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chapter 4: Someday.

Day 4

Logan wasn't getting any better, He was in so much pain.

I knew he wanted to get this over with. I could tell He wished he would just die, but I wasn't ready for him to go yet. Nobody was.

James and Carlos were hurting, they were losing their best friend after all.

I was sitting in the waiting room, They wouldn't let me see him today. Logan had many tests that needed to be done.

I thought back on the first day I met him. We were five, and it was lunch time. A third grader threw a sandwich at him, I felt so bad for Logan. Nobody stood up for him, so I did. I was only five, but I knew I could hurt the older boy if I tried.

I slammed my lunch try across his face, he never messed with Logan again.

Ever since then we have been friends, ever since that moment I have loved him.

Thinking about the good times helped for a while. It got my mind off of what was happening in my life, but not for long.

I often wished I could go back to the fourth grade. The day Logan moved into the house across from mine. That was the moment we became one. If I wasn't at his house, he'd be at mine. That was the beginning of my crush.

I guess after seeing someone everyday and spending every waking moment with them, you just kind of fall. And I am so glad I did.

There are things I wish I could take back though, mostly the tears. I would give anything to heal all the pain Logan is feeling, I really would. Unfortunately some things are impossible, that being one of them.

I knew this wouldn't be the end of me and Logan, We'd see each other again someday. I knew we would because we haven't spent a moment apart since the day we met, death wouldn't keep us a part. Nothing could.

Tears slipped from my eyes, and fell down my face. This is all I did, Think and cry. I guess there's nothing you can actually do when a loved one is dying.

All you feel is pain, all you want is an easier way around it, but it's suddenly all you have.

I live in a dark world. Nothing seems right anymore, I know it'll be worse once Logan is actually gone. I don't want to experience that though, not yet. Not ever.

"You're thinking too much buddy. You should get some rest. We have a long day tomorrow." Carlos spoke.

I knew he was right, but I wasn't ready, I don't want to lose Logan. We have a future, Logan deserves a future.

I'm not ready to let go, but I know that I will have to be. Someday.

I cried while writing this one. Holy crap. One more chapter after this, I may get this story completely done by tonight.

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~Kaycee