Title: My Heart Cries for you
Author: Trista Groulx aka dustytiger
ating: T (same as the show)
Disclaimer: I am remain poor and don't own NCIS it belongs to it's creator, network, writers, actors and actresses who bring it to life weekly.
Summary: Tony is diagnosed with leukemia and has to rely on his family for support.
Notes: So senior comes into the picture I guess I didn't really think about how long it took him to get there because it was the way I wrote this, so it's not an issue, the important thing is he is there. Still working on a final chapter number but right now it's about twenty five parts and I think I have almost all the loose ends tied up. As always the support on this is so amazing guys keep the love coming.

Anthony DiNozzo Senior went into his son's hospital room. When he saw his son, who was sitting up in the bed reading a book he tried not to gasp at the sight of him. As much as he had tried to prepare himself for that moment, seeing your only son looking almost gaunt with his hair gone was shocking. They had never been much for affection but a part of him wanted to hug his son. For a moment Senior thought about the first time he had held his son, and he couldn't stop his mind from wondering if he might have bury him .

"I think there's a reason DiNozzos go grey," Junior joked.

His father smiled, glad to see his son's sense of humour was still there. "How are you feeling today?"

"Tired, but I was hungry today so that's good. Ziva's been bringing me food when she visits, and she's also been trying to teach me yoga."

"Trying?"

Junior shrugged. "Yeah, every time she bends over I check out her ass. It's not my fault, really, that woman has a perfect ass, it begs for attention.

Senior shook his head, laughing a little. "You're lucky she hasn't killed you with her bare hands for that."

"My ninja knows I can't help it since we're not at home together."

Senior was more than a little confused. "When did you seal that deal?"

"When we were in Israel," he replied.

"When in the hell were you in Israel?"

"About a year ago now when she decided she wanted to stay instead of coming back to NCIS."

Senior sighed softly realising just how little he knew about his only child's life. He wanted to change that, and hoped that they would have a chance to be closer than they had been before. As much as he hated that he was sick he hoped something good could come from it and they could finally have a good relationship.

"Dad," DiNozzo said after long period of silence. "I don't remember Mom losing her hair."

"That's because she never went through treatment," Senior explained. "The odds weren't good, something like ten percent by the time they found out what it was. She told me she didn't want to scare you, and that she wanted you to remember her as she was."

"Oh, I had no idea that must have been so hard for you."

"It was, I guess we've never really talked about it much."

"I remember her telling me she was going to the hospital and I don't know how long she was there. Then one day Aunt Aggie picked me up from school, and I stayed at her house for two or three days. She woke me up one morning and told me I wasn't going to school. Thenasked me to put on a suit, she helped me with my tie, and we went to the funeral home. I was so scared when we got there, cause Mom wasn't there and I started to cry. You told me that DiNozzo men don't cry."

"I was in shock the whole time, Junior, I never should have told you that."

"Gran told me that she had gone up to heaven, and I was so sad. The last time she told me my bedtime story I fell asleep before I told her I loved her," he explained tears in his eyes.

"They just made her comfortable while she was in the hospital. One day she was weak and I just held her hand and she slipped away. Why didn't you tell me you didn't feel like you had gotten to say goodbye to her?"

"I didn't want to start to cry again, Gran took me to say goodbye to her but it wasn't the same. Dad we never talked about her or the funeral again until today."

Senior hugged his son, holding him tightly to him. "I made so many mistakes Tony, I'm sorry. I'll never be able to fix what happened then, but I hope I'll get another chance with you. There were so many times I wished He'd taken me instead of her, she was a pro."

"Don't say that Dad, we're making things work, finally."

"It shouldn't have taken so long for us to get her, and it certainly shouldn't have taken this."

"Better late than never?" he suggested.

"You're right."

The Senior DiNozzo then hugged his son tightly, happy when his son hugged him back. It had taken too long for both them and they both hoped they could continue to move forward after this was all over. Senior knew that his son had fought against the odds before, but there was a part of him that worried he could lose his only son the same way he had lost that boy's mother. No other woman had come close to her and he realised now that he had made more mistakes than he could count because of what had happened, he could only pray that he would get a chance to redeem himself in regards to his son even if it felt like it was too little too late.

Notes: So that was that, I love Senior's character so much some of the Tony's mom stuff has come from brainstorming with a friend of mine (Jen thank girl!). Let me know what you think, I know some of you are going to think I was too easy on senior but the important thing is he came not when he did.