Author's Note: Almost back to normal with a computer to use at home...'bout damn time...

anyway seems our heroine has gone thru the wringer so to speak, but at least she's getting some help now right?

not long now dear readers...5 chapters to go...

Chapter 95

Admit

Gale sits with all of us waiting for Coin. With the Capitol in our possession and Snow awaiting execution the final straw is to decide what to do now.

Coin had called a meeting with us all and I feel uneasy even with all the allies I have. She had tried her idea on me first and that didn't end well, I wonder what this can be about now.

Coin comes in with a sick smile on her face, "I thought I had only asked for victors to be here" she comments seeing Maverick and Gale.

"Maverick is as good as a victor" I reply.

"And Hawthorne?"

"Moral support" Gale says then takes my hand in his.

Coin clears her throat, "well I discussed with most of district Thirteen and we decided we should leave this to those victors still in the Capitol."

"Leave what exactly?" Haymitch asks.

"If we have the games, only not from the districts, we would reap only Capital children" Coin replies.

I would exclaim but my mouth has run dry, no she didn't change her mind.

"You're joking right?" Peeta asks.

"Not in the slightest" Coin says.

I regain my voice, "no one learns do they" I say, "no we shouldn't, not now not ever, I told you that weeks ago!" it doesn't seem to faze them.

Maverick nods, "we should show we are better and be the better people, I vote no."

"Yes" Katniss says, "I can't let them get away with what they did to us."

"Katniss" I sigh, "don't you see? It will just make people want to continue the slaughter!"

"So Seneca died for nothing?"

"He didn't die for nothing! He saved you and Peeta!"

"I vote yes" Enobaria says, "let them have a taste of their own medicine."

Finnick shakes his head, "no, we shouldn't be doing this."

Annie holds his hand, "I vote no, it's not right."

Johanna shakes her head, "sorry guys but I think we should"

Haymitch looks at us, "I'm with the mockingjay"

We are tied and Peeta has yet to vote, Beetee had waived his right to attend. He wanted to do something more than sit and talk.

"Why does Maverick get to vote" Enobaria asks

I shoot her a glare, "excuse me but he survived, it makes him a victor by default."

"Coin! What say you?" Enobaria asks

Coin looks at the shark toothed maniac then me and her face breaks into a nasty grin, "only victors get a vote."

"I vote no" Peeta says, "and I think Maverick should have a vote"

"If that's true then we won't have a games" Coin has a hint of disappointment in her voice

"If we don't count him we are tied" I reply, "what would you do then?"

"Side with our mockingjay of course!" Coin smiles, it doesn't look right on her face.

I look at Katniss, "please Everdeen think about what this means, what if a kid twelve years old gets picked, imagine being that child's parent or older sibling like you were to Prim" I plead, "it's not right! We don't have the right to force this!"

She looks back at me hurt, I know I shouldn't have used her dead sister as fodder in this argument, "we are having the games."

I get up followed by Gale, "fine then don't learn from history, I just hope you can live with it."

Maverick and I head out. I'm infuriated, Tracker and Tracer should have been there, but they returned to district Five to help pick up the pieces, control the power if need be and get back to relative normal back there. It wasn't destroyed like Twelve, but there were primary riots before it was taken over.

Gale follows us not too far behind. "Ari wait!" he catches up to us, "you can't blame them especially Katniss."

I spin around on him, "what about you Gale" I snap, "side with them?" I immediately regret getting angry and he can tell.

He comes up to me and holds my shoulders, "you know I don't, not after what you told me, how they affected you" he brings me close and hugs me. "We don't have to stay, we can go home if you want."

I shake my head, "I want to see this thru, see the end of Snow."

"Alright after Snow then" Gale nods, I feel Mav take my hand, "see you later" Gale kisses me before letting me go.

Mav leads me away from Gale after. He and I find a small cafe not ravaged by riots or the traps, or ransacked after, the lone barista smiles as we enter, her first of actual patrons I am sure.

"So...home" he says as the waitress gives us sodas.

"What?" I look up

"Where is your home Ari? Back in Five? With me in Two? With Gale in Twelve?" he looks at me and it's not angry or sad, just curious.

"I guess the whole of Panem is my home" I shrug, "I don't know where my roots are, I could even see if my dad had relatives in Three"

He nods, "mind clueing me in? I mean after we see Snow killed where are you heading?"

I pause mid sip, "I...guess I never thought of...well y'know"

He shakes his head, "no I don't" he laughs

I sigh, "Ididn'tthinkIwouldlivepastthis" I garble out

His mouth drops open slightly, apparently catching the whole phrase, "Ari..."

I look down at my hands, I feel tears well up, "Dr. Aurelius and I talk about this, making decisions, he wants me to be honest," my hands tremble from nerves, "I'm gunshy now, I mean decisions I made cost lives and now the simplest thing, nothing decisions…" I sigh revealing that I really am having trouble, making a simple decision is hard and I finally spit out, "I don't want to choose Mav! I want you both!" I cover my face soon after from shock and embarrassment.

I feel him pull my hands down as tears streak my face, "my brave little sister" he chuckles, "you don't have to choose twerp, I'm not going to resent you if you choose to live with Gale or go back to district Five" he touches my face and gets me to look at him, "I just wanted to know your plans, and since you have branches reaching everywhere I was concerned you wouldn't know where to go after," he pauses and chuckles again "I guess I was right"

"Gale wants me to go back to Twelve with him I think" I say to him.

"How do you feel about that?" he asks and I shrug

"Would mean I would be close to my little brother" I say which he knows means Peeta, "but then I have to contend with Haymitch."

Maverick chuckles, "why don't you guys just move to Five? Or Two? Mom and dad would love to have you stay with them, or if you go to Five you grew up there and you turned out decent."

"Maybe I'll know when Snow is dead" I say to him stirring my drink with my straw.

"Okay" he pats my hand.

"Mav, did you know about the fountain?" I look at him as he drinks his soda.

"Beetee told me about it, its kinda chilling to see your name among the dead" he looks at me, "guess it would give all of us closure, knowing at least someone was showing they woudn't forget who fell in the games."

I nod, "Paylor is finding a way to move it, so everyone can see it" I look at my drink, "she showed it to me yesterday, I felt better seeing it, like at least someone wanted to remember."

Mav nods, "I'll be glad though, seeing Snow die. That will really be closure for all of us, especially those who were really worked over by him and his men, like you and Finn."

I don't reply, because in my head I really hope someone kills both Coin and Snow.