Chapter 32
I rose up to the sight of my master and Ciel inside the room looking directly at me almost as if expecting something. I quivered at the thought of the many possible things they could either want or say.
I sat up completely looking at my torso to realize it had completely healed. I looked back up at Sebastian he seemed deep in thought as he looked at me.
"Sanelle, Today our contract ends; I am prepared to take my end of the deal" he said calmly. It was obvious though that it took a lot out of him to say this, there was frustration and angriness in his voice. Almost as if not only did it displease him but also made him annoyed.
I looked at him- what- Why would he suddenly end it I wasn't informed about this.
"You've obtained the pleasure you wanted, now I believe it's best we do this fully and equally and fulfill my end of the deal, do you understand"
"Why so suddenly, is it because of what I did?" I asked
He froze and looked away I realized there was some hidden silence among them. Ciel was awfully silent too.
"Ciel what's going on?"
He looked at me and sighed, "Do you want me to stand outside while you feed?" he said to Sebastian.
I looked at them as Sebastian replied and Ciel left the room closing the door behind him I turned back to Sebastian who approached me removing his glove as he stared at me. I looked at him.
I was scared.
Why is the contract being suddenly removed why is he ending it…why?
He said something.
I watched his lips move as he formed words that definitely weren't English. They sounded like languages of him. Something I've heard him and Claude speak in among themselves and the demons at the pandemonium. But this one was different. It had a certain dark air tangled around causing shivers to run down my spine. I looked at his hand and to my surprise the contract on his hand was fading. It turned into blood and ran down his hand as he whispered in that native tongue almost like summoning or bringing something from another world into this very room.
I wanted to say something but words didn't come out at all. Instead there was a burning feeling in my lower back where my mark was placed and it was hurtful as it was as if someone was peeling the skin off my very body.
He continued speaking and the more he spoke the more a ripping pain went through my body. It was awful, I felt as if my insides were going to burst out or rip out my chest or something.
I found myself screaming in pain why it so hurtful why did it pain me so much? I've seen it…at the pandemonium…demons devouring their slave's soul. But it was hurtful at first until they went unconscious, but mine….mines…it was as if he was devouring me whole or something.
Everywhere hurt
Everywhere burns
I screamed louder in agony as I balled the sheets into my fist and turned my head from left to right thrashing around trying to get my hands on something.
If this is how bad it feels I rather kill myself to witness it until the end.
Suddenly everything went dim. And I felt it. My death…..was wavering over me staring me right in the face reaching out to touch me. I stopped moving and lay still on the bed.
Is this my death?
I looked into the darkness my body getting cold my fingers feeling numb everything moving unbelievingly…..slow.
How could it be so….pleasing…how could something so sad…be so beautiful.
I could feel nothing other than…the tear rolling down my cheeks as I stared into nothingness.
Yes….death was this beautiful, for a sinner like me; this was my redemption, my salvation, my punishment.
There was a change in the atmosphere as I felt an arm around my back pulling me up. My dim vision came into the portrait of my master's face as I realized he was holding me looking at me in this lovely silence
Was this the moment when I speak? If it was….I wouldn't play along…because my voice was already buried
Was this the moment when I cried? If it was….I couldn't play along…..because my tears were already dried up
Worst if it was the moment I would reach out and touch him…I would never do something like that….Because my body was already dead…my mind was just searching….searching for the darkness that would consume me whole
My vision grew darker as my eyelids grew very heavy and I could feel the warmth of his body trying to pierce my skin but I never wanted it.
Can't you see it, I don't want you touching me…I don't want you to look at me anymore… I don't want you anymore.
He looked at me leaning over as I felt my eyes closing. I never wanted to see the end of this. I never wanted to and I never will.
Because before I could even feel him finally reaching me
I was already….completely dead
A/N THREE MORE CHAPTERS REMAINING