Haya pips!
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Well… let me quote 30 seconds to mars – and I am finally freeeeeeeeeee!
I have a vacation, and that means… more chapters! Though I'm in a summer camp till Friday :)
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Well… hope U'll like it :)
Chapter 7- planning
As the bell rand, I sprinted to take my things from the wardrobes and ran to my car with my gym cloths – disgusting! I swear it wasn't new – who knows, maybe I wore them at the last time I was here. Even more disgusting!
I locked the door and pushed the accelerator – almost running over someone from my History class – and drove to my house.
Maybe I should give up, I thought to myself, trying the hardest not to whimper. Maybe I should get out of this town as fast as I can, and disappear – in any case no one would miss me – no one does.
"What would I do?" I closed my eyes as I got in the driveway, contemplating what to do.
I can pack my bags, and say that I'm going to Spain to live with my 'mother'. Well, it won't be a lie – I thought. I really am going to live just with Isabella Swan. Yep –living with myself, just like I did in the past 30 years.
I had no one.
The first sob came without any permission – or warning. But as soon as it did… I collapsed. I ran – not caring if someone would see me – to my house, and sat on the floor right behind the door, screaming and graving.
Graving for what I was.
What I had.
Those that were mine.
And… what I never had.
Edward.
For years – many, many year, I hadn't said his name. I didn't mention him to anyone except from Laurent, and since that month – his name didn't come out from my mouth.
"I can't. I just can't." after a while, I heard myself whimpering. "I can't leave him. I can't be without him anymore." And it was true – I could not live without him anymore. As a vampire - as one that has those strong senses and feelings - in my entire new life, I hadn't seen him once.
But after I saw him, smelled his delicious sent and talked to him… saw his reddish hair, pink lips, those topaz eyes…
I can't leave him.
I can't be without him anymore.
There is no chance I would survive this time.
"But he doesn't love me." I sounded like an annoyed child. "He never did."
I felt my forehead crash with thoughts. Three million plans came up in my head, one after the other.
I can't go away, but I can't act normal.
I need to get in that family.
But… how?
Who should I use for that propose?
Use – I cringed at that word. It didn't sound right.
And – what would I do when I'm in?
Discover my identity.
Tell them that I was a vampire.
No – it's too easy.
That's not revenge – it's a gift - another vampire. Another friend. They'd think that they have a new friend, who knows – maybe even a new member in the family. But in my –
Wait a minute!
A member of the family…
That's it!
I had the perfect revenge in my head.
They're going to regret, I told myself, trying to gather some mental strength to lift myself off the floor. They're going to regret for what they've done to my poor heart.
I'm sorry it's so short, but I'll be back soon with another chapter :)
L U
Shira :)