Misplaced Trust
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Twilight characters. First let me apologize for this chapter...the ending...it's what I had in mind...but I'm not liking the delivery and I have, literally, sat on it for weeks. Then decided that I must be overthinking the whole matter and need to get on with it. So enjoy!
There was a thick and heavy tension in the air that felt almost suffocating. It seeped through the thick layers of fur and down into one's skin. Jett found himself shaking, trying to loose the tension and fighting the urge to take off running. These were all Jay's emotions; his feelings, his desires and urges. Jett had always wanted a little brother or sister, someone to share his childhood with and develop a close bond. The twins had a special bond that no one could match as it was true for Leah and Seth. Now that he had the little brother and had felt the familial bond between them grow, he also had a strong dislike for it as well. Jay wasn't confident, he only kept his anger and annoyance in check but his low self-esteem was like a soggy and clammy blanket, desperate to wrap around Jett and pull him down too.
Looking up Jett could see his little brother practically shaking like a leaf, Jacob beside him. It was almost hard to believe that the two were related. Jacob was tall, strong, and confident…to the point of cockiness while Jay wasn't. Physically, Jay had Jacob's eyes but…that was the end of it. Jay was…almost…kinda sorta…pretty?
"Gross, he's your brother!" Jett growled in annoyance as Levi roughly slammed into his shoulder.
"I didn't mean like that." Jett snarled back, his ears laid flat against his skull and his fur bristling at the thought Levi had slipped. He hadn't meant to drop his block. It was just hard to maintain with Jay around.
"You scared the pup shitless," David commented with a hoarse canine cough that substituted for a laugh. "I'm surprised he even showed up after yesterday."
Jett looked at Jay, again, as Leah stood before him, next to Billy and went through an unprecedented ceremony of welcoming the new pack members. Yesterday, Jett had gone to pick up his little brother from the mansion and the rest of the pack tagged along for the ride. Over the past week, Jett and Matt had met him after school but the pack wound up in detention for starting a food fight in the cafeteria. Jay wasn't confident enough to come to the rez on his own and instead went home.
"Are you sure he's not in the cottage?" Matt asked with a deep frown as he sat next to Jett glaring at the house that the hybrid was in.
"Yea, I checked there already." Jett admitted with his own matching frown. It was his first time back on the Cullen territory since Jacob and family arrived.
"Blow the horn and maybe he'll come running out." Ryan said from the truck bed. Everyone was glaring at the house as if it was some kind of monster, a creature not to be trusted and could attack them at any given second.
"I'm sure they heard us pull up." Rob seconded as his grip on the truck tightened.
Jett would've loved to have just blown the horn and had Jay come out ready to go…but, this wasn't the rez and Jay wasn't just some rez kid. Renesmee wasn't just some rez mother either. Plus, Leah had told Jett to always make sure to let a parent know where their child was going and with who. He had a responsibility and it was to be respectful to his peers' parents, set an example and not act 'suspicious'.
"Well let's do the damned thing." Jett said drawing up his courage and walking towards the house. He could sense the pack behind him, now all on high alert, and watching his every move. It was reassuring knowing that they were looking out for him, ready to protect their future Alpha and brother with their lives.
The door was painted a deep black and Jett wasn't sure if it was wood or – steel, definitely steel – until he knocked on it. The sound echoed throughout the house; it was dead and hollow which seemed very befitting for a coven of vampires. Also, Seth had said there was never any need for a doorbell because someone always answered the door before it was necessary. The door was probably more for defense than aesthetics.
Jett felt a small smile grow across his face as heavy feet pounded within the house and a second later the door was wrenched open. Jay stood on the other side, slightly out of breath and a crooked smile of his own.
"You came," Jay declared in what Jett wasn't sure was a question or a statement.
"Yea, you ready?" Jett asked and stepped aside so that Jay could see the rest of the pack behind him. Matt and the twins greeted him with a cheer and wave that were more of a desperate plea for Jay to get his ass in gear.
"Ready for what?" Jett stiffened as Renesmee appeared beside Jay. She smelled of stale blood, her brown eyes had a slight gold tint around the iris and the way she looked Jett up and down made him feel sick to his stomach.
"Jay's been hanging out with me after school." Jett stated trying to be respectful and resisting the urge to phase and rip her to pieces. "Is – is it alright?" Jett asked as Jay looked at Renesmee in a silent plea.
"Oh, now you're asking me, huh?" Renesmee singed as she edged closer to the door and Jett.
"Well…Jacob had given his permission earlier." Jett stated before looking at Jay and silently ordering him to get his shit.
"Yes, my husband and your father." Renesmee sneered. "Is he making you hang out with…this…thing?" Renesmee asked glaring at Jay as her lip curled in disgust.
"No," Jett growled out not liking Renesmee's tone. Jett had to agree with Leah's sentiment about her – this bitch is crazy. "Jay, get your bags – now." Jett ordered as Jay seemed rooted to the floor. It didn't take long for Jay to snap out of his stupor and follow through with Jett's command, unfortunately, leaving Jett alone with Renesmee at the front door.
"You can use the Alpha command, that's very impressive." Jett felt his stomach churn as Renesmee licked her lips.
"Look…Renesmee,"
"Call me Nessie." She cooed and it earned a chuckle from Jett, that was more annoyance and disgust, as he caught a whiff of her arousal and Jay slipped by to stand next to him.
"Right, so Renesmee…I don't know how you're going to take this…and frankly, I couldn't give a fuck but, I'm not your type. I'm not desperate or weak. I don't need a fucking vampire bitch to 'complete me'. So if you could please, spare me the stench of your cunt. I'd really hate to throw up on your doormat." Jett could hear both Jay and Renesmee's gasp of shock. He didn't care. Whatever Seth had that allowed him to be nice and…friendly to vampires, Jett certainly hadn't inherited. "Get in the truck." Jett stated before Renesmee wanted to grow a pair or get over her shock and try to ruin the kid's fun for the day. No doubt that this would get back to Leah and Grandma, there'd be a sharp cuff to the back of his head and probably a lecture on respecting women. Hell, Jacob might want to weigh in for disrespecting his wife but in Jett's eyes, the only good vampire was a dead vampire. She had already reached in the end of his patience for her.
"You think I'm the threat here but don't underestimate your little brother." Jett didn't have a chance to respond before Renesmee snatched his wrist and his vision disappeared. Instead of the Olympic forest and the mansion Jett was assaulted with images of a small red baby – not red but covered in blood. Its mouth opened in a blood curdling scream that showed a mouthful of sharp teeth.
"The – the baby ate your uterus, Nessie," A blonde haired man said to Jett. "You won't be able to have anymore children." Jett felt an overwhelming sense of anger, fear, relief and bitterness washed over him but was then replaced with hatred and loathing.
The images switched up to a small child, screaming his head off as Jacob held him out at arm's length, his face scrunched up in pain. The smell of burnt flesh hit Jett's nose and he was hit with a sudden bout of nausea, bile having rushed up to his throat when the images were done.
"That is what you're dealing with." Renesmee said with a cold, hard look upon her face. Jett swallowed the bile and stood up to his full height, towering over the small woman before him. His forehead was covered in sweat and when he looked back Jay was just reaching the truck. He wasn't sure what had happened, why or how long it had occurred but it sent a shiver down his spine.
From the images – no, memories – that Jett had seen, Jay had left Renesmee barren. The barren part wasn't so upsetting, although the fact that Jay ate her womb was…it was disgusting. The really troubling and frightening thing was that Jay had, somehow, burned Jacob. Was it some kind of vampire power? Both Bella and Edward Cullen had one and Renesmee, obviously, had one as well. It'd only make sense that Jay would've developed some sort of mental ability. The stench of burnt flesh seemed imbedded in Jett's nose the entire drive back to La Push. Everyone sensed his unease and Matt asked a couple of times if he was alright. A harsh growl of 'yes' had stopped any further inquiries into Jett's state.
It hounded him – the memories of Jay's childhood. Matt and the twins tried to act as if nothing was amiss, laughing, joking and stuffing their mouths with chips, dip and pizza rolls. They were all seated in Leah's kitchen, crammed around the table that Jett recalled making with Leah six years back. That was what kept coming to the forefront of his thoughts – Mommy. It was Jett's job to protect his Mom, not invite danger to join and sit at his dinner table. But…he was conflicted. A part of him didn't want to believe Renesmee, just wanted to chalk what he saw as the thoughts of a crazy bitch – a crazy vampire bitch. That Jay was his brother, a member of his pack and tribe. Yet, the other half, the wolf side that wanted to protect his friends and loved ones didn't like the risk. They had to be certain – absolutely certain.
But how? What if he lied?
"What's your power?" Jett blurted out in a growl that silenced the entire table. He wasn't even aware that he was shaking, trembling with emotions that were a mixture of disgust that he was related to a vampire-wolf hybrid and rage that a potentially dangerous wolf was going to be welcomed into the pack. He didn't want it to be true and the uncertainty churned his stomach.
"What?" Jay breathed out as he stiffened and looked at Jett with wide, frightened eyes. Jett could practically taste Jay's fear that was feeding the angry and overprotective wolf inside.
"You heard me," Jett snarled as the pack's eyes flitted between the two brothers. "What is your power?"
"I – I," Jett silently pleaded that he'd just confess – come clean.
Don't lie to me.
"I don't have a power." Jay whimpered. It was the wrong response. It all happened so fast. Leah had always told him that he had to stay in control of his wolf, to not let the beast within take over. In a matter of seconds the table had been flipped over, scattering bags of chips, plates, pens, pencils, notebooks, textbooks, flashcards, binders and every other school items on the floor. The wolves scooted back too stunned and curious to be of aid to either party involved.
Their fear and Jay's fear only fueled Jett's anger. They needed the truth and they were going to get it. Nobody was going to harm his mother – his Mommy. Jay's eyes widened as Jett's hand easily closed around his neck. He raised the younger wolf up to be almost eye level with him – almost. Jett felt sick because he knew he'd crossed a line, he didn't want to hurt Jay but the wheels were already in motion.
"Don't fuckin' lie to me," Jett snarled closing the gap between them. Jay whimpered and Jett could practically see his wolf submitting.
"Jett," Matt called as he recovered first.
"He has a power," Jett snapped back as Jay struggled feebly in his hold. "Your fuckin' mother showed me. He ate her uterus or some crazy shit like that and he burned Jacob. He somehow burned Jacob." Jett felt his eye twitch as Jay gasped in surprise and suddenly looked guilty. It was true. "Deny it. Deny it!" Jett snarled as he slammed Jay's back into the wall. The boy cried out in pain. Jay's pain was Jett's own. Jett felt the shame and guilt wash over him – he started hating himself. He hated the feeling – feelings that weren't his own.
"Jett, NO!" Jett didn't bother too turn around when Leah entered the kitchen. Instead of Jacob with the third degree burns on his body it was Leah instead. Jett wouldn't let that happen. Ephraim fucked up years and years ago by allowing the Cullens to stay and even after all the death that they and Bella Swan caused the Quileutes did nothing. Jett knew it was best to eliminate the problem before it grew too big to handle.
"You don't understand," Jett growled out as Leah rushed over and shoved him. He should've expected her to intervene here like she did with Jacob. "He has a power – he can hurt you."
"He doesn't have a power. All he can do is transform just like you." Leah growled back at him. Jett's eyes widened as Leah knelt down beside Jay, his throat red and purple from Jett's grip as he coughed and desperately gulped up air. "What were you thinking? You could've killed him." Leah's tone wasn't as harsh as he would've expected but he could see the pain and concern in her eyes. Looking around Jett found the kitchen empty. "I sent them away but answer me."
"Re-Renesmee showed me," Jett trailed off as Jay choked out a sob of pain and grief.
"I did do it," Jay sobbed. "She can't have kids because of me and – and I did burn Dad…but they were accidents. I didn't mean to. I'm sorry." Jett felt nauseas as Leah held Jay close and he cried.
Jett heard Leah call his name but ignored her as he went to his room and collapsed on the bed. His eyes burned, throat was tight and his body felt so heavy – as if it weighed a ton. He was embarrassed, ashamed and felt like shit. Pulling his blanket over top of his head Jett tried to hide away from the emotions and the pain that he had caused. He was supposed to protect his people, not hurt them.
He wasn't sure how long he remained tucked away under his blanket while his mom tended to Jay but his heart raced and his stomach sank when he heard determined and slow footsteps climbing the stairs. Jett knew it was going to be either Embry or Seth who would discipline him.
How stupid could he have been? Why did he take the word of a blood sucking bitch?
He had to bite back a growl when Jacob's form stood in the doorway, his massive size filling up the frame easily.
"Can I come in?" Jacob asked. His voice was barely above a whisper but Jett heard him loud and clear.
"Go away." Jett grumbled before he turned back around and pulled his blanket over his head. Jett could feel his frustration had grown and his patience shrinking as Jacob still walked into his room. "I thought I told you to go away." His body was tense and he hated that his wolf recognized Jacob as a powerful…what was he really? A rival, or maybe an ally?
"I heard you but…I figured since you're both my and Leah's son…you really don't want to be left alone. You want to talk about what happened." Jett snorted under his blanket. Where did Jacob Black get off trying to act like he knew Jett?
The thought of silence had crossed Jett's mind; he continued to ignore him figuring then Jacob Black would eventually grow bored or take the hint and leave. However, Jacob remained. He didn't say anything or even look at Jett. He just remained in the room, patiently waiting and somehow entertaining his mind for the time being.
"I didn't want to hurt him." Jett blurted out and silently cursed himself. He did want to get it all out in the open, off his chest. "I – I just – I don't know." Jett said as he sat up and Jacob sat down beside him. The mattress groaned under their combined weight. Jacob made Jett feel so small.
"Why don't you tell me what happened?" Jacob said resting his elbows on his thighs. Jett caught Jacob chancing a glance at him from the corner of his eyes.
"You married one crazy bitch, that's what happened." Jett snapped looking Jacob in his eyes. If the man had never left to run with a coven of vampires then Jett wouldn't have had to lose control. He'd have a sibling whose allegiance and abilities wouldn't even be questioned. It was childish but Jett wanted to blame Jacob. Jacob could only smirk at the comment, not taking any offense to the insult. "I can't believe you made her a 'Black'." Jett noticed as Jacob's eyes widened for a second as if a thought suddenly hit him but it was pushed away and returned his focus to his son.
"Can't disagree with you…but what did she do?" Jett took a deep breath and recounted his run in with Renesmee. Jacob growled when Jett mentioned how Renesmee had hit on him, cursed under his breath at the memory of Renesmee and Carlisle talking and he groaned when the memory of him and Jay was brought up. "Fuck," Jacob hissed as he glared at the small dark blue rug on Jett's floor.
"Jett, you gotta believe me when I tell you that Jay is more wolf than vampire." Jacob said looking Jett in the eyes. "He's not a threat to you, Leah or anyone else here. He has the potential to be as volatile as you, Levi, Matt and David." Jett could only nod his head in agreement. Out of the pack, thus far, he'd proven himself to be more dangerous then Jay. "Jay doesn't want to hurt anybody and that has more to do with me and how I've been with him and handled his first phase. He – he's not as confident and assured of himself as you are." Jacob said with a sad sigh. "He holds a lot of stuff inside…I don't even know a third of what that is. I didn't know about them until I came over here sensing something was wrong and heard what he was telling Leah."
"He said that they were accidents." Jett whispered feeling guilty all over again.
"Renesmee issues are her own and not Jay's." Jacob growled out. "The burning accident was just that. Jay was little, thought he was old enough to make tea." Jett's eyes widened upon hearing the tidbit of information that Renesmee left out. "He would've burnt himself had I not arrived when I did. I wasn't thinking – other then getting Jay out of the way."
"I – I didn't know…and – and he didn't tell me." Jett felt his shoulders slump. It wasn't as if he'd given Jay much of a chance to explain.
"Like I said, he's not as confident as you are. Don't feel bad because it's not your fault." Jett could see that Jacob wanted to touch him, place a hand on his shoulder as comfort and offer reassurance that the blame wasn't on him. Jacob was taking the blame on himself…and Renesmee. "Leah's calming him down now."
"I'll apologize." Jett stated nodding his head, agreeing with himself. Jacob smiled warmly at him, his eyes softening with pride. It was the same look that Grandpa gave him whenever he did something worthy of pride. It embarrassed Jett…a little.
"You're not as stubborn as I thought you'd be." Jacob said standing up with a smirk. "You must've inherited that from Seth." Jett only snorted at the response as Jacob muttered how 'there's more of her in you though' as he walked out the door.
Jett hadn't gotten to apologize like he wanted to that night. Jay had gone home with Jacob and it left Jett, home alone, with an angry, disappointed and frustrated Leah Clearwater. Jett had been spared a lecture when he blurted out that Jacob had spoken to him – well, listened mostly, and that he was going to apologize to Jay when he got the chance.
Coming out of his thoughts Jett watched as Jacob and Jay both phased into their wolf forms to be properly welcomed to the pack. It was the first time Jett had seen Jay in his wolf form. He was…small – lean mostly with long legs. Just like his human form, he wasn't excessively muscular and truly looked like a pup compared to Jacob who was massive. Jacob's coat was a rich russet color that made him stand out amongst the pack. Jay's coat was a bit low key with a softer light grey coloring that held a reddish or brownish tint.
"Don't be afraid," Leah said gently as she walked up to Jay. She was taller then him but Jett noticed that they had the same build…almost. "You're one of us now and we always look out for one another." Jett could feel Leah's motherly love wash over the entire pack as she licked Jay's nose before wrapping her neck around his in a lupine hug. The tail that had been tucked in between Jay's legs slowly eased out. The calm, collected and indifferent Jay seemed an illusion as Jay returned the affection, burying his snout into her coat.
Jett smiled as Jay's thoughts assaulted him. He adored Leah's scent, wanted to always be close to Leah and her warmth and make her proud.
"Now go greet the others." Leah ordered as she brushed along Jay's side and nudged his rump with her snout, pushing him towards his brothers and uncles.
"Welcome to the fold, kid." Embry said as Leah's second-in-command with a playful head butt that was both welcoming and proved Embry's strength.
The others greeted him in kind; the older wolves were more reserved in their greetings giving head butts, nods with lulled out tongues and quick brushes against the side that was mixing Jay's scent with their own. With each warm greeting the more self-assured and comfortable Jay grew.
Jett waited patiently for his turn to welcome his brother into the pack. He couldn't hold it against Jay when the pup stopped in front of him, the lupine smile slowly falling from his muzzle and the once held up head ducking a little out of fear, guilt and submission.
"I'm sorry," Jett breathed out before head-butting Jay into an awkward hug. He had almost knocked the pup off his feet but he could feel Jay warming up to the affection. Jett smiled as once the two brother broke apart the rest of the pack rushed on to Jay; Matt playfully nipping Jay on the muzzle, Levi head-butting Jay and succeeding in knocking him over, Ryan and Rob pounced on top of the fallen Jay, yipping and nipping excitedly. Jett watched over the scene, keeping a close eye on David but he relaxed as David head-butted him.
Jett turned around, hopeful that his mother saw him make up with his brother and felt his fur bristle. His heart skipped a beat as he saw Jacob hugged up with his Mommy. One of Jacob's legs was laid across Leah's back, his canines, basically, grooming her as Leah, playfully, nipped at him. What was even more disconcerting about the whole interaction was that Jett couldn't hear either Leah or Jacob's thoughts.
A/N: So here goes an update that I had written before the last chapter with Renesmee. So once again bare with me because I am working on the next chapter but life keeps getting in the way. You would think holidays I would get a moment to sit, relax and think...but NO! There's relatives, Christmas lists, appointments, parties and SO MANY OTHER THINGS! I'd pull out my hair but I just got it shaved down and there isn't much to pull. Okay, let me wrap this up because my supervisor is looking at me and I think she's trying to think up an excuse to come over and start snooping.
Love you all!
