"Keep going"
Those words kept repeating in my mind. Maura Isles, the Doctor Maura Isles, is telling me she wants me to touch her, to explore her body, and I can't seem to get my hands to move.
"A—Are you sure about this, Maura?" I breathed out as my hands cupped her breasts and she let out a breathy moan. I kissed up her neck softly and then felt her hips grinding against my abdomen. Oh god I could explode right here in this very second.
I moaned into her ear and slid my hands down her taught stomach. My hands were just above the waistband of her jeans. I bit down on her neck but then I heard her trying to say something.
"J—Jane no I—I'm not ready," she said in a breathy, shy, almost tiny voice.
I moved my hands from her jeans and helped her off of me. I was trying to regulate my breathing and she was watching me fidget.
"I'm sorry for stopping you in the middle of all of that," she whispered.
I grabbed a hold of her hands and looked into her eyes, "Don't be sorry Maur, it isn't your fault. I would never pressure you into doing something you weren't comfortable with." Her eyes started to water a bit and I got scared. "Shit!" She glared at me when I cursed and then I remembered, she hates when I use fowl language.
"I mean dam—no darn, Maura, I didn't mean to make you cry," I stammered.
She wiped her eyes and engulfed me into a hug.
"Oh Jane, you have no idea how much that means to me. You are so gentle and considerate to how I feel. You are considerate to my feelings. Even when you corrected yourself after you cursed, that was the simplest yet sweetest thing to me. He never does anything like that to me." I noticed the look in her eyes and she shifted, looking down.
"Maur talk to me. What is it? Does Garrett treat you badly!? I swear if that man does I will not hesitate to hand him his balls," my voice practically dripped with anger.
She took my hands, "H—he well... Jane I don't want you to do anything that could get you in trouble. I'm going to tell you things that I never speak about with anyone else but please don't do something to get you in a mess. I can't lose you." She almost pleaded.
I nodded, "I promise Maur, you have my word."
She took a deep breath, "Garrett and I have been together for as long as I can remember. At first our relationship was great, but when I became pregnant everything changed. It was almost as if he couldn't even look at me. He wasn't ready for children and he said it was all my fault, that I ruined everything. Afterwards he spent most of his time at work and the only time he would spend with me was when he wanted a good lay. When you came to get me the other day, that is what we were arguing over. Sunday is a day he has made where we have sex. That is all we do and he forces me to. I can hardly stand touching him anymore. That is all he has ever wanted from me the past several years. Sex. I am not somebody's fucking sex toy! I have feelings!" Her eyes widened. "I—I didn't mean to swear, forgive my language." She said sniffling and wiping the tears that began to fall.
I grabbed her into a huge hug and kissed her tears that were glistening on her cheeks.
"Maur, you do not deserve any of that. You are one of the — no you are the most amazing woman I have ever met." I looked into her eyes, "I never had these feelings for anybody else. Not even... well ummm... not even for Tara. We had something special but I never felt these sparks." It was my turn to tear up. I was about to wipe my eyes but I then Maura's hands on my cheek wiping the tears. "See, Maura. You are wonderful. You are so caring and beautiful. And so damn smart. And don't you dare comment on my language. This is an exception, okay? You are everything anybody could ever ask for. I know for a fact that anyone would be the luckiest person in the world if they had you. You should be treated like a princess, you should be told how amazing you are, how much you mean to them. You should be told that everyday."
She smiled at me. We just stared at each other for what felt like forever. I could totally get used to this, I thought to myself. I heard her clear her throat and it shook my from my thoughts. She was smiling at me.
"See something you like?" she arched her eyebrow and giggled.
"Oh I see a lot of things I like." I smiled.
"Jane, can I tell you something?" she questioned.
"Yes, of course. Anything."
"I like you. I want you, Jane. It may sound crazy but I can't be with Garrett anymore. He doesn't deserve me, he treats me like a doormat. I feel so alive with you. You make me happy, you are all I think about. You are the only woman, actually the only person, I have ever had these feelings for and it scares me to be honest, but I want this. I want you." She whispered the last part, almost as if she was scared of my response.
I pulled her into a soft kiss. I closed my eyes and moaned into her mouth. Her soft lips against mine. Her lips parted, allowing me to slide my tongue inside her mouth. Our tongues dueled for the upper hand. She was now on her back and then the need for air became necessary. I pulled my lips from hers and looked into her eyes, I made sure she could see in my eyes all the emotions, all the feelings I have for her.
"Maur, if that is crazy then I want to be crazy with you. I want to be with you every step of the way. I have feelings for you that I didn't think were possible. Im willing to give this a try if you are." I smiled brightly but then a thought eluded my head and she noticed it right away because she immediately asked what was wrong.
"But what about Garrett...?" I asked, almost defeated.