Hey everyone .

To say i have been overwhelmed by the amount of reviews and followers this story had gained since I posted is truly the worlds biggest understatement. I swear down i've never cried , laughed and shouted horray more times in my life. I'm a huge fan of these books and have always loved the idea of writing something to do with them , however I never saw myself actually writing something to then publish it.

I just want to use this space to say thank you to a few people ;

Lisalilac – thank you for being my first ever reviewer J

jcp77 – Your review really helped and I just want to thank you for taking the time to comment. Your right my Ana is a little more feisty , when I was reading the books I wanted her to fight back a bit more so I thought I'd bring that into this , also she's pregnant and when my one of my friends was pregnant her emotions were all over the place causing her to cry and shout all at the same time. In regards to Jack I've kinda moved him out the way for the moment and decided on a different path for Ana and Christian's drama filled lives hehe. Thanks again for reviewing J

ArellaWhite – Yes she does pass out a fair bit its true hehe I'll keep it in mind to keep her up on her feet a bit more J

Thank you again to all of you . I'm currently working on chapter 6 (which is a Christian point of view) and am planning on uploading by Tuesday at the latest. This chapter is a bit short but its just a fill up to get the ball rolling.

Alexandra x

For the second time that day I wake up and I'm in bed , but it's a bed I don't recognise , the room is to clean and it feels mechanical and shiny. Then I spot the machine hooked up to me and reality hits. I'm in hospital. The first thing I think is that I've lost blip but looking down at my bump and feeling a reassuring little kick I relax knowing blip is still with me. So why am I in hospital?

I search the room and take in the light pink curtains and white walls, there is an empty arm chair next to my bed and the sun hits the leather making the light hit my eyes, I shield them and turn my head towards the beige wood door, it's closed. I search my brain for my last memory and everything tumbles back , the note , arguing with Christian, Ray holding me while I cry , realising that Christian will be around an ex sub , an ex sub who he has a daughter with.

It's too much, I've remembered too much! And the pain in my head has returned and it's agonising. I scream out but no one comes to help me, why am I alone! Where's my husband! And then I remember the last bit of my puzzle. I've left him, I'm alone. I sob for what seems like hours before my body gives into exhaustion and I pass out again.

When I wake I'm still exhausted, the sun has long since gone and has now been replaced by a large full moon, its light floods my small hospital room and shines on the man sat next to me. I gasp when I see him, he's asleep but I know the second he hears me move he'll wake up, even in his sleep he is always alert. Keeping my breathing still and silent I survey his handsome profile, the sharp line of his jaw perfectly highlighting the soft smooth lips which I've kissed so many times, his eyes now closed but still so perfect against his skin with their large thick lashes, that hair which makes me groan with desire when I get to run my fingers through it. He's breath taking, he's mine, but he's got a daughter with another woman, a woman who can give him the dark pleasures which make him who he is, he can be the man he is with her but with me he has to be kind and appreciative, even in the playroom he is constantly on edge knowing I can only take so much. Esmee isn't like me, she will let him punish her, and she will obey him and let him dominate her fully.

My tears catch and I yelp slightly , his eyes open immediately and lock on mine , his hand reaching for my face "Oh thank god your awake" I try to pull away but he stops me and leans up to kiss me , a deep needing kiss , like he's worried he'll never be able to kiss me again.

"Christian I..." He silences me with another kiss, resting his forehead against mine as he breaks away "I know baby and I'm sorry. I won't meet her. I choose you over her Ana. I can't live without you so if you don't want to me to meet her than I won't. Please just come home" looking into his eyes breaks me and I feel my tears start to fall again , god you'd think I was all cried out but obviously not as I am once again choking on my own tears.

"No Christian I can't make you do that. She's your daughter, and she's innocent in all of this, she deserves to know who her father is. No one should have to grow up without their dad" his eyes widen as he realises I'm talking from my own experience "trust me on that one Christian. I would never ever stop a girl meeting her father. No matter how much it breaks my heart to know she's yours" my voice cracks as tears flow from my eyes , my hands resting on little blip.

I sit up gently and buzz for the nurse, Christian's eyes never leave me as I move but I refrain from looking at him, the pain in my heart is still too strong to look into those eyes for too long , a petite young nurse with bright red hair wanders into my room and I ask her to check if I'm able to go home , she checks my chart and goes to collect the doctor , I feel Christian's eyes burning onto my skin , god I want to look at him so bad but I can't , I want to stay strong and his eyes make me weak .

"Ana please" I keep my eyes locked on my bump , gently caressing blip who gives me a supportive little kick , I giggle softly and stroke my bump again and feel blip kick once more.

"Hmm maybe you'll grow up to be a football player with that kick little Blip" Christian's gasp knocks me back to reality and within seconds his hand is on my bump and his smile is breathtaking , his lips gently kissing the spots of my belly where little blip kicks.

"Hello little blip , this is your daddy speaking , can you hear me?" Blip kicks in response and tears once again fill my eyes. Christian looks up and I can't help but meet his deep grey eyes , my throat catches as he smiles , a deep apologetic forgive me smile "I think little blip wants to hear their mummy's voice as well Ana" his hand reaches for mine and he gently kisses it , a spike of pleasure mixed with deep love hits me and I launch myself into his arms , luckily he has amazing reflexes and his arms wrap around me tight , his breath is warm on my skin as he kisses my neck , cheek , eyes , anywhere and everywhere he can reach "Oh Ana , my Ana , I'm so sorry. Please I beg you my one and only love come home. I'm nothing without you Anastasia Grey. You are my life" I cut off his plea with a passionate kiss , smiling as I feel his body tense in surprise before relaxing dramatically , his arms tighten around me and he kisses back with intensity.

He cradles and kisses me for what seems like a lifetime and soon my head is rested against his chest as we both stare down at Little Blip. Christians soft voice breaks our comfortable silence "Does this mean you're coming home" I look up into those eyes and know I could never really stay away from him , no matter how angry or upset I am I will always end up back in his arms . Because I love him, and he loves me. I nod softly and kiss him.

"Yes Mr Grey, I'm coming back home. I've only been gone what 4 hours" I giggle softly trying to cheer him up but he stays anxious and upset.

"They were the worst 4 hours of my life" I crumble inside, Damm it how did I think he'd find it funny me leaving like that, I know him better than that.

"I'm sorry Christian, I was scared and confused. It's a lot for me to take in this ... stuff" thankfully he smiles down at me and plants a soft reassuring kiss on my lips.

"I told you we'll get through this. I will not lose you. Not for anyone" Not even for my own daughter, the words are unspoken but his eyes tell me the truth. He'd pick me and blip. And it is in that moment that I make the biggest decision of my life

"Call her" Christian looks taken aback.

"What?" I kiss him again and smile softly.

"Call Esmee, make a meeting. I want to meet Victoria" he eyes me suspiciously, panicked if I'm playing some sort of game, I smile trying to reassure him "I'm sure Christian" I answer his unspoken question, seems I can read his mind a little as well, his eyes close briefly and when they open they are warm and full of love.

"Mrs Grey I love you so much" And once again we're kissing like teenagers.