~Uncontrollable~
Just for today...
I will share with you...
My mind went numb, the heat of her body slowly transferring over to me.
"..You want to know right? More about me, that is."
"Yeah..." I closed my eyes.
She became silent, then took a deep breath.
"Well, it's true- I live alone.
There are alot of reasons for that, which don't concern you."
I felt a stab.
There she goes again.
"But I'll just tell you the simple way."
"My parents live seperate.
and I choose not to go with either of them."
"None of my relatives wanted to take me in...
...neither did I want to be taken in by them."
"So they all agreed they'd pitch in together and send me money to live here."
"That way, we were all happy."
Happy?
How can that possibly be happy...
We both sat quietly for a moment.
Then she finally got up.
"I only told you that today since you helped me..."
She turned away.
"Don't get it confused."
It doesn't mean i'm going to tell you everything", she crossed her arms.
~Uncontrollable~
I heard him laugh.
"What's so funny?" I glared.
"N..nothing!"
"I'm just glad you finally talked to me, is all", he smiled.
Whats with that? I felt weird.
"Anyways, were you planning to sleep in my bed or something?"
"Whaaat?", he turned red.
"Shouldn't you be heading home, pervert?"
"Oh right...", he got up.
I walked him to the door.
"Well I'll see you later", he started to walk out.
"Yeah..", I started to close the door.
Suddenly he moved back in the door.
"Will I see you tommorow?"
"No, I'll probaly rest for a few days."
"So I guess I won't see you for a bit then?"
I nodded.
He stared at me.
"What is it? Did you have something else to say?", I said.
He scratched his head, and looked away.
"...I'll...you..." ,he mumbled.
"What?"
He grabbed my arm and pulled me.
His lips were soft.
"I'll see you...", he turned and the door closed.
What was that...?
I touched my lips.
Why did it make my heart...?
~Uncontrollable~
Kura remained true to her words.
She was absent for most of the week.
When Friday came, she appeared.
Late, but at she came.
The guys give her funny looks.
The girls give her disgusted stares.
Amy, who I had talked to only once...
Didnt look with the same eyes as the rest of the girls- rather,
she didn't look at all.
The girl with dark green hair, "Midori".
Gave off the most hate.
I snapped back to reality.
Kuras eyes stared at me.
"Oh morning,... good to see you," I forced a smile.
~Uncontrollable~
I stared at his face.
The smile he pasted on it made it look stupid.
I opened my mouth to say something, but decided against it.
I took my seat quietly.
He slammed his head on his desk. What was he doing?
I saw his ear turn red.
How dumb, I laughed to myself.
Whats there to be embaressed for?
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As usual, during lunch we sat under the Willow Tree.
He was unusually quiet.
No annoying questions.
No Stupid remarks.
He didn't even text on his phone.
"Are you dying or something?" I scanned him for answers.
"...Huh...what?", he looked up.
We locked eyes.
He quickly looked back down at his food.
I threw some of my fried egg at him.
"HEY!" I yelled.
He pulled the egg out his hair. "What did I do?"
"It's RUDE to not look at the person who's talking to you."
"I don't think you of all people can say that...;" he mumbled.
"What was that?" I snapped.
"Nothing!"
"Just what exactly is wrong with you? Besides the usual stuff."
He played with his food.
"You haven't looked at me almost all day.
Did I do something wrong? Or have you become like the rest of them?"
"No!", he jumped.
He turned red, and sat back down.
"It's just I...at your house..", he scratched his head.
I took a bite of my egg.
"Your regretting it. Don't worry, It didn't happen."
I finished my fried egg, and left.
~Uncontrollable~
I watched her go.
That wasn't it...
It wasn't.
She had totally passed it off.
But, I hadn't exactly made myself clear.
I scratched my head.
Why does it have to be so difficult?
The sky outside became orange, signaling the end of the day.
I walked to my locker to get my shoes.
A shoe dropped.
I picked it up and handed it to it's owner.
She looked back at me shocked.
"You?", we both pointed.
"Amy? Your locker is next to mine?"
She nodded, slowly.
"Usually I have practice, so we don't see eachother I guess."
Kura's figure flashed through the exit.
"Ah- ..." I reached out my hand.
Amy gave me a hard stare.
"...You like her don't you?", she put on one shoe.
"Yeah I- ...What?" I turned to her.
"I knew it", she said.
"It's written like 'stupid', all over your face."
"You too...?
Are you in conspiracy with her to make me stupid?"
She paused, then put on her other shoe.
"Your getting yourself in deeper shit than you realize."
"What?" I glared.
"Don't say I didnt warn you, but most choose to move forward and find happiness."
"In your case, ...you have to walk through hell to get there first."
She turned away.
"Your going to hurt. But realize you wont be the only one."
The sunset burned red.