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Behind Locked Doors

Chapter Six Sixth Entrance

Dear nobody,

Today I had a visitor and as I am writing this I am smiling. I saw him today and even though those visits we get never last long I really cherish all the time I get with him.

I was taken to that room again with the table and the two chairs and as I waited for my visitor to appear I really was hoping that it would be Edward. I think that if it had been Rosalie I would have been really upset because I really, really don't want to see her. I just know though that she is going to be in that room with me again, sooner or later.

Edward smiled at me as he walked into the room and sat down.

"Hello, Bella," he said. How are you today?"

I blushed and then I was completely honest.

"I'm good. Now," I said looking down at the table.

"I'm glad to hear that," he said and then just like he had done last time he took my hands in his.

I felt my heart pound in my chest.

"You know, Bella," he said. "I know that this is so wrong for me to say, as a married man I shouldn't show affection towards any woman other than my wife. I still feel the need to tell you that you have been in my thoughts though. You and I have never been anything less than honest with each other and I do not wish to start to keep things from you."

My mouth suddenly felt dry. I did not know what to say.

"Bella the day that you and I became husband and wife was the best day in my life. I need for you to know that."

"Mine too," I whispered quietly looking into his eyes now.

"I promised to take care of you and I broke that promise," Edward said quietly.

I blinked. I did not want to cry. I would let my tears fall freely down my cheeks later when I was back in my room.

"Edward," I said softly. "It's not your fault. You know who's to blame for things being like the way they are now."

"Oh Bella, you think too highly of me. I should have done things…different. I am not saying that Rosalie is not a good wife to me because she is but… She is not you."

I bit my lip and I really did try to come up with something to say.

"I mustn't say things like that to you, I am sorry. Please forgive me," Edward said ashamed.

I wanted to stand up and walk around the table and put my arms around his neck and tell him that he indeed could tell me such things. I didn't mind. I wanted him to hold me and I wanted to tell him everything that I wanted him to know. How much I love him still and that I always will.

"Edward…," I started to say but then a caretaker interrupted me.

"Miss Swan it is time for you to get back to your room."

I wanted to hit that caretaker. I wanted more time with Edward.

I nodded and stood up and Edward bent over the table and just like he had done last time he kissed my cheek.

"Goodbye my Bella," he said and I swallowed hard, I was about to cry. "I will see you soon." Then he was gone.

Alice wasn't in our room when I got back but I did not worry; she was probably just having a treatment or something.

My Dearest Bella,

I am deeply sorry for how I behaved last time I saw you. It was wrong of me to be so forward. Then again what I think and feel is also wrong of me. It is so much easier for me to write this then to say it straight to you. I should however not write what I am about to write to you; it is very wrong of me to do so.

Bella, I am ashamed over myself and my family. If I only could go back in time and do things differently. I would fight for you this time and I would keep my promise to you and do everything that I could do for you to be happy. However I cannot change what once have been. I wish I could though, if you only knew how much.

There are so many things I am sorry for; I am sorry that I let you go, that I let us go and I am sorry that I didn't were a better man for you. I am also sorry that I never really let you know how much you meant to me. I loved you from the second that I laid my eyes on you Bella, and that is the honest truth. I really shouldn't be writing this; it is by far very inappropriate.

I think of you more than I should. I should not think about you. I can't seem to stop though. I wish I would see you smile again. I love your smile; when you're smiling your eyes are smiling too and you look so beautiful then. You always look beautiful but I'm sure that you know that.

I must now go. This letter is a bit too long.

If you wish to write me back then you cannot write to my house – you must send the letter to where I now work. I will write down the address for you at the bottom of this letter.

Edward

Dear Edward,

You have nothing to be sorry for. I wish for you to speak as freely as you would like when you and I see each other. There is not a thing that you cannot tell me, Edward and you must know that. I am sorry that our meetings are so short and that we never really can speak without having others around us.

I wonder for how long I am going to be here. I want out. Of course I want to get out of here, but then again what will I come out to? I am sorry but I would not be able to see you with Rosalie. If I ever do get out that is. If you were my husband then you would have been able to get me released I think. But then again if you still were my husband then I probably wouldn't have been here to begin with. It doesn't matter, married or not I am never to be a Swan again. However I am not sure that I could call myself a Cullen either, after all Rosalie is your wife and she has your last name. I guess I am just Isabella Marie No Last Name now or simply just Bella. I think I'd prefer the latter in that case.

Be safe. I'll hope to see you soon.

Bella