Title: My Heart Cries for you
Author: Trista Groulx aka dustytiger
ating: T (same as the show)
Disclaimer: I am remain poor and don't own NCIS it belongs to it's creator, network, writers, actors and actresses who bring it to life weekly.
Summary: It's the big day... times two really. Thank you so much for all the support on this guys, this is the exciting part! Let me know what you think.

Tony was finally ready to receive the bone marrow transplant that had brought Ziva back into his life. She was holding his hand as he sat in the hospital bed. He barely looked like the same person she had fallen in love with over the years, but at that moment she didn't think she could love him more. She was happy that they were going to commit themselves to each other, but she was also nervous. This certainly wasn't how she expected it would happen, but just like everything else they had done it fit them perfectly.

"Are you sure this is how you want this?" she asked him.

"Yes," he assured her, he always sounded so tired. "When I hit five years remission we'll have a proper ceremony on a beach somewhere but this is what I want right now and I think we both need it. You're sure you want this, Zi?"

She nodded. "Yes, I do."

His bone marrow transplant was scheduled for that day and they knew that it was one of the riskiest parts of his treatment. Despite knowing it was going to be the last hurdle to everything, it wasn't going to be the end of it. Both of them were still amazed the other had agreed to do this, but they were thrilled they were going to devote themselves to each other in front of the people who mattered most. They had even gotten Palmer to agree to be in the room, despite his fear of baby germs making Tony sicker. He kissed her softly, but there was a knock on the door, and she went to open the door.

"Our family is," she told him smiling.

She went back over to him. He was now standing next to the hospital bed. He reached over and took her hand and squeezed it tightly. She was glad that he was still so positive about everything, but she still worried about him. McGee came into the room, and Gibbs, Abby, Bishop, Ducky, Palmer and his father followed shortly after. They were glad that one of their friends was able to perform the simple ceremony. There was still a part of her that was shocked that he had asked her. She was about to marry her best friend wanting to grow old with him, she had to be positive to keep herself from falling apart in front of everyone.

"This wasn't how I thought this would happen," McGee told them. "I'm glad you're letting me such a big part of it."

"We would not have wanted someone we did not know to do this," Ziva assured him. "Thank you for doing this."

"I'm happy to do it, are you both ready?"

"Yes," they both answered at the same time.

"All right, great, let's get started then."

Everyone stood at one end of the hospital room, while Ziva and Tony stood facing each other at the other end of the room with McGee standing behind them. He was nervous about what he was going to do, hoping he'd gotten it right for the couple.

"This isn't a traditional wedding, but we all know Tony and Ziva have never done things the way other expect them to," he started, making everyone chuckle. "I'm supposed to ask if anyone objects to this, but it's about damn time they take the plunge." No one said anything, and they were all smiling.

Tony was gently rubbing Ziva's palm with his finger, trying to keep her calm. He knew that she was still nervous about everything, and wanted to keep her mind focused on that moment because they would never get the chance again; even though he knew he wanted to renew their vows and give her the chance for her perfect wedding this was the one that mattered to them both because of the timing of it. She smiled at him reassuringly.

"Tony repeat after me," he nodded. "Today is the day I chose to devote my life to you," he said and Tony repeated. "You have already shown me that you will be there for me through anything, but I promise you I would do the same for you. You are the love of my life and the person I want to settle down with, that will never change so long as there is air in my lungs. Will you take me as I am to be your husband?"

There were tears I her eyes. "I will, yes."

He grinned at her and moved his hand up to cup her face. She took a deep breath knowing it would be her turn soon, and judging by what McGee had written for Tony she was almost certain she wouldn't be able keep her emotions in cheque. She could see that Abby was dabbing her eyes and even Gibbs seemed to be moved by the personal vows.

"Ziva, repeat after me," she nodded, and squeezed Tony's hand. "Today is the day I chose to devote my life to you," he started and she repeated. "I came back to you when I thought I never could. You helped me to see where I have always belonged and I promise to always be by your side. You are the love of my life and the person I want to have a life with, that will never change so long as there is air in my lung. Will you take me as your wife?"

"I will," he managed to get out before tears started down his cheeks too.

As they both wiped their eyes McGee took the rings out of his pocket. He decided not to have anything too fancy for them to give each other their rings. "Tony, place this ring on Ziva's finger." He nodded, and put the ring on her finger. "Ziva place this ring on Tony's finger." She did and smiled. "You are now married, you may kiss the bride."

Tony leaned in and kissed her softly. She wrapped her arms around him, not wanting to let him go, but she knew she had to. As much as she was happy they were married she was still terrified about what would happen next but didn't want tell him that she wanted to stay positive.

Notes: This was probably one of the hardest parts for me to write, but I think I finally got it to a point where I like it, let me know what you think please.