The blond thought for a few minutes, closing her eyes to concentrate.

"I think we should just 'decorate' his hair, use pretty hair pins or flowers ... yeah I think that would be good," she sounded slightly unsure. Gaara nodded in agreement, he would accept that instead of wearing the wig with the tsunokakushi.

In a short amount of time, Gaara was fully dressed and ready. His skin was flawlessly white, from the top of his head to the tips of his toes and the pure white Uchikake looked beautiful on him. His hair was decorated with pretty sakura shaped hair pins and some fresh flowers.

Gaara looked at his reflection in the mirror and under the white power, his cheeks turned red. He looked like a real girl!

How would his visitors react when they saw him? He was an ex-kazekage for kami-sama's sake! How could he ever face them after this?

But, it was for the sake of his marriage, he had to do this.

"You look so beautiful, Gaara," Temari said, approaching her little brother who was still stood in front of the mirror. Temari herself was wearing a formal black kimono with a purple obi tied around her waist. She looked so pretty but Gaara ... he looked... Wonderful, it was hard to describe.

Temari's eyes focused on the red head, who looked a little uncomfortable with his current appearance, and sighed, "I believe Naruto will like it, don't worry," a tender smile adorned her lips. Gaara gasped lightly and turned to Temari, his cheeks heating up. His older sister laughed softly and gently patted his shoulder.

"Relax otouto-chan, you look so pretty, and I bet everyone will agree with me," she said again. Gaara shrugged at his sisters little joke and a small smile formed on his lips.

lol

Naruto looked at himself in awe. Well. He was definitely buying his own formal hakama later, he thought. Even though it made it difficult for him to move, he didn't mind it at all. He took a seat in the grooms' dressing room. He had to wait for all the visitors to come before he went out into the hall. Then, Gaara, dressed up as the bride, would show up later so all the visitors, the family and the couple could take a picture before the ceremony of their marriage.

The last part always puzzled Naruto, why take a picture before the marriage?

"Naruto, everyone has gathered in the hall, come quickly," Sai suddenly appeared from behind the door. The blond gasped and grunted softly. He had been bored waiting; it was good to get out of the room.

Naruto walked out of his room, walking alongside Sai. For once, Sai was wearing his casual clothes rather than his ninja suit. Well, it was a marriage after all.

"So how are you feeling? It is good to be married!" Sai said with a gently smile. It seemed like more of an insult from Naruto's point of view. The blonde frowned a little.

Married ... married, he didn't even love Gaara, but he couldn't go back on his word. He had to do this, to repay his debt, to make Gaara happy, to build a good family and raise the baby together with the red head.

"I think, I have to be ready for this," Naruto spoke seriously. Sai wondered to himself, had he said something wrong again?

"Yeah, you will have to be. But ... I think this will be good for you. I mean, you have finally settled down with ... a guy, okay. At least, you have found someone to spend the rest of your life with. I don't know if I will ever find someone," Sai spoke softly.

Naruto laughed a little. Sai falling in love... now that would be an interesting sight. But, maybe he couldn't do any better. He was marrying someone he didn't even love, was this alright?

But ... still, he had to do this, no matter what.

lol

Gaara slowly walked to the main hall, alongside Temari and Kankuro. He looked down at his feet; he didn't want to see anyone's reaction when they saw him.

As they arrived in the main hall, everyone fell silent in awe. Their attention was fully focused on the beautiful red haired bride who was standing in the doorway. The groom, who was sat at the front of the hall, turned his head and looked at the bride in wonder. Their eyes met and their faces turned red.

'Oh, oh ... shit, he is ... Really beautiful,' Naruto thought and turned his face away, cheeks glowing red.

'Naruto looks ...so cool in that hakama ...,' Gaara thought and looked back down at his feet.

"Let's take the picture, Naruto," Sakura chimed, appearing out of nowhere. She giggled lightly when she saw Naruto's red cheeks. Without waiting for the blonde to respond, she grabbed his arm and took him to Gaara.

"It will be good to take the picture together," Sai spoke with a little smile. Kakashi, who was stood beside him, only laughed a little. He turned his eyes to his lover, Iruka, who was watching Naruto in both happiness and sadness.

"He has grown up so fast," Iruka spoke up, watching Naruto take Gaara's hand in embarrassment. Both of them looked so cute together.

"I can't believe that he has surpassed me, how come he is marrying before us?" Kakashi teased lightly. Iruka only shook his head and laughed a little. He also couldn't believe it.

Slowly, everyone gathered in the garden that was positioned in front of the temple. Gaara gripped Naruto's hand harder as his anxiousness grew with each passing minute. The blonde turned his head slightly, to look at his bride and smiled lightly, scratching the back of his head with his free hand. The red head smiled back and moved closer to him.

"It's too bad I don't have any family to watch our marriage," Naruto spoke in a low voice. Gaara looked at him, concern clear in his bright eyes. Naruto only smiled, ignoring everyone else's chatter as they got into their positions for the photo.

"But, I will soon ... have my own family," he spoke softly, cheeks tinting red again. Gaara blushed also and nodded in agreement. He gently patted his covered belly and smiled at Naruto.

"Yes, we will be a family ... Soon," he said.

"Yes, very soon," Naruto added,

lol

There was no other moment as nerve wracking as the ceremony, Naruto thought. He was tense as the priest purified him and Gaara. The way the priest was praying and the whole atmosphere was suffocating him. He had to swallow quite a few times to clear the lump in his throat, and no matter how hard he tried, he couldn't relax. He quickly glanced at Gaara, who looked nervous too and tried his best to focus on the priest.

After the purifying, they began the ritual named san-sankudo. He and Gaara took turns sipping sake; they each took nine sips from the three cups that were served to them. Then, they turned to face each other. Naruto could see how tense Gaara was, just like himself. This relieved him slightly. He wasn't the only one that was nervous.

They both exchanged their vows. The blonde was trying his best not to make any mistakes but he trembled a lot and his face turned a bright red colour. Gaara was better at his vows than Naruto, for one he didn't tremble or stumble over his words, but his face did heat up much like his groom's. They looked into each other's eyes and both realised how strange the situation was. They didn't love each other and found no comfort in each other's eyes. They were both filled with guilt and regret as both hoped they didn't have to do something sacred like this.

Then they exchanged rings. As Naruto took Gaara's hands, getting ready to slip the ring onto his bride's finger, he felt Gaara's hand tremble slightly. He held it gently and smiled warmly at the red head, assuring him that everything will be fine. Gaara looked petrified ... and so did Naruto but they had decided to do this together. Slowly, the ring was slid in place on the red heads finger. Gaara looked at the ring before turning his attention to Naruto, who was smiling. He smiled back, feeling more relaxed. Then, he put the other ring on the blonde's finger.

They smiled to each other and turned to the priest and the altar. They would finish this ceremony.

The couple offered the Sasaki branch to the altar, for Kami-sama.

With that, the ritual was finished and they smiled at each other.

They were married.

lol

Gaara sighed heavily as he changed out of his beautiful white kimono and into a more casual brown male kimono. He looked at his face in the mirror, all the makeup was still over his face. He still looked like a girl. He hesitated slightly, should he remove the make up... it looked pretty, but he didn't like it.

Suddenly the door opened showing his gr... uhm, his husband, still in his black hakama. They looked at each other, both speechless.

"Ah, sorry ... wrong room!" Naruto closed the door, panicking slightly and walked into another room. Gaara was stunned and routed to his spot before turning his attention to the mirror. They had just married and they still acted like strangers around each other. He frowned slightly, feeling miserable.

Did he make the wrong decision? He wondered to himself. He tenderly patted his belly as his eyes filled up with tears.

No, he would not cry, he could not cry. He was the one who wanted this; he was the one who decided with Naruto. He knew that things would be harsh; he just had to accept this.

Yeah for his baby and family.

He turned back to the mirror and decided to wipe off some of the makeup, like the lipstick. He wondered if he should take out the flowers and pins which decorated his hair. He had to admit it looked nice but it was too girly for his taste.

"Maybe later," he spoke to himself. After changing into his casual kimono, he stepped out of his dressing room and found Naruto waiting beside the door. The blonde has changed into a dark blue male kimono which fit him nicely. He noticed Gaara had walked out of the room and smiled.

"You ... look good," he spoke nervously. Gaara nodded awkwardly.

"Yeah thanks. You look good too," he spoke softly, his voice barely a whisper. The blonde laughed quietly.

"Let's go to the reception room," he said. Gaara nodded and walked alongside Naruto. They walked in silence, stuck in their own thoughts. The red head was wondering, what was Naruto thinking about, was he thinking of the marriage, did he regret it? That is what scared Gaara.

"Ca...can ... I hold your hand?"

The red head gasped lightly and turned to Naruto, who was already blushing heavily. Gaara was unsure for a moment and felt his own face burning up and turning a deep shade of red. Unfortunately, the blonde had taken that as a no.

"Sorry, my bad," he turned his face to the side, disappointment churning his stomach. Gaara shook his head and gently held Naruto's hand. The blonde turned to the red head in surprise. Gaara was looking forward; his cheeks dusted a faint pink colour.

He gently squeezed the paler males hand and smiled to himself. Maybe they could do it, together.

They walked in silence again, side by side. Their hands had tangled as time had passed. The silence was no longer heavy, this time it was comforting and neither minded it.

"Uhm ... Naruto?"

Naruto tuned his head to look at his mate, "What's wrong?" he asked.

Gaara bit his lip, not sure how to phrase his question "Do you think we can do this?" the red head worried a little.

Naruto stayed quiet as he thought, gently squeezing Gaara's hand to comfort him. "I don't know, but I will do my best," he grinned widely.

Gaara smiled and nodded, "I will do my best too."

lol

The reception was going well and finally, for the first time in that day, Naruto could have a bit of fun without having to worry too much. Everyone has congratulated him and Gaara, which made him feel uneasy and guilty. But as soon as the food had been served, his bad mood seemed to fade away.

Gaara, on the other hand, was having a rough time with the food. He barely touched his food because his stomach always twitched uneasily when he tried to eat. Naruto noticed this and tried to persuade Gaara to eat but he failed miserably.

"I can't, I have had enough to eat," the red head complained to his husband. Naruto sighed, was Tsunade's medicine not working?

"But Gaara, you have barely eaten anything. Please, just a few more bites. Look, this tempura is delicious," Naruto offered a plate filled with tempura to Gaara. The smaller boy shook his head, he didn't want to eat any more, and he had enough.

The blonde sighed then took a bite from the tempura he had offered to Gaara. It truly was delicious, but the only problem was, Gaara didn't want to eat it.

"What's wrong Naruto?" Tsunade walked to their table. Her face was flushed, meaning she had drunk way too much sake. Naruto grunted under his breath, he didn't want to deal with a drunken Tsunade right now.

"It's just Gaara, he doesn't want to eat anything," he said. Gaara glared at him but then turned away.

"Oh I see ... that one... I can't cure. His appetite depends on his mood. If his mood is bad then he doesn't want to eat. I have given him medicine right? If it isn't working then I can't do anything," she said, laughing at random times. Naruto rolled his eyes as the female hokage walked back to her own table to drink more sake.

"Naruto, don't worry about my food, just enjoy the party please," Gaara tried assuring Naruto. The blonde pouted like a little boy and ate a little more.

"Nah, I won't. As your husband, I have to make sure you and our baby are healthy. I will wait until you eat a few more bites," Naruto smiled gently. Gaara blushed again as his heart started thumping faster.

Gaara tried to eat again, which didn't help. Naruto watched carefully as Gaara started to eat only to take it out and drink some water. The blonde scratched his head, already out of ideas.

"How about you eat some sweets? You have to eat, or you won't have any energy," Naruto looked worried.

"Yeah, you need your energy for tonight, don't you Naruto?"

The couple turned around to see who uttered those words. Their eyes fell upon the masked jounin who had appeared in front of them. Like always, Kakashi was the only one that was wearing his jounin attire. He never bothered to dress up for his own student's marriage.

"What ... Kakashi-sensei! Don't poison Gaara with your dirty jokes!" Naruto snapped; his face red with embarrassment and anger. It took a while before Gaara got the idea and started blushing madly.

"It wasn't a joke, Naruto. It was the truth," Kakashi smiled, making the newlywed couple blush more.

"Kakashi-sensei! Go away! You'll just make everything worst!" Naruto almost shouted. He stood and tried pushing his mentor away, whom just laughed because of the couple's innocence.

Gaara totally forgot about that. Tonight was their first night together as a married couple. That meant ... they would have ... sex! Oh no! He wasn't ready for that, he was pregnant already. Tsunade said it was safe to have sex but they had to be careful with the baby. But, Gaara didn't even know if he could do that. His first time was a ... total failure. Could he even do it now? With Naruto? Did Naruto even want to do it with him? All these questions made him wonder.

The blonde went back to his seat and noticed Gaara was blushing a lot. He knew what the red head was thinking about and it made his cheeks heat up. Man, he wasn't sure about this whole "first night" thing either. He had raped Gaara, and that was something he would never forget. Did Gaara even want to be touched by him again? All those questions made him wonder.

"Le-lets enjoy the party; don't bother with Kakashi-sensei's silly joke, ne Gaara?" Naruto smiled nervously. The red head nodded in agreement. But they both knew that neither of them was going to stop thinking about what Kakashi had said.

First night, what were they going to do

First night? I don't sure it will happen soon

Okay, just wait for the next chapter