AkuRoku Month Part IV
The Little Things
It didn't start out this way. I had been terrified at the start, sure, but Axel was there for me. He led me around like a lost child and showed me things I could never had dreamed. He taught me to fight. Taught me to run. Taught me how to have exact change for a sea-salt ice cream unless I wanted to stand there for thirty minutes waiting for my money.
Axel has told me his secrets, his lies, and hinted more than once at something even deeper inside himself. I have an idea of what that is, but I'm just too frightened to find out. I mean...what would we do about it? Just since having one innocent (fifteen, actually) dream about him he's noticed I've been a bit off. So I accidentally summoned an umbrella instead of my Keyblade – it could happen to anyone! Axel had even told me, after saving my ass that day of course, that he had once himself summoned pizza into his hands. He'd had no idea where it had come from, but that apparently didn't stop him from swiftly eating it later.
Axel's always been telling me things like that. Just little tidbits about his life here in the Organization. We've spent hours at a time just talking about all the crazy shit he gets up to – how he's messed up several of Vexen's experiments by strolling along and casually dipping a finger into a pot of water to make it boil instantly. He told me about the time that he and Demyx had crouched behind a sleeping Xaldin and tied all his hair braids together. He even told me that one day he had gotten his hands on a Turkey Call and had gone into every part of the castle clicking it until Saix snapped and went Berserk. Axel had gotten into trouble for that one, but he told me that Xemnas seemed to get a small kick out of it.
Recently though, Axel told me he was gay. Now, I'd never heard of the word before I started working here, but he says it means he likes guys. It really explained all of Larxene's failed attempts at wooing him, but I still didn't understand why he told me this. Well, I do now. It kind of just slammed into me a few moments ago really. Axel is gay. I have been having gay dreams about Axel. I apparently moan so loud in my sleep from said gay dreams that others can hear me outside my room.
Oh. Oh. I get it now. So Axel and I are both gay, we spend our time together every chance we get, and – oh. Those lingering touches near my ass just made sense. The pervert! Doesn't he know I'm...okay, I don't even know how old I am, but that's not the point! This can't be happening – don't I have enough shit on my plate as it is?
I need to tell him.
"Why did the Keyblade choose me? I have to know" Because you never told me.
"You can't turn your back on the Organization!" I don't hear him anymore. Let him talk all he wants and try to convince me to stay. It's worthless. There's nothing here for me. Just questions and lies. I just have to keep walking. Don't listen to anything he says, he doesn't really care anyway... If only you had told me less about yourself, and more about everything else Axel. Maybe if you had bothered to help me find an answer to my own existence, I wouldn't be leaving now.
Goodbye. Let's meet again, one day.
A/N: I hope you all enjoyed the sad conclusion to Axel and Roxas, my AkuRoku Month Special. You all be safe.