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Chapter 50

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Katniss comes round a few days later, she's skittish and stubborn. Finnick finds out where my place is and has been ordered to try and cajole me to aid. He has no intention of doing so because when I said I had a hand on the securing of Four he has been on my side ever since. But he does fill me in on what's been going on. Tracer has recovered enough and although she is still upset about Tracker being captured she and him understood the hazards. She, like I, just hopes Charring is right and they won't harm him, Peeta or Johanna.

"So when did you get the idea to do this coup Wire?" he asks as we stare at the ceiling.

"The summer just after the 74th games, since none of us were supposed to be in the games in the first place Finn" I reply, "Haymitch probably filled you in didn't he"

"He told me the gist" he says, "I hope Annie is okay"

"I'm sure she is Finn, Castiel would make sure of it" I tell him, "so what's the spiel this time from Pinocchio and Geppetto" I ask referring to Plutarch and Coin

"The same thing, but there is something new too" he says, "Katniss is ordering to be allowed to visit district Twelve"

"And what?" I ask

"Well you are one of the better trained soldiers" he says, "they want you to be her guard"

I sigh visibly, "what part of 'not helping' is in a foreign language Finn?" I close my eyes, "and why would I agree to something like that?"

"They said if not they might have to revisit your agreement" he says

Unfortunately Charring is right about something right now. I can't openly threaten Coin because her armed guards would have me Swiss cheesed before I would be able to pin her. And with that my whole team would have a target including Mav and now Gale.

"When do they plan this field trip to soot town?" I ask

"Tomorrow if you agree" he says

'Fantastic' I think sarcastically.

We change subject very quickly since Mav told me to talk to Finnick.

"Hey Finn?" I crane my neck a bit.

"Yeah?" he does likewise

"How did you know Annie was your girlfriend?" I ask

This give him pause, "messed up feelings?" he tilts his head to me and smirks, "I do not envy you right now, thank the game makers for not having a psychologist" he sighs and flips over, "you won't know it as love kid, but you will feel completely at ease with them, you won't feel on the offence or defense you will fall in line with each other, Annie is the storm and I'm her calm. That's how it was, I would look at her and know she saw me and not the victor Finnick O'dair and I didn't see her as victor Annie Cresta. Don't worry though, it will happen" he kisses my forehead, "for now focus on what we have to do, at least do this favor for them and maybe they will leave you alone for a while"

I sigh, "fine"

"Good girl" he ruffles my hair and heads off.

The air still feels heavy with smoke and since Makenzie doesn't trust me to not get sick again I have agreed to wear a mask. Not so for Katniss who refuses anything on her face. Maybe because she wasn't in the first firestorm her lungs weren't damaged or anything. Mine are fine now but I let my doctor dictate because she feels better if I do.

Katniss is visibly stressed; she walks thru what is left of the seam. I notice some skulls have bullet holes, I don't think she does but she only sees the devastation and I realize she really shouldn't be here.

Plus Gale should be here but he's up in the hover plane that is a second from snatching us up when we are done.

"How is she holding up?" he asks

"Deer in headlights" I mutter into my communicator

There is a pause, then he says, "how are you babe?"

"Wish I wasn't here" I mutter, "wish you were here, wish a lot of things"

Another pause, "I know, sorry Ari, we'll be back in Thirteen soon. How does it look we barely see much detail."

"Looks like the fire has incinerated everything, no real corpses, the mask is helping a bit with the smell but from what I can get it's not pleasant" I reply

"Well you can thank your doctor for it later" I hear him say

We head out of the seam, that's when the bodies start to have a bit more to them, still charred but there is tissue. I gag in my mask and Katniss runs between the remains of two buildings to throw up. When she resurfaces I look at her and she wipes her mouth on her sleeve. We follow our old race route. I really wish we didn't. Everything is grey, everything is dead. We get to where I last held Ryen. He's still here decomposing and I feel like running away.

"I have to get outta here" I start to hyperventilate. I feel tears spring and I am fighting not to run and throw up like Katniss has. I feel very overcome.

"Ariana!" I hear Gale panicked because I sink to a knee, "are you okay?!"

I take deep breaths then raise my shaky communicator, "Ryen is still here" I say, "I…I can't Gale, I can't!"

"Yes you can" he says firmly, "you can, he'd want you too, make sure Katniss is done, I promise when we get back we will talk okay"

We don't get to. Katniss retrieves a feral cat and some of her property from the pristine victor's home she owned. Then we retrieve some items from Abernathy's and Peeta's. Thankfully at least from my perspective we do not go to the market quarter. I think if I saw the bakery so soon I would completely loose it and end up with a bracelet that matches Everdeen's.

I still remember our conversation on the way here. She had wanted to know everything, and not from Gale. No she wanted me to tell her, I don't know why. Abernathy looked at me as well. I explained that when the power went out Buck and I had checked the fence then all the pieces fell into place. Gale and I headed for the Seam just as the first bombs went off. We got as many people out as we could, women, children and men we didn't care. We just knew if we didn't we'd have no one from Twelve left. I had gone back in when Ryen and Buck didn't show.

Apparently about three minutes later market citizens were showing up. Buck had warned everyone and some believed him some didn't from hearsay. Ryen had gone for the mayor but I found him shot and dying. When he passed I raced to the bakery only to find it obliterated.

Abernathy covers his face. Our innocent friend, the one he left for capitol fodder has lost his whole family whereas the stubborn girl has her family and Gale and so many people following her. She has everything! Instead of feeling upset I start to feel my blood boil. I had shut up not long after, Gale gave me a forgiving look as he held Katniss as she had started crying. Probably due to the fact that I had said everything very calloused. I didn't even acknowledge Abernathy of Everdeen after that.

They don't deserve it, not from me, not when they escaped, of all the people the innocent and brave got captured and the cowards and weak get pampered.

It feels so like Capitol reasoning it carries the stench of Plutarch.

We get back and Gale's comunicuff goes off at the same time as mine. I am to go see Ziggy and he is to report to his duties as a commander. We don't even have time to kiss bye to each other because there are people bustling us away.

I miss old Thirteen. I miss Twelve. I miss Peet. I miss Gale.

Ziggy has a smile plastering her face, "Finally!" she tosses off her headphones, "we have communication with Eight but Paylor is still being a hard patron" Boggs is there and he's pacing.

"What's with Boggs?" I ask

"Paylor told him he could be President she still wouldn't trust him until you said he was trustworthy" Ziggy smirks

I put on a headset.

"The songbird is here Vivian" I say with a smirk

"What the hell have you been up to?! As soon as I got a position of leadership I wanted to let ya know kid" I can feel her smile, though she sounds weary

"Rough over there?" I ask

"You have no idea, who is this Boggs? And Watts?" she asks, "honest I don't trust their voices, and I'm following my instincts"

"They are alright Viv, I don't think your soldiers will follow anyone but you and if you tell them to only follow your order they will" I smirk, "we're all working together, have you been in contact with other districts?"

"Like I have time!" she laughs, "no nothing on my end" I hear gunfire

"Viv!" I cry out

"S'ok I'm still here but I gotta go kid!" she sounds rushed, "look tell that Boggs guy I'm willing to help out but I need a hand too! Out!" and the line goes dead

"Well you have Paylor now" I toss my headset off, I can feel my pulse quicken, "don't let me down Boggs, please Vivian is a good person you won't find a truer person out there"

"Apart from present company of course" Boggs smirks nods and leaves

"Gone to report to Coin I am sure" Ziggy sighs, she sees I'm worried I'm biting my nails, "Beetee has been helping me out, he's a great colleague" she says

"Yeah" I say non committable, "everyone has a partner in crime but me right now"

"Well at the least Coin might let up on you giving me the access codes, by the way no pressure you learned damned fast how to encrypt even Beetee is impressed" she smiles looking at me with her magnifying glasses on, making her eyes even more large, "still refusing to help Plutarch?"

"What do you think?" I snap she raises her hands defensively

"Easy kiddo, not your target" she smirks, "you're wound tighter than a compression coil, what's gotten you this angry so quickly"

"Three names, Heavensbee, Everdeen and Abernathy" I raise fingers in succession

"Ah 'nuff said" she nods, "come on let's get lunch I'm starved"