A/N: I know it has been a very long time now since I last updated. I am suffering from a writer's block, I know where my story is going the problem is how to get there. I managed to finish chapter eighteen though, I hope you like it.

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Behind Locked Doors

Chapter Eighteen Eighteenth Entrance

Dear nobody,

Another letter came today. It was from him.

My Dearest Bella,

I know that I am not supposed to contact you. I know that I by writing you this letter am disrespecting your will. However I must tell you something as I wish for you to hear it from me and not from anybody else.

A child is a blessing and as I am to become a father I should indeed be happy. I am not though. I could never hate my child and I could never leave my son or daughter. It is with a heavy heart that I must tell you that Rosalie is expecting my child. I want you to know something though Bella, I have not slept in the same bed as Rosalie for a very long time. This angers her of course but what can she do about it?

I love you. Please know that…

I never finished reading that letter. I tore it apart as Alice gave me a very concerned look. I do not care that he is not happy that he is going to be a father – he should not have written me at all. Does he not see he is hurting me? He must be aware of that. I did write him back though even though I really should have not done that.

Edward,

Stop sending me letters. You are hurting me; how can you not be aware of that?

I suppose I should congratulate you. Congratulations.

Please respect my wish and stop trying to contact me. If you truly love me please leave me alone.

Bella

Why did he tell me about his sleeping arrangements? That was totally unnecessary for him to do. I do not wish to know things like that. However it does please me a bit that they are not sharing the same bed. Okay it pleases me a lot but still, the fact that I know about it does not change anything. Edward is never going to leave her now that she is pregnant with his child. I feel like I am slowly dying inside.

God how I miss that man, it is hard for me to accept that he will never be mine again. Hope died when Rosalie told me that she is expecting. I will never have Edward – Rosalie has won.

I just want to die. Please God grant me my wish.

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