Title: My Heart Cries for you
Author: Trista Groulx aka dustytiger
ating: T (same as the show)
Disclaimer: I am remain poor and don't own NCIS it belongs to it's creator, network, writers, actors and actresses who bring it to life weekly.
Summary: Tony is diagnosed with leukemia and has to rely on his family for support.
Notes: McGee visits Tony. Still hashing out a few things, I can't believe it this is about how long I thought it would end up woops!

McGee hadn't gone often to visit DiNozzo, but it felt right that day. Ziva had come down with a cold and could no longer visit until she was feeling better. While he understood that his immune system was compromised it was still hard to not be able to see her, especially now that they were engaged. He liked that someone from the team would come visit him while she couldn't but he honestly missed her, even if it hadn't long since he'd last seen her. He had gotten used to seeing her daily and if he had had any doubts as to how he felt about her, this was showing him just how much she loved him.

"I brought you my old game boy," McGee told him.

"Seriously, how the hell do you still have that?" DiNozzo asked.

"I never get rid of games I like, and my game boy was the first place I got to play games."

"Seriously? You didn't have like an Atari, or Coleco or hell a Nintendo?"

"No, actually I didn't the game boy meant I didn't need to use a TV to play games, so that's what my dad got me one after I'd ask for two years."

"No wonder you're such a McGamer now."

"I can put this back in a box Tony."

"Thank you McGee." He then looked at the games. "Sweet, this is gonna be awesome! How's Ziva doing?"

"Better, she's back at work but still coughing she wants to be symptom free a few days before she visits, she doesn't want to make you sick."

"All right, good I miss her," he explained honestly.

"I never thought I'd see it," laughed McGee.

"See what?"

"You, in love Tony, especially with Ziva."

"McGee I think you're the only person who didn't picture me with Ziva," he laughed. "Hey, didn't you tell me that you went online to get ordained for some geeky online wedding?"

"It wasn't geeky, but yes, it was pretty easy to do, why?"

He shrugged. "Just have something in my head right now."

"Care to fill me in?"

"I guess with transplant coming up I'm starting to worry. There's a part of me that wants to marry her right away, if she'd let me."

He hadn't said it out loud before, but it had been running through his head since he'd last seen her. He wasn't sure if she would want to marry him just before he went for his transplant, which they knew was going to be the riskiest part of his treatment but that's what he wanted. He wanted to go into that room knowing that his wife was the one who had donated for him, and when he woke up he wanted to know they were bound together in a way that most couple could never dream of. He'd wanted to ask her before he told anyone else but he couldn't keep it from one of his best friends.

"Seriously?" asked McGee, his eyebrow crooked.

"What's the point of waiting?" he asked. "I want to marry her, and knowing I've got her to come home too it's all the more reason for me to fight, knowing I have my beautiful wife to come home to, consummate the marriage," he chuckled.

"You'll never change," McGee sighed. "What if she doesn't like the idea?"

"Then knowing she wants to marry me would have to be enough, but honestly if she would agree I just want it done. I want everyone to know I'm serious. She's it for me, I'm never gonna feel this way about anyone else. Why should we have some big ceremony when all I want is to know is we're married? I wouldn't want something big right now I look sick but I want her to know she's the reason I'm fighting. She's all I think about when I think about getting home. I've never felt like this before Tim, and if something does happen after the transplant, I want to be able to meet my maker and say I am lucky to have that woman as my wife."

"Well if she agrees to it I can think up a ceremony for you, and get all the paperwork together for you. There's a lot of great fun ideas out there for more casual weddings, I've ever seen Doctor Seuss ones before!"

"Thank you, I'm not sure if Ziva would go for that, but I'd like something that reflects both of us. Thanks Tim."

McGee smiled, the two men didn't have to exchange any more words they both knew what it meant that DiNozzo had asked him to perform the ceremony. They both knew it would not be anything big, just their family but McGee wanted it to be special for his friends. McGee knew he would find what fit them, and that it would be very memorable. He always thought that if DiNozzo was to get married it would be a big ordeal, but this idea seemed right. He knew everyone was worried about the transplant and this would be a nice way for everyone to forget, if even for a moment, that things were so risky. He was already thinking about how much fun he was going to have doing research for something perfect for the couple.

Notes: I know some of you have been waiting for McGee so here he is finally. I hope you like the idea of McGee performing the ceremony hehe... let me know keep the kind words coming heart.