Possession
"Don't go taking what's mine" He said, making my heart skip a beat and then at that very moment I realized that this is not a matter of forever its the matter for an eternity. Especially when time started flowing the wrong way and it was too late when I realized that I've fallen a lot more deeper than I thought.
Chapter 4: Regrets.
"Having one regret is enough. I don't plan on making another one"
Gray's POV
As I walked around aimlessly to cool off my head from all the rubbish shit that Lisanna's been saying, my head is filled by nothing but her, Lucy Heartfilia. I still remember the day I learned the news about her from the master, the day I've read her letter is also the day that my tears have dried and in exchange for my dried up tears eternal emptiness and sadness befall into me. Maybe its because I've cried a life time's worth of tears that's why right now not even a single drop can fall down.
I've become frozen with my own time, its not just me but along with the pain and emptiness is also a life time's worth of regret. Every since then I've always dreamed about her, her smiling face, her voice calling out my name and her...leaving my side and the me who's running after her. Its always been that dream. Her and my regret.
I know that she like that idiot and I know that he like him back, its a mutual thing that's why I decided to step back because I thought it would be for the best, the two of them are also my important nakama and above else my priority is for her to continue smiling. That is why I never said anything about my feelings for her, I've always kept it bottle inside me because I thought that as long as she's happy then its fine even if I'm hurt but now she's gone.
I'm filled nothing but regrets. I'm regretting the fact that I didn't notice that something has been off with her before she disappeared I regret not being able to be beside her when she's thinking about it, I regret not being able to stop her from leaving, I regret not realizing things and most of all I regret not being able to tell her I love her.
Three words and eight letters.
Just a simple 'I like you' would have been better than nothing. But I didn't even dare say it. I only watched on the sidelines, protect her from the sidelines and make her happy only from the sidelines. Aaaah...how lame. Who would have thought that I'll be this lame now everything that I could have done before when she's still within the reach of my hand has turned into nothing but 'What ifs'
I've been walking aimlessly around the town and before I knew I arrived in front of her apartment. It been three months since then but we, Erza, Happy and Natsu decided that we'll continue paying Lucy's apartment and that her things should remain as it is but now as I stand in front of her place, where we usually ambush her, waiting for her return, staying cozy at her place with out her knowing because Mira has always been handing us her house keys and then she'll come back and yell at us.
But now everything seems like far-off dream. Her place is here but she's not. Ah...crap. This isn't good. It took us three months to finally get our act together but as times pass by the loneliness, the hole she left in us continue to grow deeper. As I sat down the pavement and look at the river in front of her place, even though my eyes aren't crying, my heart is grieving.
Lucy...
Lucy...
Lucy...
"I like you" I said to no one.
What the heck? This is so laughable. Its so easy to say it but saying it now is pointless.
Now that the person I want to say it the most isn't here anymore.
See now Lucy? I'm not strong cause I wasn't able to protect you.
I'm not cool more like I'm lame.
I'm not smart cause all this time I've been acting stupid.
The truth is this is me, Uncool, lame and useless...
A man who can't even protect or stay with the girl he loves.
"Ha...hahahahahaha...ha"I'm so pathetic that I could only laugh.
And what's more pathetic is that I'm still hoping that I can be with her even thought its all too late now.
Today I could only sat in front of her door waiting for someone that would never come my heart continue to grieve even though my tears are all dried up but as I look at the dark, gloomy sky as rain drops started to fall I could only smirk at the sight, seems like even the sky and the rain are sympathizing over me, crying for me. "Sigh, since when did I became this pathetic?"
"Yeah. You sure look pathetic Gray"
"Eh?" Then I look up and there I saw the guy I don't want to see. "So its just you Natsu"
END OF GRAY'S POV
"Huuuh What do you mean by just Natsu!" He said "Are you trying to pick a fight with me?"
"No. Seriously I'm not in the mood for one" Gray said as I stare down the ground"Your the same too right?"
"huh?"
"Stop acting dumb. So if your just trying to cheer me up with your stupidity then its better if you stop" He said "Since when were you here?"
"I was inside Lucy's place since long before you came here, I smell you so I went down here"
"What's up with that? Don't go smelling me freak"
"..."
"Tch. Suddenly appearing in front of me and you'll just shut up come on say somethi-"
"I know that you are in love with Lucy" Natsu said as the ice mage eyes flinch at what he just heard.
"Since when?"
"four months ago, a month before Lucy disappeared" Natsu said
"Hmm...if you knew it already why didn't you tell her?"
"Well to be honest I wasn't really one hundred percent sure about it four months ago" He said as he sat down beside him "And maybe because I'm afraid that everything will change if I mention it"
Gray didn't say anything and as the silence engulf the two of them he knows that what Natsu did was probably for the best in his own way maybe he's trying to respect his decisions but still why would he mention it now? Of all times why now!?
"I won't apologize to you or something" Natsu said as he look up at the sky
"Of course you won't stupid. If you do I'll kill you" Gray said.
"Hahaha, try it if you can ice freak"
"Anyway aside from you stupidity what are you doing at Lucy's place?" Gray asked
"Oh yeah! THE DIARY!" Natsu exclaimed as he suddenly stood up
"Diary? oh the one Erza said is for you"
"Yeah, and that diary has everything!" Natsu exclaimed in delight
"everything? what do you mean" Gray asked
"I'm not yet sure but here's what I think *whisper* *Whisper*"
Gray's eyes widen in shock from what Natsu said as he immediately grab the pink haired lad by his scarf. "Is what you said true?"
"Tch. Let go of me" Natsu said kinda irk because Gray grab him by his precious scarf "I told you right its just a possibility"
"But..."
"In which case, whether its true or not the question is will you do it?" Natsu asked as he offer his hand at the ice mage.
"Do you even have to asked?" Gray said as he grab it "Having one regret is enough. I don't plan on making another one"
"Okay. So now we have a deal." Natsu said as the two of them head up to Lucy's apartment.
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