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Behind Locked Doors
Chapter Five Fifth Entrance
Dear nobody,
It has been a long time now since I last got a letter and Edward has still yet to visit me. He must be busy with other things. I hope he will come soon.
I wonder why no one else bothers to visit me; maybe Rosalie has told everyone about my frightening eyes? Maybe she tells everyone that I am mad. I do not know. I know that I did have friends once. Before this hell whole became my reality. I guess they no longer are my friends. It is sad to think about. I lost all of my friends. I miss them.
I got another treatment yesterday – I'm numb nowadays to the pain, I just don't feel it that much anymore. After all there are things that hurt more. I still scream though, I always scream just like all the others here.
Alice actually got a visitor last Saturday, at first when the caretaker opened the door to our room I thought someone was here for me. I was hoping that it would be Edward and I nearly smiled, and then the caretaker told Alice that she had a visitor. I did feel happy for her though that she finally got a visitor; I was just sad that I wasn't. I hope he comes soon. I am longing to seeing his face.
The thing is when Alice got back to our room she looked almost scared and she was all pale and refused to meet my eyes. I wondered who the visitor had been. I know nothing about her family or if she has any friends out there. She only told me that her mother and father sent her here. I won't ask though, I figure that if she wants to tell me she will.
Alice isn't my first roommate here though; there was a girl before her. She was here when I came to this dreadful place and we didn't really talk much. Her name was Anna and she was sixteen. One day though she just wasn't in our room anymore and when I asked a caretaker she told me that Anna wouldn't come back. I hoped they had released her but later on I found out that she had died. I was very sad to hear that but I stopped asking about Anna after that. I don't know for how long it was just me alone in the room but then along came Alice and it did feel nice to not be alone anymore. I never expected us to become friends though.
I'm trying really hard to remember my parents but my memory of them is fading away. I no longer remember my mom's voice for example and it saddens me. The thing is that when something unexpected happens to those you love you never do get the chance to say goodbye; I never got to say goodbye to my parents and it hurts. I didn't cry at the funeral but after I cried so much that my entire body was hurting. Pain was all I felt. Then I was taken and placed in an orphanage and I never really got out of there until I married. The day I met Edward I instantly fell in love with him. I was almost sixteen then and he was eighteen and we were so much in love. I smiled every night back then when I went to sleep. I rarely smile these days.