Danno´s Journey: Chapter Fourteen
Hi I´m back and I wanted to thank WhiteCrow96 for her help so, thank you.
Song by Rascal Flatts
"It´s like a storm
It cuts your path
It breaks your will
It feels like that
You think you´re lost
But you´re not lost on your own
You´re not alone…"
Steve was sitting on the lanai, watching the water and trying to think about all of the happy memories but he just couldn´t do it. He was in so much pain, and his house seemed like it was haunted. It was so full of shadows and death that it made him wonder if was even worth it to keep going.
Danno, their princess, and his Ohana had forced him to keep going, to keep trying to breathe, but it was getting more and more difficult every day.
Steve continued to stare at the crashing waves unseeingly, lost in his pain. She was gone… he was the last one. He had lost them all: his family had left him; they had been ripped from him, and he couldn´t breathe.
His mom… she had been the first. He could still remember how she used to make him hot cocoa when he was little and couldn´t sleep. She used to give him the best hugs. She was his mom, his beloved mom.
Then it was his father. He had taught Steve how to play football. His father had protected him when he was little. He had always checked under the bed for monsters. His father had taught Steve to love the water: he was the one to teach him how to swim. His father was his role model; an honorable man that gave his all to find justice, a man that lived by a code, and taught his children that honor was the most important quality in a person.
He was killed because Steve couldn´t do his job properly. And now, his baby sister, his sunshine, she was gone and he hadn't been there.
He could see his mom with her. She was so tiny, with her big eyes, and cute smile. She had been his to look out for and he had failed, and now she was gone. He had failed, like he always does in everything important. He hadn't been able save her. She was gone and half of his heart had gone with her.
Steve staggered in the sand. He was so weak, so tired, so very tired. He didn't have any strength left. He wavered and was about to fall when two strong arms caught him.
"I´ll stand by you
I´ll help you through
When you done all you can you do
And you cope
I´ll dry your eyes
I´ll fight your fights
I´ll hold you tight and I won´t let go…"
When Danny got home, he quickly knew that something was wrong. He had left Gracie with Rachel in their home. James had stayed with them to keep an eye out in case Stan decided to try something, but he could see that James had Rachel's attention. – this is a little confusing. What are you trying to say?
He went in search of his husband. He still couldn´t believe that Steve was his husband and he was alive and with Danny, but even in his joy he wasn´t about to deny the fact that his beloved was falling into despair.
Steve carried so much pain inside, so much sorrow. Life had thrown so much at him, and Danny knew Steve was rapidly reaching his breaking point.
"It hurts my heart to see you cry
I know it´s dark this part of life
It find it all when to small
Stop the rain oh when you can…"
Danny saw Steve in the sand and he looked so defeated, nothing like the man he loved so very much, so he ran to him because it was the only place he could be now. Steve needed him.
He caught Steve just as his knees gave out and cradled the limp body in his arms, even as he whispered to Steve desperately.
"You´re not alone, babe. I´m here with you, Steven, can you hear me?
I´m here love, you´re not alone. I love you so much, and I know you´re broken because life's unfair sometimes and it keeps throwing you punches and you keep taking them, but you´re not alone anymore.
I´m here and it's my turn to protect you, babe. Danno´s got you. Don´t be afraid, because you´re not fighting alone anymore. I´m with you; you've got me, always."
He hugged Steve to his chest. Danny embraced him like he was protecting Steve from the world.
"I´ll stand by you
I´ll help you through
When you done all you can you do
And you cope
I´ll dry your eyes
I´ll fight your fights
I´ll hold you tight and I won´t let go…"
"You know, when Rachel told me that they were moving here with Stan I hated her, because I didn´t want to come here. But this was where they had my baby so I packed everything and came here.
I was lost in my own anger and couldn´t see clearly. Then I was assigned a case, the murder of an officer, and then I met his son and he changed my life. You changed my life babe.
You change my dreams, you give me hope, you give me strength, you never let me fall, you always have a word of comfort, you give me the energy that I needed to fight for my baby. You built an Ohana for us, for Chin, for Kono, for my little girl and you gave a woman a way out of the darkness that was swallowing her. You´re a hero, always thinking about others.
Well babe, now is our turn to look out for you. You´re not alone, my beloved one, my love, my husband, my friend, my family. I´m here and is my turn to keep the monsters away.
"I´ll stand by you
I´ll help you through
When you done all you can you do
And you cope
I´ll dry your eyes
I´ll fight your fights
I´ll hold you tight and I won´t let you fall
Don´t be afraid to fall
I´m right here to catch you
I won´t let you down
It won´t get you down
You´re going to make it
Yeah I know you can make it…"
"I know life doesn´t seem fair now, that is breaking you but you´re not fighting this alone babe. You got us. You got me and Gracie, so please babe, just have a little faith, just a little more and hang in there because I love you and I need you.
We've earned the right to enjoy our lives together. I want to make you as happy as you make me, because this has to be our happy ending. We deserve to be happy. I´m going to fight for you the same way you fought for me.
I love you Steven, I love you and I´m going to repeat this to you every day and I won´t let you fall. I won´t let you be alone, so babe, stay with me and allow me to look out for you.
Trust me babe, trust your Danno…"
Steve opened his eyes and looked at him. Steve's eyes, his vibrant blue-grey eyes were so full of sadness, so lifeless, that it made Danno´s heart ache, but in them he could see something more.
Love, love and trust.
Steve was telling Danno everything he needed to know with just one look.
Steve fisted Danno´s shirt and put his head on his chest. He closed his eyes and for the very first time, a little bit of the burden Steve carried inside disappeared.
"Sleep babe, Danno´s got you. I´ll protect you, and I´ll love you always and forever, my friend, my husband, my family, my lover, my love…"
And Danny heard Steve repeat.
"Steve loves you too Danno. Always and forever, my friend, my husband, my family, my lover, my love…"
And there, in the middle of so much pain, they knew that their love was going to save them.
TBC…