Chapter 20 Confusion
Punk;
I stopped in my tracks wondering if today was the day that the headshots had finally won, standing a few feet from me was that lean blonde figure that I just knew belonged to only one person. I had heard through the grapevine that we had another assistant starting, they didn't last very long around here, the schedule was too much for them but I never in all my life thought that the newest asset to the team would be Jamie Michales. The last time I had seen her she had that figaraitve handcuff on her wrist tying her to the hospital. Now she was walking and talking by herself. I kept watching her as she bounced, that was the same, last I recalled bouncing was the thing Jamie loved the most. She had grown since I saw her last, now she had lean legs but a nice curvy ass that I couldn't stop looking at. I wasn't meant to be looking at girls but especially her of all people. From the back of her I could just tell that she was still just as pretty if not prettier, I hated seeing her, it was only a matter of time before I started to remember how I felt once upon time. I tried to tell myself it was nothing, but I knew better, it was a crush, one that I had to remember that I was well and truely over. Through the years the women have slowly turned against me, now they were nothing but whores, bitches and gold-diggers, sadly it was always the sweet, kind, innocent girls that turned out to be the worst. It was only a matter of time before Jamie showed her real colours. I was still looking at her curvy ass, since the hospital she had put on weight, I guess she was holding down food now. I have to admit usually I liked girls to be stick thin, I was a prick like that, but Jamie's curves just gave me ideas, ideas that I really didn't like. I had to remind myself that Jamie was going to be just like the other girls, maybe I need to smack that idea out of her little head. I had an option, I could turn right around and walk the other way, if I was careful enough Jamie would never know I was even here. Instead I found myself walking towards her, I guess I just wanted to see it was her and not someone else. Halfway to her I realised what I was doing and promptly stopped. I couldn't do this again, it was too much all the other times. Maria, Mickie, Shannon, Traci and all the sluts in between, it all started the same, a slight fall and by the time it was over I was the one broken hearted and looking like a jackass. It was better the way I was now, sure I was a cold hearted bastard but I was also lonely. As much as I hated to admit this, I had missed Jamie. Like she could hear my thoughts, Jamie turned around and the moment her blue eyes fell on me they lit up.
"Punk!"
I had never seen a women (in the past three years) happy to see me, I was used to their cold indifference. Her little face was lit up as she litterly jumped into my arms and hugged me profusely. It was nice, I admit, I hadn't been hugged in a very long time and feeling her in my arms bought back that time at the hospital. It also bought back what happened the last time a woman hugged me. Cold stinging betrayal. I pushed her away so hard she landed on the floor in a painful heap. Her big blue eyes looking up at me in hurt confusion. For a split second I felt bad until I remembered she was a woman. She was just like them.
"Why did you do that?" Jamie asked in a tiny voice not moving from her spot, her whole face was oozing with hurt.
"Because we are not friends Jamie, you are to stay away from me"
Jamie just looked up at me, before her hurt ridden face and sad eyes could sway me. I merely stepped around her, making sure my boot connected with her side. Jamie let out a little squeal of something, I tried to tell myself it wasn't hurt.