Title: My Heart Cries for you
Author: Trista Groulx aka dustytiger
ating: T (same as the show)
Disclaimer: I am remain poor and don't own NCIS it belongs to it's creator, network, writers, actors and actresses who bring it to life weekly.
Summary: Tony is diagnosed with leukemia and has to rely on his family for support.
Notes: Tony wakes up to find a friend is visiting him, how do things go? While I would never hold out for reviews, I got a lot on the last part, and I hope people will continue to let me know what they think it means sooo much to me to hear from folks. This different from what I normally write so hearing what people think is extra awesome. Also the side sleeper in hospital bed thing is so true came from my own experience last summer but thankfully I only remember about a week of being hospitalised.

DiNozzo woke up from what felt like his tenth nap of the day. He hadn't expected treatment to take so much out of him. He stretched out in the hospital bed, there was a kink in his hip; the hospital bed was the worst place for the side sleeper. He opened his eyes and saw his dinner tray and groaned, the treatment was zapping his appetite, and the now cold hospital food didn't help matters any. He was going to roll over and go back to sleep, but he got the feeling he wasn't alone.

"Tony you should eat," he heard a familiar female voice tell him.

He couldn't believe she was real. "Am I dreaming?" he asked.

"Gibbs called me, why did you not tell me?" '

"I didn't want to worry you. You were happy where you were, and I wanted you to keep finding yourself."

There were tears in her eyes. "You are more important than that, Tony."

"I'm sorry Ziva."

She moved closer to him and brushed her lips against his. He pulled her toward him with one hand, while the other went to her hair, running his fingers through it; it was just as soft as he remembered. Neither of them wanted to let things get too heated not knowing when a doctor, nurse or someone else from the team might come in. He pulled away from her and cupped her cheek with his hands. She smiled at him, glad to be there with him, silently wishing they could keep moving forward.

"I - I love you," he told her.

She smiled. "I love you too. Why can't we ever do anything like everyone else?"

"We wouldn't be us if we did. I'm gonna beat this for you, Zi."

She couldn't help but let tears fall down her cheeks. "I want that Tony, so much."

"Hey I beat the plague I can do this. I know you're a match and I'm glad you came back but I can still understand that you may be nervous."

"That is why Gibbs called me. When Abby was looking to donate a kidney she asked us all to get swabbed to be put in the national bone marrow registry. I am a match for you and I want to help you nothing would stop me from doing that."

"Thank you. I guess we really do share something special."

"Yes we do, and I am sorry it took me so long and something so horrible for me to realise this was always where I needed to be."

He tucked a piece of hair behind her ear. "I'm just happy you're here."

She leaned in to kiss him again but the door squeaked open. They both looked over at the door way not at all surprised to see Gibbs standing there with a characteristic knowing grin. He took her hand and squeezed it softly.

"Welcome home," he greeted. "I thought you may need a place to stay."

"She can stay at my place, it's not like the docs are letting me go any time soon."

"I do not want to overstay my welcome Gibbs, I'd like the company tonight but I'll stay at Tony's after you get sick of me."

"Okay," both men assured her.

She was still a little overwhelmed about being back in the states, but she was also relieved. After hearing that DiNozzo was sick she started to regret her choice. They had lost almost a year together, and now she didn't know how much longer she might have with him. The door opened again and Abby joined them, going right over to Ziva and hugging her tightly.

"You're back!" Abby exclaimed.

She nodded. "I missed this."

"Me too, the internet is great, but getting to for real hug my bestie is way better."

"I wish it was under better circumstances."

"Me too, but you're home now."

"I am."

She knew that she wasn't going to go back to Israel. She wanted to spend as much time with the people who mattered most to her for as long as possible. She finally realised that her roots had been there the whole time, and although Israel would always be a part of her, her future was in America with the family she had found when she needed it the most.

Notes: Another thing I learned last summer is hospital food really is the pits, especially when you're a vegetarian so I'm gonna deal with that for Tony, you'll see. Thank you as always for the support. Reviews are good for the soul heart guys.