A:/N I have decided to post another chapter. I know its a bit short but I decided to post it anyway.
I do not own Twilight.
Behind Locked Doors
Chapter Nine Ninth Entrance
Dear nobody,
I have still not heard anything from Edward. I cry much more these days and yesterday I was very close of grabbing my pencil and to try to inflict some pain on myself. I cannot stand this.
Alice hasn't said anything to me after she came back. Not even hello. I tried to speak to her but when she completely ignored me I gave up my attempts of trying. I wonder what happened to her while she was away. I am as always, not going to ask though. I just wished she would talk to me.
I have no idea what I should write now. Every part of my body hurts. My brain hurts from all the thinking I have done. Why isn't Edward contacting me? I guess I could write him another letter but it probably won't matter. I don't even know what I should write if I did wrote him one. I just don't know what to do. I feel so alone.
I am crying now and the tears are dripping down on the page. I do not care. I don't care if the whole page is ruined. I must put my pencil down now however because now I am sobbing and soon I'm going to be shaking uncontrollably. Oh god it hurts so much…
It is now hours later and I am really, really tired so this is going to be short. I cried myself to sleep; there isn't much to do here and when I sleep my body doesn't hurt. I woke up when I felt someone touching me.
"Bella," Alice said and when I opened my eyes I saw her sitting on the edge of my bed. Her nose was red and it looked like she had been crying. "I…I saw something."
"Alice," I mumbled opening my eyes. "What do you mean?"
"Oh Bella," Alice whispered and covered her face with her hands. "I am so sorry…"
Then she stood up and walked over to her bed to lie down. She never told me why she was sorry. I still do not know. I wonder though what she could have done that she had to be sorry for. I hope she is okay.