Big thanks to Adriana for proofing this for me! Much love.

One Night in Vegas

Chapter Thirty

Bella's Point of View.

I stared at the stove as I waited for the timer to go off, tapping my foot impatiently on the kitchen floor. We had left the doctor's office hours ago and came straight home. We by passed the ice cream Alice had requested before we had initially left the house in the first place. I had even canceled our dinner plans claiming I was exhausted, but that was nowhere near the truth. Even if I was tired as I had claimed to be, there would be no way I'd be able to fall asleep. There was just too much going on in my head. I was on the verge of panicking, and there was only one thing in the world that could keep me from completely freaking out- cooking.

The kitchen had always been my personal sanctuary. A place I could go to clear my head and calm my nerves, only this time it wasn't working. My mind was screaming at me and I didn't know how to turn it down. It seemed the more I tried to relax myself the more uneasy I became. All because it was all because of three simple words, three words that would have had anyone else overwhelmed with joy, three words that had me terrified.

You're having twins.

I was nervous enough with the idea of having one baby, but now two? I couldn't figure out how I would manage. I knew I wouldn't be alone in this, but the idea still scared the living day lights out of me. What if I couldn't do this? What if I was a bad mother? I wouldn't just be failing one child now, but two. Two small beings that would depend on me to know what's right for them, but how could I do that when I still didn't know what was right for me most of the time?

Glancing at the timer I turned away in annoyance. I still had thirty minutes before the lasagna would be finished and I couldn't stand the idea of standing there any longer. Lifting a hand I quickly ran my fingers through my hair before making my way out of the kitchen and down the hallway to the living room. Jasper was here now with Alice and I could hear them talking softly amongst themselves before reaching the room and stopping in the doorway. Edward was on his feet before I had even spoken, making his way towards me.

Concern masked his features as he approached me, reaching out to brush his fingers across my cheeks. A soft sob that I didn't know I had been holding back escaped me and I threw myself into his arms. Even with Edward at my side I still had doubts that I could do this. Never in my life had I really contemplated starting a family of my own. I never even babysat as a teenager, so how was I suppose to be able to do this? I didn't have an ounce of motherly instincts in me. When I had first found out I was pregnant I was nervous, but I knew Edward had wanted this, that this would make him happy. I knew I could learn though. But with two was I going to have time to learn anything?

"Bella, baby, what's wrong? You haven't said anything since we left the doctor's." Edward murmured softly, wrapping his arms around me.

My arms tightened around him as I buried my face into his chest. I knew now more than anything that I wasn't ready for this- ready for motherhood.

"I'm afraid I can't do this Edward," I sobbed softly into his shirt. "I'm not ready to be a mother of two. Hell, I'm probably not qualified. I mean, for god's sakes, I trip on my own feet! I'm a hazard! I'm a death trap for our children."

"Bella, that's nonsense."

I lifted my head at the sound of my best friend's voice and looked over at her. She was sitting on the love seat next to her husband, leaning forward as she stared at me. "Nonsense how, Alice? We all went to school together. We all know the damage I can cause walking down the street and chewing bubble gum at the same time." I spat, causing Alice to merely roll her eyes which caused more tears to form in my own.

"You're just feeling overwhelmed with the news you just received. Not to mention your hormones are out of whack. You're going to be a great mother and I know this because I know you. Sure, you're going to make mistakes, but so am I. There is no guide to this, but we are both going to make it through it."

"She's right Bells," Edward said softly. "Not to mention I'm going to be with you every step of the way. I can promise you everything is going to be just fine."

I turned my attention back to my husband and stared into his green eyes a moment, not knowing what to say. I was overwhelmed, but I wasn't convinced everything was going to be okay. How could I be when I felt anything but okay? When I had this deep fear in the pit of my stomach that I was going to mess up the lives of these poor innocent babies?

"Come on, why don't you sit down? You've been in the kitchen for what seems like forever." I merely nodded as Edward led me over to the sofa where he had been sitting only moments ago and allowed myself to sink into the cushion. Edward instantly joined me, wrapping his arm around my shoulders and pulling me to his chest. I leaned against him without a word, sighing softly as I tried to push my thoughts aside. For the first time in years I wanted my mother; wanted her advice more than anything. I wanted advice from someone outside this room because none of them seemed to be listening to a word I was saying.

I turned my head cautiously as I felt Edward's lips on the skin just below my ear and I had to force back the shiver that threatened to over take my body. "We're going to be fine Bella." He whispered as our eyes briefly met. I swallowed back the emotions that formed in the back of my throat, wanting to demand how he could possibly know such a thing, but then his hand pressed to the slight bulge of my stomach where our babies rested peacefully at the moment. Love and wonder shone in his eyes and it took my breath away. "We've got time to sort all of this out, and if it would make you feel better we can take a few childcare classes. But like Alice said, we aren't going to be perfect, but we'll be close because we'll work together on this." His forehead pressed to mine and he flashed me the crooked grin that I grew to love so much. "I love you Bella."

I swallowed back all the emotions I was feeling and a few tears slide from my eyes as I bit my lip. It only took a few words to erase most of my doubts, even if I did still have this nagging fear that this was going to end badly. That I was going to mess this up. A part of me knew that Edward wouldn't let me. I knew that he would be there every step of the way.

"Alice and I are taking classes. Why don't you both come with us?"

Wiping my eyes and I turned to look at Jasper. He had been so quite the entire time I had almost forgotten he was there. His words had been just as reassuring as Edward's. Alice and Jasper were perfect with just about everything they did, and if they were taking a class to improve their parenting skills- well- maybe I'd be alright after all.

"Oh, that would be great!" Alice squealed, jumping up to her feet. Her excitement at her husband's suggestion had her face glowing with joy. "I can give you all the information now. I've got the pamphlets in my purse. Please say you'll come with us. It'll be a lot more fun with my bestie there."

I couldn't help the laugh that passed my lips and I quickly turned my head to look at Edward who instantly gave me a nod of approval. Alice squealed again and before I knew what was happening I was pulled into her embrace. Maybe I would be okay, we all would because in that instant I realized that I wouldn't just have Edward to help with things, but my best friend as well.

Yeah, I know, it's been a long wait. I lost my muse for the story for a while, but it's slowly coming back so I'm rolling with it. Hope you all enjoy and forgive me for taking forever.