Chapter 6: Let me speak now
Kelly's day came to an end after she had done her scene with Ed. She got up from the couch, took her lines with her and left for her trailer without noticing Matthew, who had been watching Kelly's scene with Ed from the staircase. Her salad was still untouched on the table, she threw it away, quickly grabbed her purse and left. She was glad she hadn't ran into Matthew anymore. But at the same time her heart was torn about how they left things earlier.
Kelly decided to walk all the way home to clear her head. When she entered her apartment, she looked around. 'Home', she thought. It didn't feel like home though without her kids who were spending the summer with their father in France. Silence was everywhere. God, how she missed them so much. She decided to take a nice long bath to take her mind off of things. Candles, a glass of wine, some soft music in the background but it didn't help her to relax one bit. Frustrated she pulled the plug from the bath and got up, dried herself and put on some black panties and a matching bra, a pair of jeans and a grey T-shirt. She ignored she was hungry and left her apartment. Not knowing where she was going yet.
She ended up at Central Park and walked around for awhile. It all seemed so familiar. How many times had she come to the park to play with her kids? All she could hope for was that they would be home soon, so she could bring them here again. It got late and the park looked somewhat deserted; Kelly decided to leave the park and head elsewhere. Roaming the streets didn't seem to help ease her mind either. Her kids, the custody battle she was fighting with their father, Matthew. It's all too much.
'What a mess!', she thought to herself. She could really need a friend right now. The first person who came to her mind was Caroline, but she wasn't in town. Neither were Kelly, Lisa or Marcia. Matthew had always been a close friend but were they still friends? She hated this. Something had to be done to clear this mess between them. Kelly turned left into 42nd Street and twenty minutes later she found herself at Matt's front door with her index finger just inches away from his doorbell. Just when she wanted to push the button, she decided not to. She turned around and walked away. To her own surprise she was back at Matt's apartment after walking a couple of blocks. Again, she couldn't bring herself to ring his doorbell. What would she say? Would he even let her in after what she had said, or rather what she hadn't said? She was still standing right in front of the entrance of Matthews building. Kelly looked up to where his apartment was on the sixth floor when someone opened the door and stepped outside. Ever so slowly she looked down to see Matthew standing there. They stood there in silence for a few seconds. Just when Kelly wanted to say how sorry she was, Matthew stepped forward and hugged her. 'I'm sorry', she finally managed to say, with her arms still tightly around his neck. Neither one of them wanted to break the hug until it suddenly started to drizzle. 'Do you wanna come up?', Matthew asked looking into her eyes. 'I would love that', Kelly replied letting her hands slide down to where his hands were resting on her hips.
He took her hand and led her to the elevator. 'Weren't you going out?', Kelly asked while they were underway to the sixth floor. 'What?' 'People tend to walk out of their building when they have the intention of leaving, you know, going somewhere. Otherwise they could just stay inside.' she joked. 'Oh, yeah, euhm, I was actually on my way to see you. I know I must have hurt your feelings this afternoon. I mean, my God, all the things I've said. You didn't deserve that.' The elevator signaled they had reached Matthew's floor. They stepped outside, Matthew took his key out and opened the door to his apartment. 'Make yourself comfortable while I get us some coffee.' Kelly looked around his apartment; it still looked the same as the last time she was there. There were no signs of a female touch to his décor, no sign whatsoever that Maria was living with him. Kelly sat down on Matt's couch and put her one leg over the other just when Matt came in with a tray that held two cups of coffee, a can of milk, sugar and some cookies. He handed Kelly her cup and sat down next to her.
'I did', Kelly started talking while putting her cup on the coffee table. 'You did what?' he questioned. 'I did deserve to hear all the things you said to me today.' 'Kel, I…'. Matthew got interrupted. 'No wait, let me speak now.'