A/N: I finished writing chapter 15. Also since English isn't my first language I am aware of the fact that my grammar and spelling may not be that good. By the way this note is very sloppy written, I am too tired to think. Without further ado I give you my next chapter of Behind Locked Doors. Hope you like it.
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Behind Locked Doors
Chapter Fifteen Fifteenth Entrance
Dear nobody,
I need to end this pain. It hurts too much. But how can I possibly end it all? I will never again see him. I will never again see the face of the man I love.
I cry during the days now and I cry during the night. I cry all the time. It just hurts so much. I asked him to not come anymore but even though I practically begged him to not visit me anymore I was still hoping he would. I want to see him. I wish to see him so badly. Yesterday I got a letter from him and I was reluctant to read it first but then I did read it and afterwards I felt even worse than before.
My Dearest Bella,
It saddens me when I think about that I never will see you again. I however felt the need to write to you; there are things that I need for you to know.
I did not want to marry Rosalie – you must know that, Bella. I never intended to become her husband nor did I want to. You see when my father finally told me that he had sent you away he also said that it was for my best interest to marry Rosalie Hale. I told him of course that you were my wife and he just laughed at that. You might wonder how I did end up marry Rosalie even though I clearly refused to. It is about you, Bella. I know how this must sound to you but I honestly did marry her for your sake. My father threatened me you see, saying that unless I married Rosalie you would end up getting hurt. If I cooperated he told me, you would be safe. I foolishly believed him – all I thought about was your safety. Alas I was indeed black mailed into marrying my wife.
I do not have any expectations of you writing back to me. You made it clear that you want no contact with me and I have to respect that. However I send you this letter because you should know why I am now a married man.
I wish you the best in life. I know that you believe that you will never leave the asylum however I think some day you will be a free woman.
Love always,
Edward
No matter how much I want to write him back I can't.
The fact that Edward was black mailed into marrying that woman angers me. Also the thought that Edward could have done something to prevent me from ending up here… We could have run away from it all – yet he chose to stay here. He should have done something; anything. He is no dimwit; surely he knew his father would have something up his sleeve. I don't know. I may be writing complete nonsense however I am not only sad right now as I am writing this; I am also angry and upset. I must not think about this anymore since this only gives me grieve.
As soon as I finish writing this I am going to pray; I will pray to God for him to end this. All I want is for this nightmare to end. Please God help me get out of this place. Please God help me end this. I wish to be happy again. I still believe that death is my salvation.