Hey everyone J

I'm really sorry that I haven't uploaded recently but I had a bit of a crisis with my university accommodation for next year , thankfully everything's sorted now . Thank god cus that was sooo much drama hehe

I have just finished chapter 8 but I may change it before uploading as I am just not sure what direction I want to take with this . So please if you have ideas , let me know as I'd love to know what you all think.

I just want to send a huge thank you to every single reader , follower and favourite. You are all stars to me really :D I cannot tell you how excited I get when I get an email saying I have a new follower, let's just say I shrike with joy hehe

Anyway please let me know what you think of Christian's point of view J

Lots of love Alexandra xx

Christians POV

I cradle Ana in my arms as I carry her carefully through to our bedroom, her eyes gently closing as she starts to drift off, giving me a chance to appreciate my beautiful wife. Watching the standoff between Ana and Esmee was interesting to say the least, I love watching Ana get all jealous over other women, as long as she remembers I only have eyes for her. I lean into kiss her forehead and leave her to sleep, wandering out the bedroom and back towards the formal living room, hoping I can catch Esmee before she leaves.

"Esmee, can we have a word please" I call out just as Esmee is pulling Victoria towards the front door. She stops and stares at me and I can see her reverting back to her submissive days and it makes me smile. How long it's been since I had the opportunity to be a complete dominate, not that I need that life anymore, I've got Ana who is more than enough for me, but sometimes it feels good to remember what I once had.

"Yes of course Mr Grey" She nods softly and turns to her daughter "Tori go wait with Mr Taylor at the car, I'll be there in a moment" Victoria just shrugs and gives me a nonchalant wave before wandering out the door, her feet dragging as she walks, I resist the urge to shout at her for not picking her feet up and instead nod for Esmee to follow me through to my office, ignoring Taylor's confused expression. I enter the office and sit in my chair, nodding for her to sit down on the dark brown leather sofa to the side of my office.

"Esmeralda we have a lot we have to talk about. Victoria being is of course my main concern but I am also concerned with your attitude towards my wife" Esmee's eyes shoot up and she shakes her head.

"Mr Grey if I came across the wrong way to you and Ana then I am truly sorry" I silence her with my hand and she clamps her mouth closed , I can feel my palm twitching and I fight to keep my voice calm.

"Know one thing, before we agree a further meeting between me and Victoria, I've had trouble with my previous subs in my past and my family has been threatened one too many times for me not to take things like this seriously. So let me tell you now, if you are doing all of this to somehow get back into my life then I advise you to stop" I'm fully in my Dom mode and strangely I feel at home , I feel safe , best of all I feel in control.

"Mr Grey, Sir, I promise you all I want is for Tori to know her father. I would never ever try to sabotage your happiness, all I want is for you to be happy Mr Grey, I've always wanted you to be happy" her sea green eyes meet mine and I feel my breath catch involuntarily. Jesus Christian get a hold of yourself, your bloody wife is sleeping in the bedroom for god sake, a wife you're head over heels for. I nod softly and dismiss her with a small wave of my hand; she stands quickly and is out of my office within seconds. Esmeralda was always good at doing as she was told. She showed me that on our first day, and what a day it was.

"Turn around" I command and she does straight away, keeping her head down as I review her appearance. I smile to myself, she fits the profile I asked for perfectly, with her pale skin and brown hair, an added bonus being her mystifying eye, they are a strange mixture of blue and green with the slightest touch of grey, they are beautiful. She's beautiful.

But the sickening thing is her beauty makes me want to hurt her , beat the shit out of her , take away her ability to control even her most natural responses and have her completely under my control. Because she looks like the woman who abandoned me and let me get hurt, let me get abused, and now I have the power to get that control I went so long without. Elena had shown me what it felt like to be controlled and now it was my turn to experience what she had, she had taught me well, you could even say I was a natural Dom. Although there was a part of me which still felt uneasy, unsure of how far I could push this woman, she's consented and our contract is signed and sealed for the next three months and yet I still worry my anger we'll be too much for her. I stop and make myself remember Elena's clear instructions when she sent me Esmee, the beautiful young brunette stood in front of me right now.

"Remember Christian you are her Dom, you have the control and she does as you say. Don't take no for an answer. Esmee wants to be there, and she knows what she's getting into, so whatever you do don't go easy on her. Ever"

I smile as I remember mine and Elena's time together, she really has helped me, made me a better person. I was so messed up, so hurt and full of rage and had no outlet for it. Now I have a way and it suits me perfectly. If only her stupid husband hadn't caught us, we were perfect the way we were until he came home early and ruined everything, my fist still aches from the blow I threw at his thick skull. Elena has still kept in touch though, thank god as I have no idea how to acquire a submissive my own, and she was the person who advised me to try taking on a dominant role instead of the submissive one, even offering to help me write up a contract of rules and regulations for the subs ensuring everything runs smoothly, which means I can spend all my time starting my business ideas while she works out the paper work. We're a great team.

"Mr Grey?" The brunette's voice snaps me out of my daydream and I jump slightly. She's looking up at me hesitantly, her sea green eyes clouded with a mixture of concern and uncertainty. I step towards her and narrow my eyes.

"I didn't tell you to speak" her eyes widen instantly before shooting to the floor once more.

"I'm sorry Sir, you were quiet for so long, I wondered what was wrong" Damm it! How long had I been thinking about Elena then? Long enough to realise Esmee was still in the room it would seem.

"I still didn't tell you to speak. You know what this means Esmeralda?" I circle her slowly, revealing in the sense of power which fills.

"Punishment Sir" she whispers

"Louder Esmeralda" I'm standing directly behind her

"I need to be punished Sir" She says in a louder voice. I smile wickedly, Elena was right being in control is much far more fun than being controlled.

"Take those panties off and bend over the bench, if you move you'll be punished more. Do you understand Esmeralda?" she does as I tell her and me circle the beautiful sight, such vulnerability all at the hands of me, how could anyone not live with this feeling?

"Yes" she whispers again as she moves into position swiftly.

"Yes what Esmeralda?" I reach for my thinnest and most sharp edged belt, my favourite of all my items, gently running the expensive leather through my fingers. Moving to stand next to her I run my hand over her bare skin, right where I will hit.

"Yes Sir" The second she replies I let the belt hit her skin. Her scream rings out across my playroom. The sound is like a symphony to my dark soul.

A loud bang wakes me suddenly and I jump in my seat , wiping the sleep from my eyes as I stand , only to notice I'm standing with a huge hard on!

"Fuck!" I sit back down and try to somehow cover it with my other leg, an act made difficult by my suit trousers. Shit what to do now? I can hardly call Taylor in to ask him about the bang, he might have worked for me for 8 years but there are only so many things a man can let another man see. I definitely can't let Ana see this, although she can definitely help in resolving this but first she'll want to know why it's happen and I don't want to think about that, especially when I know the answer is thinking about dominating a woman she's just met.

"Mr Grey?" I hear Taylors voice behind my office door.

"What!" I snap, and instantly regret it, it's not Taylor's fault I'm in this awkward situation.

"Mrs Grey is awake and wondering where you are, should I send her to you?" Shit Ana's awake already? How long have I been asleep? I glance at my wrist watch, shit! I've been out for nearly three hours! Its nearly 10 o clock and Ana hasn't eaten since lunch, she needs to eat.

I spring to my feet and exit my office, missing Taylor by an inch with the door as I open it with a push, as I walk as fast as I can towards the bedroom. Ignoring Taylor's muffled voice as he tries to catch up with me, whatever it is he wants can wait, Ana needs to eat something, she's carrying my child and therefore it is imperative that she needs to eats regularly. I sprint past our open planed kitchen and am just about too bound up the stairs when a voice halts me.

"Christian?" I spin round and my grey eyes lock on her beautiful blue ones

"Ana you need to eat dinner" her eyes drop down a little and its then that I notice she's holding a bowl of some sort of rice dish , I sigh with relief that she's eating , although her eyes are still staring at me but not at my face. I watch Gail walking behind her and stop when she sees me, her eyes darting from Ana to me before mouthing something but I can't understand it, she gives up and points at me. I look down. Fuck I forgot the hard on!

"Ana I can explain , it's not what it looks like I swear" I try to walk towards her but she steps back sharply , her bowl of food falling from her hand and smashing against the marble floor , sending rice and tomato everywhere.

"Your aroused by her" her sweet voice is so soft, so broken. It hits my heart like a spike.

"No Ana I'm not I swear" and I'm telling the truth. Esmee is nothing to me, nothing at all, but that feeling of dominating her, dominating anyone, really dominating them, that's what's caused this. And I hate myself for it.

"Ahhhhhhh!" I watch as she yelps out in pain and clutches her bump, our precious little blip, and falls to her knees in front of me, tears of pure pain filling her eyes. Although I don't know if they have been caused by me or the pain, my fear tells me it's both.

"Ana, what's wrong? What should I do? Tell me?" I've never been this scared, scared that she might be losing blip! Scared that I've caused her this pain because of my stupid messed up life!

"Get me to a hospital! Now!"

Ana's POV

I wake up with a smile and turn over, expecting to find Christian next to me; I sit up when I find the bed empty. Hmm strange, he almost always stays with me when I feel low, even if it means working on his laptop next to me, he never just leaves me. I purse my lips in thought before slipping out of bed and wandering out the bedroom, heading straight for the kitchen. I've been asleep for hours and I'm starving, not just that but Christian may be in the kitchen and I desperately want my husband to hold me in his arms , he has a way of making me feel so safe and looked after , he makes me smile. I hear movement coming from the kitchen and I quicken my pace, although I stop when I see Gail talking with Taylor in hushed tones. What could they be talking about? I clear my throat and they both jump dramatically. Taylor shuffles slightly before composing himself and nodding a greeting at me.

"Mrs Grey" his eyes don't meet mine, its unnerving how uncomfortable he seems.

"Taylor, is Christian around at all?" I slide onto one of our kitchen stools.

"I think he's in his office Mrs Grey, I haven't seen him since Miss Gold left" Oh thank god she's gone, something just doesn't feel right about little Miss Esmee. And what a little brat her daughter is, such a bad attitude. I gently stroke my bump, Blip will be better behaved with me and Christian as parents, I just know it.

"Ana? Can I get you something to eat?" I look up and smile as Gail asks.

"Yes please Gail, have you got any of the risotto you made last night leftover?" She nods happily before turning to the fridge and preparing me a bowl of her delicious sundried tomato and chicken risotto.

"Gail, can I ask you something?" I whisper, looking down at the black granite worktop.

"Of course Ana" she places the bowl into the microwave and hits in for reheat before turning to face me.

"How do you feel that Taylor has a child with another woman, I mean did it bother you when you two became a couple?" I can see her flinch a little. God maybe I'm being to personal, I mean she is staff at the end of the day, no matter how much I treat her as family it is my husband who signs her pay check and asking her about her relationship might be a step too far.

"Yes it did" She takes me by surprise by answering and I look up at her , her kind eyes lock with mine as her lips curl into a small smile "but then I got to know Sophie and I realised I loved Taylor more because he had her" she smiles to herself , she must be thinking of Taylor , it's such a lovely sight. She has a wonderful motherly smile.

"Didn't you ever feel, I dunno, worried that you'd be replaced by Sophie?" once again she smiles, just as the microwave dings its completion.

"No not really. I met Jason when he already had Sophie so she must have thought I was going to take her dad away from her. However over time I've come to see Sophie as my own, she's my family because she's Jason's" I smile my thanks as the steaming bowl of risotto is placed in front of me , taking a huge spoonful as I think over what Mrs Jones has just said.

Could I see Tori as my own child? I'd like to think so, I'd never seen myself as the type to reject people who haven't done anything wrong, but with Tori it's different. Don't ask me why but something just feels off, how do I even know that she belongs to Christian, apart from Esmee's word we have nothing to go on, no DNA proof. How can I accept her if I know absolutely nothing about her or Esmee, it's just too much to take on.

I jump back in shock as Gail accidently drops one of our large pasta serving bowls, causing a loud bang to resonate around the vast open planned kitchen. Instantly I get up to help her clean up, laughing with her as she complains about her butterfingers. We get the kitchen cleared swiftly and I start to walk back to my chair, I'm still clutching my bowl, just as Christian races past our kitchen towards the stairs.

"Christian?" he stops at the sound of my voice and spins around, his eyes wide and anxious. Where the hell has he been all this time?

"Ana you need to eat dinner" I roll my eyes and as I do I notice a bulge just below his hips and I feel my risotto travel back up my throat. Standing in front of me is the man I love with all my heart and soul , but he's got a huge erection and considering I've been asleep for the last 3 hours I highly doubt it's because of me. That only leaves the stunning brunette we had in our formal living room earlier on today, a stunning brunette who use to be his sexual slave. He doesn't seem to notice what I'm staring at but suddenly looks down and his face visibly shifts to embarrassment as he steps towards me.

"Ana I can explain, it's not what it looks like I swear" he steps towards me again and the sight makes me move back shiftily. My bowl falls from my hand and hits the floor with a loud crash as the china smashes and the risotto is sent flying across the floor. Tears are welling up in my eyes as I look at him.

"Your aroused by her" my voice catches and I have to gulp back a sob. My worst fear was him leaving me now that he's seen Esmee after all these years and this , this is just the first horrific step towards my nightmare become a reality.

"No Ana I swear I'm not" his eyes plead for me to believe him but I don't, I don't believe him, I believe he's been thinking about her. A shocking thought hits me, what if she didn't leave when I went to sleep! What if she stayed and they spoke! Have I already lost him to her?

Another sharp pain rockets through my stomach and I cry out, holding onto my stomach as I feel my legs crumble beneath me as I hit the hard marble floor painfully. Tears fill my eyes as I hold onto my bump , screaming in my head that Blip is safe , that I'm not going to lose my precious little baby before I've even met them. Not Blip! I'd rather die than lose my baby.

"Ana, what's wrong? What should I do? Tell me?" he's next to me in seconds, crouching down with blazing eyes full of fear and pain. Good he should feel bad, he's hurt me, he's lusting for Esmee and therefore hurting me. The pain kicks up a notch and I yelp out, clamping my eyes tight as I try to ride it out and beg my voice to work.

"Get me to hospital! Now!"