Chapter 69 Yes, he is that stupid
Punk;
I tried, I really did but it all got to me. Everytime I looked at Jamie, all I saw was that horrible word, it had buried into my skin and fucked with my head in a bad way. It got to a point where touching her just made me feel so dirty and wrong. I hated the look in her eyes, disapointment and confusion but I just couldn't tell her. How was I meant to explain that everytime I thought of her, everytime I touched her, it just made me feel like a dirty pervert, I didn't want to feel this way, I wanted it to change but it was too late, that evil word had burrowed into my skin and suddenly I wasn't me anymore. I was this dirty pervert and each second I was with her, the dirt increased and it just wouldn't come off. I scrubbed and scrubbed but I never felt clean. It wasn't meant to be this way, but it was and it was an issue I had to sort out. On my own.
After work I sat Jamie down and waited for the right words to come, those eyes I loved didn't sparkle or shine, they stared at me sadly, it was like a part of her knew this was coming.
"Jamie I have to tell you something"
"I already know Punk, you don't love me anymore." She sniffed sadly, "I guess I was waiting for that, best in the world and me? I was kidding myself"
It wasn't the best option but I took it, I just couldn't tell her the real reason. "I'm sorry Jamie, I tried, I really did"
Jamie slid off the bed sadly, her usually happy actions dumped in sadness and defeat, I had broken her heart royally, I know I always said I wanted revenge of this kind, but hurting her wasn't the one I wanted to do it too. I wanted to grab her and tell her she was wrong but I didn't, I was too stuck in my own paranoia. Jamie snapped the door shut to her room, I heard her heavy body hit the bed, a deep gutteral sob escaping her lips, for the rest of the night, I sat beside the bathroom door and listened to her cry until she fell asleep.
A/N I know! So is Punk that stupid or was it justifyed? Onwards we go!