It was days before Edward and I had the opportunity to discuss the whole "children" dilemma. His parents were always around, and of course I wasn't going to argue against Edward while his parents were looking on. Arguing to keep their grandchild from existing was something I wasn't proud of.
Of course, while I was forced to work, Edward was left at the hospital, which allowed him plenty of time to think on his impending fertility. I had brought him his laptop so he was able to do plenty of research on freezing sperm and the procedures.
So when the day finally came that we were alone in his hospital room, I knew I was in for a huge argument. I know that I shouldn't really care about the fact Edward wanted to freeze his sperm, considering he had brain cancer. Stage three brain cancer. But I didn't want to give him false hope. If he froze his baby batter, only to find out a few years later that I still didn't want to have a child, he would never forgive me or himself. So might as well solve the problem now.
"Bella, I think we should talk about cryopreservation." Edward begins, he's holding my hand while I'm sitting at his side. "I've been researching it. . . I'm not s—"
"Edward, you need to understand that I'm not going to want children." I butt in, I know it's rude, but I'm not going to hold back. "I've never wanted children. I don't think I ever will want children." I'm looking straight at him and all I see is love and forgiveness in his eyes. He really thinks he's going to convince me.
"Bella, I want kids. You know this, you've always known this." Edward smile at me, like I'm the one in the hospital bed and he's the one who's been diligently visiting me every day. A sympathetic smile. A sad smile. "And honestly, if you've stuck with me this entire time, you've got to have known we would have had at least one child together. Obviously we're going to get married, someday." He squeezes my hand slightly.
Edward and I had known from nearly the second we were exclusive that we were going to get married. There had been no need to speak about it, we were just waiting until our financial status was a little more stable before we tied the knot.
"I know that's what you think, but honestly, I don't want to have kids Edward." I tried to reason with him, but he just held his finger to my lips.
"Shush. I wasn't finished. Now, I know we're not the richest couple in the world, but we've both got plenty of money saved away. The company will pay for most the procedures and the treatment therapy, so we have enough money to do this. Now, we're going to have a child. At least one. And that's final. And we're going to have it now." Edward stops talking, watching me as what he says sinks in.
"Now?" I stutter. "You want to have a kid now? While you're lying in a hospital bed? You have brain cancer for God's Sake!" My voice was rising.
"Bella, sweet, listen to me. I've been doing researched. It has to be now, that's the only way to make sure we'll have the baby. If you freeze sperm for long period of time, there's a chance they'll get damaged. And your body might reject my little swimmers if they're implanted unnaturally. There's no guarantee that it'll work. If we do it now, naturally, then we'll have that guarantee." Edward's voice starts to waver. I watch as waves of emotion flash on his face, first frustration, and anger, and then fear. And it settles on sadness. I watch as tear well up in his gorgeous emerald eyes, and I watch as a single fat tear rolls its way down his cheek. And I watch as my finger reaches forward to wipe it away. And I listen to his heart monitor, the steady beeping is a constant reminder of where we are.
Thousands of thoughts go through my head. I can't concentrate long enough to process what he's been saying fully. He wants a baby. Who am I to take away what he wants?
"Fine. I'll do it." I say quietly. Leaning forward to look into his teary eyes better. "I said I'll do it." And then I watch as more tears fall down his face.
"Thank you." He whispers to me. "Thank you."
~~**oo**~~
Authors Note: Do you think Edward is being unreasonable with his choice of having a baby now even after what he's been diagnosed with? Or is the potential for failure a justifiable reason to have a baby so suddenly? And what about Bella's sudden change of heart? Do you think she'll be cut out to be a mom? Let me know!
Next Chapter comes out tomorrow. (I'll be going on vacation later today, so there's a chance I might not be uploading a new chapter everyday. I'll see what I can do for you guys though, I promise!)
