I woke up today in a more positive mood. Today was my first day back at work since the 'incident'. None of the others knew anything about it except Lorraine and I refused to let them know or to let it affect me too much. Sure Lorraine had made me report it after tons of screaming matches and tears; I had finally reported Kyle after letting go of her shoulder where I had been hiding from the outside world. I was lucky to have Lorraine there; I'm not sure how I would have gotten through it so far without her. I opened the door to see Lorraine sitting on the smooth leather seats of her red Ferrari. She smiled at me and the sun caught her perfect white toothed smile. 'Hey.' She grinned and her attractive cockney accent caught me off guard. I still wasn't completely comfortable with over the top amount of physical contact but Lorraine accepted that and gave me just the amount that I could deal with but also craved; her slight perfumed scent made me want her so bad. She kissed my cheek softly and the small purr of the engine set us off on our day ahead.

I sighed as I stared up at the Waterloo Road sign above me. Lorraine slipped her hand around my hip, whispering in my ear 'You're ready Nik, conquer the day ahead.' I faked a smile which turned out to be more of a grimace that she caught site of. Placing her hands on my shoulders tight she faced me square on 'Nik I believe in you, you're ready.' 'I'm just nervous.' I replied my stomach already seemed to agree with me, that sick nauseous pit of stomach feeling coming back up. 'I love you.' She was about to kiss me on the cheek before spotting Michael coming towards us. 'Nikki, glad to have you back, hope you're feeling better.' Nodding his head. 'Yes thanks Michael.'I sighed. 'Excuse me; I best go prepare for my lessons. See you later. 'I left leaving Michael and Lorraine looking worried at me as I made my way in the entrance of the school.

Lorraine's point of view:

I know that she's only just come back to work today, but that hasn't stopped me worrying about her. I stood with Michael in the playground watching Nikki make her way inside. I didn't want to make him suspicious of anything so I spoke before he could 'Anyway Michael lovely to see you this morning but I better get going, got meetings until lunch.' I smiled.

Meeting's definitely don't remind me of why I do this, listening to random business people rant on about money, budget's the local authority and this and that. My mind goes back to Nikki, when she confided in me about the incident. Seeing her gorgeous blue eyes fill with tears, having her choke back tears whilst sniffing into my shoulder. Anyway I was back now and all seemed to be normal but that's never the way is it. Thinking of maybe a mid-day boost black coffee, I opened the door of the staffroom to see Nikki propped up on the chair, with Tom sitting beside her holding a glass of water. I cough to show my presence. 'Alright Tom, Nikki what's going on?' I asked worriedly. Nikki looked up slowly. She was pale and just didn't look right. 'She fainted.' Tom stated like it was none of my business. 'I'm fine now really.' Nikki replied quietly before standing up only to stagger and collapse back into the chair. 'Really Nik come on be rational.' I raise my voice and Tom gives me a strange look raising his eyebrow; I wasn't usually one to be concerned about the welfare of other staff members. 'I think you should be at home, you're clearly not well enough to be back.' Tom said looking deeply at Nikki, he knew all about people not being 'right' what with Josh and the issues he had last term. 'I'll take her Tom; you should get back to work.' I allow Tom to look concerned at Nik once more before leaving. I need to look after her.

'Come on Nik, let's get you home.' I smile softly rubbing her back to attempt to provide a small amount of comfort to her. For a moment I thought she looked a little better before she threw up all over the floor and burst into tears. 'Look Nik don't worry about it, someone will clean it in a minute, Ndale will swing by. 'I rub the tears away from the corner of my eyes with my thumb and hand her the glass of water.

She wasn't used to someone caring either as at her house she was just as bossy as I could be. 'Look Lorraine, I'm fine really. Must just have the stomach bug that's going around. I can look after myself you know.' She groaned. 'I'm not going anywhere.' Sighing she stood up to make her point. 'No really, I don't need you hear now, I am capable and I'll probably just sleep it off anyway.' She shrugged. 'Fine…..fine but you call me the moment you need anything day and night!' I ranted waving my phone at her. Kissing her lips delicately I leave her to her own home and thoughts.

Nikki's point of view:

I hadn't been feeling well for a while and I don't just think it is a stomach bug. I was feeling sick, faint and had been having mood swings and to make it worse I was late. It could be just stress from the incident I had been in and hiding it from people, being worried constantly and stressed from exams and work and the new relationship I had with Lorraine. I couldn't be pregnant could I? I can't imagine myself as a mum with a baby. I'm gay so I never thought I'd have a family as such. I had been enjoying the prospect of this new relationship with Lorraine and was happy to let it play out and see where I ended up but a baby; a baby would ruin all this. The nauseous feeling rose back up and I quickly relieved myself by throwing up in the toilet. Wiping my mouth and rinsing it out with water before quickly brushing my teeth with the mint fresh toothpaste; this had become something I was used too…..How many minutes had it been? One? Two? I tap my feet trying to distract myself from the inevitable as I pick up the pregnancy test and my eyes widen as I see the little pink line forming. A new wave of nausea consumed me and I vomited again; not only because of the pregnancy but also the shock and pain. I leant against the wall with my hands covering my face and I began to cry.