Title: My Heart Cries for you
Author: Trista Groulx aka dustytiger
ating: T (same as the show)
Disclaimer: I am remain poor and don't own NCIS it belongs to it's creator, network, writers, actors and actresses who bring it to life weekly.
Summary: Tony is diagnosed with leukemia and has to rely on his family for support.
Notes: Gibbs goes to see Tony. Thank you as always for the support on this guys it means so so so much to me please keep the kind words coming it makes my heart sing.

The past few days DiNozzo hadn't been himself. Ziva was still not feeling one hundred percent but after not being able to get him on the phone for the second day in a row she'd called Gibbs asking if she could find out what was going on with DiNozzo. She'd give him a gift back which he hadn't looked inside of, putting it down by the chair where he sat waiting for him to wake up. After getting her call Gibbs knew he had to help, Ziva didn't sound like herself. He drove to the hospital and went up to DiNozzo's room, surprised to find him asleep he was always awake for visiting hours because he looked forward to seeing however could go see him on any given day. He sat down and waited, flipping through one of the books Ducky had lent him. Almost an hour later he heard him starting to move.

"Boss?" asked DiNozzo, yawning. "What's up?"

"Ziva's worried about you," Gibbs told him.

"She could talk to me if she's worried."

"You haven't taken any calls the last few nights, and you know she's getting over a cold and won't compromise your immune system."

"Right, Boss," he sighed softly. "I- don't know what to say to her. I've been so tired the past few days, I can't shake it."

"That's normal at this point of your treatment, she's scared that you're pushing her away, that's not what you do when you care about a person."

"I know, but what if I lose her, or she loses me?"

"That won't happen. You're going to fight, you already have."

"I know that Boss, and I am fighting, but anything can happen."

It always amazed DiNozzo how Gibbs could so easily get him to open up. For a man he so often described a functional mute he certainly knew how get others to talk. This wasn't like interrogation Gibbs, it was softer than that. It was him fixing a problem with his family by getting them to talk. Often times DiNozzo found it easier to come clean with Gibbs than anyone else. He knew his boss was right but there was still a part of him that worried about the future, it was only natural with what he was dealing with, but he was already starting to feel a little relieved by talking it out.

"Don't push her away, if she didn't want this she wouldn't be here, and she certainly wouldn't have that ring on her finger. Don't fuck this up, you'll never find anyone like her again," Gibbs told him never one to sugar coat anything.

"I know, Boss, but I don't understand why she's putting up with this," he sighed.

"She wants to, don't overthink it."

He nodded. "I'm exhausted I've never felt like this before. I don't want to scare her, but there's time where I just want to go to sleep and not wake up."

"That's one option."

"Thanks for the support Boss. I don't want to stop fighting but it's hard when everything hurts, when I look like a ghost and everyone looks at me different."

"Not everyone."

"Boss I can see, it my dad is scared of me. McGee hardly visits me Bishop won't look me in the eyes. I know Palmer's busy with the baby but he could visit just once."

"Palmer's worried about spreading germs from the baby to you without realising it. McGee's been letting Ziva come more often, as for Bishop, who can explain her sometimes. As for your father it's the worst feeling in the world to see your child sick it's a natural reaction to seeing you in the hospital. But you have to see that everyone is trying their best to support you."

"I know. I'm just scared."

"You have every right to be scared, but you shouldn't push away the people who care about you."

He nodded. "I know I do. Can you tell Zi I'll call her tomorrow?"

"Sure."

"I'm going back to sleep hopefully it'll make me feel better."

"All right Tony, like I told you when you had the plague, Tony you will not die."

He couldn't help but smile. "Gotcha Boss."

"Ziva gave me this."

Tony took the small bag his boss had brought in and almost forgot about. When he looked inside he found one of Ziva's tank tops inside. He grinned, he had one hiding under his pillow but it no longer smelled like her, it smelled like the hospital. He liked having it close because it made him feel like she was closer even when she couldn't be. He knew that Gibbs hadn't peaked into the bag knowing that it was probably something personal. He curled up in the hospital bed, her shirt close to him, and a smile on his lips, hoping he could tell her what was going on his head the next day.

Notes: Well that was that, I hope you enjoyed it let me know. Next up some more Senior stuff. I wrote this before the plot twist of senior getting married, which I love. Reviews are good for the soul hearts