Chapter 17
I can't bloody believe she went out with Diggory. She knows what I think about him, how paranoid I am over him (even if I hate to admit that I'm jealous of the prick), yet she still hangs around with him all the time. I mean, I know I can't stop her hanging around with him completely, but I guess I'd just prefer it if she told me that she was with him and what she was doing with him instead of making me feel this shit about whether she's with him or not, then if she is I freak out about what he wants to see her for, considering it's obvious he fancies her. Maybe this is just proof that she doesn't care about me and that she never has. Yeah, that seems about right.
Wait, what the bloody hell am I talking about? She's not even MY girlfriend, she doesn't have to tell me anything, she can be with Diggory if she wants and she doesn't have to tell me anything about it at all because she has no commitment to me, I'm being completely irrational about the situation.
George rolled over in his bed as the sound of thunder echoed around his room. The entirety of the house had gone out somewhere. Well, the entirety of the house other than Ashley and George, who had not spoken to each other since earlier that day, when he'd found her in the Three Broomsticks with Cedric. George was drawn back to the memory of the last time that there had been a thunderstorm, Ashley had come into his and Fred's room because she had gotten scared. Which had been slightly weird, because Ashley wasn't scared of much, although apparently thunderstorms and spiders pretty much did it. He remembered her climbing into his bed and wrapping her arms around him tightly, then burying her head into his top to try and drown out the sound. He then remembered how Fred had raised his eyebrows at him and winked, to which he (George) had given him the finger and then fallen asleep with his arms around Ashley. Although his mother hadn't been entirely pleased when she had found him the next day with his arms wrapped around Ashley wearing nothing but his boxers and her wearing his t-shirt and nothing else, luckily over the years his mother had gotten quite used to the site of it.
He badly wanted her to be here right now. He wished that none of this had even happened. He wished that he had just told her that he loved her, she said it back, and that was it. Then they would have a happy ever after. But it never works out that way, does it? There's always problems, there's always drama and there's always some cock trying to ruin it.
There was a light tapping noise on his door and a few seconds later Ashley slid into the room, wearing plaid pj shorts and a hoodie
'What do you want?' he asked, looking away from her
'I just wanted to ask something' she said quietly
'What?' he said
'Why are you mad at me? I don't really understand what exactly I could've said or done that could have pissed you off …'
'Let's see, you died 7 years ago and you've only just told me, you said that you can see my dead twin brothers ghost and that you've been talking to him and then, to top it off, you went on a date with Cedric Diggory, and I'm sure you already know my feelings towards him'
'I'm sorry!' Ashley exclaimed 'I don't know what else you want me to say! I didn't realise that it was such a big deal to you that I died, I mean, people die all the time, right? So I never thought that it would matter so much! And I figured because I lived I could just forget about it, it was 7 years ago! Then on the Fred thing, it's not my fault that I can see him! I don't want to! It just makes everything harder than it already is! And I knew if I told you then you'd just leave, which is why I didn't want to actually tell you! But I didn't go on a date with Cedric!'
'Of course it fucking matters that you died! It wouldn't matter if it was a week ago or 7 years! You still died! … I didn't mean to make it sound like it was your fault, it just sounded like you made it up or that you wanted to trick me … ' George stated
'It's not like I told a load of people' Ashley muttered, looking down 'I only told Fred'
'That's about right, you always preferred him, didn't you.'
'You know that's not right. Not one little bit.' Ashley said, looking up at him and biting her lip, then blinking a few more times than usual to stop the tears 'I told you I was in love with you and you basically ripped my heart straight out, stomped on it then gave me back the broken pieces' she said, then looked down at the ground, a few seconds after this George heard sniffing noises
'Oh shit. Ash, please don't cry' George said, standing up from the bed and immediately walking over to her, then wrapping his arms around her 'Ash, I'm so fucking sorry, for everything I've done to you. I was being a complete dick towards you and I had no right to be, absolutely none. I honestly love you, I was just being an idiot' he murmured, then pulled away from her, he lifted her chin up with one hand, looked down towards her and kissed her.
'So … what happens now?' Ashley asked,
'What do you mean?'
'What happens between us...?'
'Whatever you want to happen' he said, smiling
'Well, what would you want to happen?'
'I don't know really … I suppose in my mind the perfect scenario would be for you agree to go out with me, fall in love with me and that's it, I'd probably be happy for the rest of forever. But I suppose after all I've done I wouldn't blame you for not wanting that, at least not with me.'
'I'm afraid that's impossible, George.' Ashley said, glancing at him.
'Oh. Well then please can you forget that I even said it the-' he began, looking down at the ground and avoiding looking at her as much as he possibly could, she then tilted his head up so that he was looking directly into her eyes
'It's impossible because I couldn't 'fall' in love with you if I already am in love with you.' she said, smiling slightly at him. His face broke into a grin and he kissed her again, except this time the kiss was deeper than that of the previous. When they pulled apart Ashley leant her head on his chest and he kissed the top of her head, wrapping his arms around her in the process. They stood in silence for a few minutes, although eventually he backed away from her and held onto both of her hands with his. He stood still for a few more seconds, looking at her
'What?' she asked, frowning slightly
'Nothing, you're just beautiful.' he said, smiling at her.
'Well, it's nice to know that you think so, however I do have to break something to you'
'Which is?'
'I'm really not'
'I'm afraid you have a new type of disease that makes you lie constantly' he said, pulling her over to his bed, sitting down on it and pulling her down onto his knee, so that she was sitting sideways across his lap, then pushed some of her hair back out of her face
'I'm afraid it might be you who has that' she said, wrapping her arms around his neck
'This argument could go on for a while, which I see no point in, considering I know I'm right and I know you're wrong'
'No, I'm rig-'
'Shh' he said, kissing her
'You can't use that to shut me up, you know' she smirked
'I can and I will, for a long time most probably' he grinned, pulling her closer into him 'Okay … I've been trying to stop myself thinking about it, but I can't, so I really have to ask something' he said a few seconds later 'and I'm probably going to regret it once I know the answer, but I still need to know to stop me freaking out'
'Well what do you want to ask me?'
'What exactly were you doing with Cedric? When you were in Hogsmeade I mean?'
'He wanted advice' she said, smirking slightly
'Advice about what?'
'Asking out some random girl' Ashley said, then waited for a reply, which didn't arrive. Causing her to look up at George, who suddenly looked relieved and was grinning 'What...?'
'Really? He didn't ask you out or anything?'
'Really' Ashley said 'The only person to ask me out today was you, sadly' she grinned, causing him to raise his eyebrows at her, 'I'm allowed to make fun of you, you do it to me all the time' she said, placing her head back on his chest
'So you're not in love with Diggory?'
'Of course not' Ashley said 'That's what I've been trying to tell you all along, since like the 4th year'
'I should have just believed you in the first place. It would have made everything a lot easier'
'It would, but you learn from mistakes, right?'
'I guess … I can't believe you made me that worried over nothing, though'
'Why were you worried?'
'Because I thought you loved Hufflepuff boy, and that you were going to marry him and have a bunch of little Diggory's, and that you lied to me about how you felt' he said, making Ashley choke on a laugh and look up at him
'I definitely do not love him, nor do I want to marry him and have Hufflepuff children with him. Trust me on that. He's just – no. He's a friend' she began 'and I wouldn't lie about my feelings for you, especially when they're as serious as they are.'
'I suppose you're right' George said 'So … erm … are you going to see him again?'
'Not that I know of …'
'Good. That means I get you all to myself for longer' he smiled, then kissed her, 'Although I do have to ask, was it a bird he wanted advice on, or a lad?'
'it wasn't a boy, George' she smiled
'Damn' he said, then looked at her and smiled, before craning his neck down and kissing her.
-oOo-
'So, Georgie, how've you been?' Ashley asked later, when the two had lay down in George's bed
'I've been upset a lot more than before, I've barely slept at all and I've just been thinking about things'
'I appreciate the honesty for once… So, thinking about what?'
'I'm not sure. Ending it all? Being with Fred I guess' he said, looking down. Ashley looked up at him and kissed him on the cheek
'Don't leave' she said, 'Ever'
'I wouldn't go anywhere now'
'You promise?'
'I promise' he began 'I mean, why would I leave now? I've got almost everything I've always wanted'
'What's that?' Ashley asked, frowning slightly
'Well I have you' George said, 'Which is more than I ever asked for'
'Cheesey much?' she said, smiling slightly 'But what else?'
'I wish I could have my brother back' George said, then looked away from her
'Georgie …' she began, to which a few tears ran down his face, making him tilt his head even further away
'Why do you keep looking away?' she asked,
'Because you've already seen me cry enough in the last few weeks. Girls shouldn't have to see their boyfriends cry … at least not this much'
'Like I care' she began, then turned him back to face her 'It doesn't make you less of a dude, George, in fact being brave enough to cry in front of your girlfriend is quite possibly the manliest thing you could do' she added, smiling at him.
'It's nice that you're trying to make me feel better, love, but I think I'll try not too' he said, smiling slightly. She wrapped her arms around him and ran her fingers through his hair,
'I know this doesn't have much to do with anything and you'll probably say no to this, but do you want me to take you to the place where I saw Fred? I mean, it might make you feel better, right?' she asked warily
'I'm not sure …' George said,
'Well, you've got time' She said 'Anyway, you should really try and sleep, George, it's like 3 in the morning'
'I'll try and sleep as long as you stay with me?'
'Obviously I'm staying here … for one I'm too warm to get out and for two, you're very comfortable' Ashley said, grinning, then leaned forwards and kissed him. When they pulled apart George rested his forehead on hers
'I love you so much' he said, stroking her hair
'I love you too, Georgie' Ashley said, then buried her head into his chest and held onto the front of his t-shirt.
Okay, so, yeah...don't quite know what to say right now, but please will someone review? I'm kinda assuming by the fact that no one's reviewing that you all think it's completely fricking shit, so...could you at least review to tell me what I'm doing wrong?
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