a/n: umm I do not own any of the twilight characters..

BPOV:

I had to tell him before he had a chance to crush my heart. I wasn't capable of hearing the words uttered from his beautiful mouth so I approached it first. I wasn't surprised when he didn't put up a fight but it still stung, so I just walked away. From everything.

Before we left Vegas Alice had pulled me aside and grilled me on what had happened last night. She knows. I don't know how she knows or how much but she knows the basics. Edward and I got married last night. Except for unlike Alice and Jasper-and Rosalie and Emmett for that matter-we weren't going to stay that way.

She wanted to know how it happened and I just chalked it up to a drunken mistake. She thinks it was fate but I am still pleading vodka-driven insanity. I think I will write that on the annulment papers. She wants me to give it a try but I know it will just end up in heartbreak.

====================== a few months later======================

After walking away from Edward at the airport we have only communicated through our friends and through secretive yet clinical e-mails to get the marriage annulled. Of course Emmett and Rosalie still don't know but Alice blabbed to Jasper so they have been our go-between couple for any questions or document passing. I had found an apartment a little off-campus after the suitemate/vegas debacle.

Tonight I have a date. It's with this guy from my freshmen math class and I don't even like him but I just want to prove to myself that I can move past this. It's funny how by asking for the annulment I thought I was saving myself from so much pain but in reality I still experienced the heartache and the depression that I was trying to avoid. Okay funny probably wasn't the best word.

While I am waiting for him to show up at my door I am staring at the annulment papers which are signed by both Edward and myself. I have had these signed papers on my kitchen table for over a month now but I can't bring myself to send them. I hope Edward isn't secretly engaged to someone because that would be an awkward conversation.

Alice thinks that I still want to make it work with Edward and that he is going through the same heartache as I am. She is right. Well at least she is right about me. I can't say the same about Edward. I highly doubt it though.

There is a knock on the door and I quickly compose myself and plaster on the fakest smile ever and open the door to begin my date. Who should be standing at me door but none other than my husband.

"Edward! What are you doing here?" I whisper shout at him.

"Bella I… Are you going out somewhere?" He questions as he notices my outfit. I wanted something casual but my date said we were eating someplace really fancy so I can't dress like I do when I come to class. Can I just tell you how excited I was for this date. Alice refused to help me because she said I was denying fate.

"I uh…Well I had..I have a date." I stammer out.

His eyes drop to his shoes and he mumbles something that sounds like "too late."

"What?"

" Oh ah nothing I was just wondering if I could come in for a minute but obviously you are busy." He starts turning away but I can't pass up the chance to have a face-to-face with him even if it is for only a few minutes. What can I say, I am a masochist!

"Wait-Edward- you can come in for a little bit if you know you want to." I whisper the ending and before I know it he is walking through my doorway and standing awkwardly in my living room waiting for further instructions.

Suddenly my phone rings so I give Edward an apologetic smile and take the call in the kitchen.

"Hello?"

"Hey Bella, it's me Tony." Tony? Oh right, my date.

"Hey are you almost here?" I ask half-heartedly.

"Actually I called to say that I can't go out with you tonight. I am sick." With two fake coughs from him and a hushed giggle in the background the call is disconnected.

Really.

I just can't take this anymore. First Mike cheats, then Edward only marries and does it with me when he is drunk and then agrees to pretend it never happened, and now this guy doesn't even want to put in the time. The room is spinning around me as my head fills with all of my possible and likely inadequacies and faults. Then it goes black.

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