Love, Infatuation, & Mistrust chapter: 5

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That whole detail thing is coming up! There will be some team action here (yay) and of course Reid got himself a girl friend.. I believe there is some Reid/JJ talking in this chapter.. if not, then the second chapter! I do not own criminal mins nor the characters... I wonder if I have to continuously keep writing that! I spent a few months writing this storyyyy so that's why the chapters are being posted all fast.. LIke within a day, but I AM OPEN TO SUGGESTIONS! There's going to be a huge PLOT that is going to happen in later chapter.. Idk which one! What I do know is that later chapters are more descriptive! Like that 50 SHADES OF GRAY, kind of stuff! It may be off but that's because it's not my style! Thanks for the reviews! Oh and the follows!

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What woke her up was the whimpering. Then it was the shaking of the bed. She turned and looked at the feverish young man. Not wanting to slap him, she instead kissed him softly, and his eyes popped open in shock. Then he realized where he was, and who she was. "Did, I wake you?" Spencer croaked. "Um, well, you seemed to be having a bad dream," Alex whispered. Spencer got up slowly, but froze, when he noticed how dark it was. Not wanting to show his fear, Spencer crawled out of bed. Alex sat up wondering where he was going. Assuming he was going to the bathroom, Alex laid back down onto the bed. Spencer walked down the corridor and sat in the kitchen, turning the light on. It was the same nightmare. It's becoming so constant that Reid wondered if it truly was a message. The dream keeps going though. At the end of each dream, is the the beginning of the next dream. 'The last dream ended with Aaron Hotchner stating that I was suffering from a psychotic break. It never ends,' Spencer thought, as he recalled the nightmare.

"Spencer screamed as the team found his dead body along with the dead baby. "He didn't have to kill the child," JJ said with disgust, "I can't believe he's the godfather of Henry." Morgan looked at her and shook his head, "It was a possibility and we all knew that. Now we have four dead bodies on our hands."

Hotch came back while the coroner put Spencer's body in a body bag. "Spencer has killed someone else before he died," Hotch said. All Spencer could do was watch as they carried his body away and his team talked about the case. "What? Who else?" Emily said with shock. "William Reid," Rossi said in his normal calm voice. "I can't believe this," Morgan said sadly. "The entire Reid family is dead," JJ said sadly. "What do they mean entire Reid family?" Spencer asked himself. "There was only my parents and I."

"You are not as smart as they labeled you as boy!" Tobias Hankel yelled. "I-I know," Spencer said pathetically, "But I don't understand!" Spencer was getting frustrated. "Your family is dead!" Tobias yelled angrily. "Your Mother! Your Father! Your Wife! Your Child! Anyone who was related to you, or meant something to you is dead!" Spencer was in shock. He always thought the baby belonged to JJ. At least until JJ showed up. "Now, you're dead. Instead of being in heaven with your family, you are in hell, with the ones you killed. You're a sinner Boy!" Tobias laughed. "No!" Spencer cried. "I didn't kill them!" Spencer fell to the ground. The temperature began to rise. Spencer could feel the sweat running down his face. Then the temperature became exceedingly hot, as Spencer cried out in pain. "We know it hurts, but it's too late!" Everything yelled at him. Spencer couldn't believe this. He had a family, and he killed them all. But he saw Nathan Harris kill Alex, and the strange being had killed the baby, but pinned it on him. Reid saw that his mother was strangled. Reid did kill himself. Spencer didn't know about his father though. Spencer fell to the burning ground. He saw his skin melt away, as his flesh burned. He could practically smell it."

Reid snapped out of his memory, when the graphics became to much. Once more, he felt his stomach do flips. 'Not again,' Spencer said as he remembered the first time he got sick from that dream. Spencer got up and ran towards the bathroom, where he began to heave. Alex reawakened again, not realizing she fell asleep. That's when she remembered Spencer left the room. She heard him throwing up in the bathroom. Quickly, Alex jumped out of the bed and ran into the bathroom. Spencer looked horrible. His face was slightly tinted green as his body shook. She could tell he had spiked another fever. 'What the hell is going on inside that head of yours,' Alex thought as she kneeled next to Spencer and rubbed his back gently. She began to murmur sweet nothings in his ear, in attempt to soothe the ailing boy. After a good thirty minutes, Spencer flushed the toilet and leaned his back against the cool wall. Spencer felt like this was deja vu. He heard someone calling his name. Then he recognized the voice belonging to Alex.

"Spencer," Alex called trying to gain his attention, by now she was beginning to worry. "Spencer!" Alex said once she noticed a flicker of recognition in Reid's eyes. "Spencer, are you okay?" Alex asked once he looked at her. "Um, y-yeah," Spencer lied. He didn't feel okay, but he didn't want her to worry. "Don't lie to me Spencer. I heard you throwing up, and I came in here thirty minutes ago. You were sick for a long time. Was it the nightmare?" Alex asked calmly. Spencer nodded slowly. "Okay. Come on," Alex got up and pulled Spencer up by the arms. She didn't want him to get the influenza again because of the cold floor. Alex had a feeling that this nightmare was the reason Spencer was thrown into her care in the first place. She pulled him towards the door, but he paused. "I'm going to brush my teeth," Spencer muttered. Alex nodded and waiting patiently for Spencer to finish. When he did, Alex sat Reid on his bed, and forced him to lean his back against the head board. "Stay here," Alex demanded. When Spencer nodded, Alex turned and walked out of the room and into the ling room. Alex grabbed her purse and pulled out her box of teas that she sometimes drank at work instead of the crappy coffee. She grabbed a specific one and walked off towards the kitchen. She poured a small pot of water and turned the eye on. She knew Spencer wouldn't fall asleep, so she waited for ten minutes until the water boiled. She placed the tea bag in stand watch the water turned a golden brown. She searched his cabinets for honey, and once she found some, she poured a good amount into the boiling water. She turned off the stove, and grabbed a semi small cup and poured a bit of the tea into the cup. She grabbed the cup and walked back towards the bedroom. "Here, Spencer, drink this. It should help," Alex said as she handed him the cup. "What is it?" Spencer asked warily. "Um, it's Baikal Scutellaria root tea," Alex answered. "What's that?" Spencer asked confused. Alex was surprised that the didn't know. "Baikal Scutellaria root tea is a Russian and Chinese root tea. According to my grandmother and Annie's Remedy, The chemistry of skullcap varies considerably between species, those who contain the compound scutellarin are the ones used in herbal medicine. The plant has been used for centuries by herbalists as an effective nerve tonic and sedative. Its common uses include relief of nervous tension, anxiety and nerve pain. The root of a related species, Baikal skullcap is used in traditional Chinese medicine to relieve colds, fever, hypertension and insomnia among other problems. The herb is used to dry dampness from the stomach or intestines, treating any kind of stomach bug that stifles the urge to drink fluids, eat or cause inflammation of the urinary tract. Skullcap also treats the symptoms of emotional excess rising in the body to cause blushing, flushing, irritability, or headache," Alex informed. "It also raises blood sugar, which I believe you need," Alex smiled slightly. Spencer smiled back and took a sip of the steaming tea. Alex knew it would put him to sleep, in fact the tea was already putting Spencer to sleep. Alex noticed that it was 4:35 in the morning. She knew that Spencer shouldn't go into work today, but she also knew he wouldn't miss another day. Alex noticed that Spencer's eyes began to droop. "Finish your tea, then sleep," Alex demanded in a motherly tone she adapted from her grandmother. Spencer nodded tiredly and gulped down the rest of the tea. He sat it on the bed stand and looked at Alex. "Thank you," Spencer said slowly. Alex smiled and crawled into his side as he fell asleep. Alex sighed in content and made a mental note to talk to him about this nightmare before sometime tomorrow. She drifted off into a peaceful slumber.

Reid woke up to the sound of the alarm. He quickly reached over to turn the alarm off. Spencer looked beside him and saw Alex. In a way, he felt as if he's violating her, even though sleeping in the same bed isn't exactly a inappropriate encounter. They're both just somewhat fell asleep. Spencer has an hour and a half to get ready for work, even though he normally would get ready thirty minutes ahead of time, he couldn't find the strength to move. Spencer just smiled as he began to run his hands through Alex's hair. Alex shifted a bit causing Reid to freeze slightly. Knowing that he is acting like a creeper, Spencer decided to just get ready for work. He wasn't ready to be that intimate yet, and he refuses to violate her in any way. Spencer gently lifted theta covers off of him and crawled out of bed. Spencer quickly went to the bathroom to take a shower. Spencer noticed his nose was slightly congested, but knew he would get pass any normal person. After the shower, Spencer put on his boxers, pants, deodorant, and undershirt. He put his robe and glasses on, and stalked off towards the kitchen. He noticed the rest of the tea from earlier when he got sick and poured it into a plaits container. He would save it for next time, until he finds the root at a local supermarket. Spencer thought about Alex, and decided that he would cook her a breakfast. Spencer didn't have much cooking skills, but he could make coffee and pancakes. Spencer chuckled as he remembered her affinity for pancakes. He looked through the cabinets in shock that his refrigerator and cabinets were stocked with food. He got his ingredients and washed his hands. He poured enough ingredients to make three pancakes. He turned on the stove and placed the batter in the pan. He waited until all three were done. He then sat them on the table, with a cup of coffee and syrup. He quickly ran to the laundry room and got her clothes to start washing. He heard the bathroom door open and close, so he knew Alex was awake. Reid left the laundry room and walked back into the kitchen to wash the dishes. When Alex emerged she gasped at the sight of her favorite breakfast.

"Good morning, Alè," Spencer said subconsciously. "Alè? Like Alèjandra? The Spanish name, not Russian?" Alex asked. "Uh, yeah," Spencer said shyly. Alex giggled. "I think it's cute. How did you come up with something better than me? I gave you Spencie, and you give me Alè?" Alex chuckled as she walked over and stretched up to kiss him. "Good morning," Alex breathed. Spencer smiled as he adjusted his glasses. Alex went to the tables and stared at her breakfast. She really wanted to eat it, but she wanted to remember this moment. Spencer was the only guy, outside of her family, who actually made her pancakes. Then her hunger got the best of her and she dug in quickly. "Mmm, This is good," Alex complemented. "Thanks," Spencer said softly as he walked back into the laundry room to throw her clothes in the dryer. He still had forty-five minutes left, so he knew he had time. When Spencer re-entered the kitchen, he sat at the table with Alex, sipping on coffee. "Spencer, you're congested," Alex pointed out. "Only slightly, Alex," Spencer added. "I'm not going to force you to take medicine okay?" Alex giggled. She could tell that's why Spencer was defending himself. "Oh," Spencer said as he pursed his lips.

"Do you want to talk about it?" Alex asked, hoping he would before he gets sent on a case. "Talk about what?" Spencer asked nervously. He would have told her, but the fact that they were married, had a child, and that he killed them both, was enough for him to keep that dream to himself. "The nightmare," Alex said. "No. It's not the best dream ever, and it's slightly embarrassing," Spencer admitted. "Oh come on, Spencie! It can't be that embarrassing," Alex said trying to push him. "Well, maybe embarrassing isn't the proper word, but perhaps creepy, and a bit future fetched that I'd prefer to not talk about," Spencer said sadly. He doesn't believe it would happen, but he didn't want to push her away so quickly. Alex knew that Spencer had a low self-esteem, so she got a pretty good idea of what future fetched would mean. "Spencer, last night night I had a dream about marrying you. We were so happy, but you got killed, I don't know know why because my memory isn't the best with my dreams," Alex said with a slight smile. She was trying to encourage him to open up. In Alex's eyes, Spencer is like a flower. You won't notice his true beauty until he blossoms. Spencer sighed, he knew that he should talk to her about them, especially if they're making him sick from time to time.

"Okay. These dreams are all connected tone another. The first one, there was a baby. And it was suffocating. Then It was shot in the head. This person or thing told me that I killed it even though I know I didn't shoot that baby. Then I see my mom in a coffin, she died of suffocation. Apparently, I killed her too. Then I killed myself while my mother shouts that I deserve it. The second one is back with the dead baby, and my mother. All the UnSubs, I have killed came back. All the victims I couldn't save came back. Their spirits were haunting me. Tobias was there. He said I would burn for all eternity. I could see my own dead body," Spencer took a deep breath as he continued.

"Then you were there. Nathan Harris was a teenage boy I saved from suicide. He had the signs of being a future serial killer. He was older, but he was there with you. You guys kissed, but then he killed you. When you looked at me, you died. Then the team comes in saying that I killed you! Hotch said I was suffering from a psychotic break. They couldn't see my spirit telling them Nathan did it. Then in the third dream from last night. The team discuss the fact that I killed you, my mom, and the baby. Then Hotch and Rossi comes back and says I killed my father too. JJ says I killed my whole blood line. I didn't understand, but then Tobias told me that you were my wife, and that baby was our child. I killed all of them. Then I burned in hell while I watched my entire body melt from the flames," Spencer exhaled deeply as he let this burden off his chest.

Alex felt her heart flutter at the fact that Spencer and her had a child, and they were married. Now the fact that they were all dead wasn't pretty, but she wouldn't want to live without him anyways, unless they did have a child together. She would live for the child. "Spencer, it's okay. Like I said, even if you end up insane, I am going to be here. I don't think anything I say could make that dream seem less intense, but just… talk to me, okay? We can figure it out together," Alex said softly.

She got up and straddled Reid's lap. She placed both hands on his shoulder as he placed his hands on both sides of her hips and she kissed him. He let her have more access, as he kissed her back. Alex could feel the fiery passion between their kiss. Spencer could feel it too. The small burning sensation in his lower abdomen came back as her lips continued to caress his. Alex felt him harden as she pressed herself closer to him, wanting to feel more and more of him. Spencer also pulled her closer, with the same need. Spencer could feel his erection growing, and knew that he needed to slow down. He gently caressed her back with his hands, and pulled away. "I have to go to work," Spencer smiled shyly. "Oh, right, um okay," Alex said still flabbergasted.

Spencer got up and took her clothes out of the dryer and folded her clothes up. He gathered them into his room and saw that she made the bed. Reid smiled as he sat her clothes on top of the bed. He took off the robe and put on his work shirt and sweater vest. Spencer grabbed his messenger bag, phone, and keys. He stopped by the door, and grabbed his extra key. Alex came from the kitchen and smiled. "I really wish you could've stayed," Alex said quietly. "Same here," Spencer said shyly. "Go catch your bad guys, but do it safely, please," Alex murmured as she hugged him goodbye. "I promise, but you try to keep the infectious diseases out of your body while you're at work too, okay?" Spencer said sternly. "Okay," Alex smiled. "Before I leave I wanted to give you something, although it isn't much," Spencer said rocking on his heels nervously. "What is it?" Alex said with confusion. "Here," Spencer grabbed her hand and placed a small golden key in her hand. "They key to your apartment?" Alex asked. "Um yeah, I feel like I can trust you, so I just thought I should just let you have more independence to my apartment," Spencer said nervously. 'What if she laughs?' Spencer could hear all the past bullies laughing at him in that instant. Alex stepped closer to Spencer and gave him the softest, yet grateful, kiss she could muster without words. "Have a nice day at work," Alex smiled as she gave him one last hug. "You too, Alè," Spencer said as he hugged her back and kissed the top of her head. He looked into her eyes one last time and departed for his worksite. Alex giggled and smiled once he left. This was the best relationship in her entire life. She couldn't stop the butterflies and the need to jump up and down screaming.

Spencer was just as excited. He walked to work, although knowing he would be late, he still smiled. Once Spencer reached the building he showed the guard his badge and walked towards the stairs. He was five minutes late. Spencer walked in a daze, too busy replaying that morning in his head. He felt his mind separate from the world as his physical being traveled to his desk. Hotch stared at Reid wondering why the young agent was late and looked so detached from the world. Hotch looked at Morgan who also looked slightly worried. Hotch walked down the stairs and into the bullpen. He approached Reid, but Reid was still staring off into the distance. "Reid," Hotch said. Reid didn't notice. Hotch place a hand on Reid's shoulder, causing the young agent to jump. Reid looked surprised to be in the bullpen. Reid turn to look at his boss expectantly. "Are you okay?" Hotch asked in a authoritative tone. "Um, yeah," Reid said quietly. Hotch and Morgan could hear the slight congestion in Reid's voice. "Pretty Boy, are you sick again?" Morgan asked with worry. "No," Reid lied, his voice trailing at a higher pitch. "Reid you are sick, what happened?" Hotch asked. Spencer looked down. What was he supposed to say? 'I had a nightmare?' That in itself seems like a lie. "My, uh, allergies, yeah," Reid said looking down. "I forgot to take my medication," Reid feigned shame. The team knew how Reid hated to forget something. "Are you sure?" Hotch asked not quite believing this story. "Yes, sir," Reid said adding the innocent look to his words. Hotch nodded and walked off. Reid really wanted coffee, but since Alex told the team of his prehypertension, no one has had any coffee from the building. The team had to get coffee from a coffee shop, or Starbucks. They thought if no one made coffee in front of Reid then he would be able to handle it. Spencer knew better. Spencer would just go out during his lunch break, drink his coffee before anyone got back. "What did you eat for breakfast, Pretty Boy?" Morgan asked. Spencer stared at Morgan. He didn't even eat breakfast since he wasn't hungry. "Um, Iwasn'texactlyhungry,soIdidn'texactlyeatanything,b utIdiddrinksometeaandcoffee," Spencer said quickly and quietly, throwing Morgan off. "Kid, can you say that again- but slower?" Morgan asked. "Wait, where's Emily?" Reid asked deflecting Morgan's request discretely. "Oh, um she had a doctor's appointment, so she couldn't exactly make it for the first half of this morning," Morgan answered unaware of Spencer's actions.

Garcia came out of her office and walked straight towards Reid. "How about tonight?" Garcia asked. "Tonight, what?" Spencer asked confused. "Hello! We are going to meet the lady that makes you feel good!" Garcia said as she poked his head. "Ah! Garcia! There's no need to get pokey about it," Spencer whined. Morgan chuckled at Reid's lack of enthusiasm, and Garcia's exuberance. "I'll call her and ask!" Reid said once Garcia stopped poking him. "Shouldn't she be at work?" Garcia asked. She knew doctors worked some crazy hours all night and day. "Well, today she has to be at work by 11, so she should be watching television or reading whatever she finds," Spencer answered knowingly. "Oh, he knows her every move," Garcia said with awe. "Pretty Boy, should I be creeped out?" Morgan joked slightly. "No! I left her in my apartment, so there's not much for her to do. I know she won't leave until about ten, so yeah, that's all she would be doing," Spencer said as if they already knew that Alex spent the night.

"Whoa whoa whoa, Pretty Boy, back up. Why is she in your apartment?" Morgan asked curiously. "And why didn't you inform me!" Garcia said as she pouted slightly. "Well, Morgan, she came over. And Garcia, I didn't' know I was supposed to tell you," Spencer said pointedly. "And you expect me to tell you after you pointedly tricked me the first time!" Spencer accused. "Like I said, sugar, It wasn't a trick. I just played with words! And it doesn't count if you're a genius!" Garcia defended herself. "Wait! When did she come over?" Morgan asked still trying to fill in the holes. "Last night, Morgan," Spencer said while glaring at Garcia, who cooed at his ''Kitten Glower.''

"Wait, Garcia, baby girl, give me some peace so I can interrogate Pretty Boy, please!" Morgan smiled. Garcia looked at Morgan and flicked his head, and walked over to sit at Emily's desk. "So, she came over last night, and what happened, next" Morgan prompted. Reid knew there was no way out of this conversation. He knew he should've been more careful about what he had said, but he lost all sense while Garcia was being a Garcia. 'I might as well get this over with,' Reid thought. "Well, we talked about our day and how cow's moo. We also talked about bacteria. I talked about some of my past, and she talked about some of hers. Then I went to bed. Then I woke up, and got ready for work. She woke up and said bye," Spencer said being careful to cut out any sexual content, or any content that would make them worry-like his throwing up fit. Morgan and Garcia stared at him. "That can't be all, Pretty Boy," Morgan spoke once he found his voice. "We read a book," Spencer added with enthusiasm to back them off.

JJ walked past and knew Spencer was trying to make his mini fan club go away. "Hey Spence, I need your help with something," JJ said as she walked towards her office. "Sorry guys, but I guess I have to sign some paperwork," Spencer smiled and stalked off towards JJ's office. He knocked twice and entered the room. "Thanks JJ," Spencer sighed as he sat down in front of her desk. "No problem, I understand that they could be a handful sometimes," JJ smiled. Spencer nodded, and remembered Henry. "Do you and Will need some time away from Henry?" Spencer asked hoping she'd get the hint. "Um, unless someone wants to watch him, then yes, we could," JJ said. "How about Sunday?" Spencer offered. "That's perfect," JJ sighed happily.

"Hey Spence?" JJ asked shyly. "Yes?" Spencer said slowly. "How do you feel about her?" JJ asked while looking down at the floor. Spencer felt slightly nervous, and he didn't understand why. 'Maybe I still had feelings for her. No! Stop! JJ has Will, and she's happy,' Spencer debated within himself. "Um, I like her a lot. We've um, been moving along pretty fast. She has a key to my apartment," Reid said as JJ choked in shock. "What? Spence, No! You've only been dating for two days," JJ said still shocked. "JJ I know it seems reckless, but it feels so right. She's the only one who can figure me out faster than I can. It's like she the fire, and I'm the air. We keep the flame together by simply working together. I'm happy," Spencer sighed, with a small smile. JJ wanted to argue, but she knew she would have to wait until that woman doctor makes a mistake. "Oh, is there anything that actually doesn't come easy for you guys?" JJ asked jokingly. "Actually, yes, but I'm doing my best to keep it from happening," Spencer retorted honestly. Reid could always tell JJ anything, he knew she wouldn't laugh at him, or tell the other members of the team. "Really? What is it?" JJ asked curiously. "Have you ever been with that one person where you always seem turned on, and you both start, but you stop it?" Spencer asked playing with the hem of his sweater. JJ's jaw dropped as her eyes opened wide. "You guys?" JJ said thinking that they've been having sex. "No, no, JJ not like that. We both want it. And it's getting harder to keep it from happening. I want to wait until marriage, but every time I see her, it seems to get harder and harder to keep that promise," Spencer said reassuringly. "Oh!" JJ said in understanding. "You should try telling her. If she doesn't respect that, then she's not the one. How far do you guys get?" JJ said trying to get more information. "Well, I can say far enough for her to feel my arousal," Spencer said self-consciously. "Did she make any sounds?" JJ asked. When Spencer blushed, JJ knew the answer. "Uh, yeah, she did. I didn't want to encourage it, yet I didn't want to end it. I did though, twice," Spencer said.

"Is that an insult towards a lady?" Spencer asked. "Um, no. In a way, it's a good thing because it shows that you care about her, not her body," JJ said with a hint of disdain. She was slightly mad that this woman, who just waltzes into Spencer's life and takes him away while JJ is stuck with Will. She didn't think Will and her would last. It was just a flirty fling, until she had Henry. "How would you feel if you didn't wait till marriage, Spence?" JJ asked trying to help him get more in tune with his emotions on this subject. "I would be disappointed in myself, and scared," Spencer said after much thought. "Why would you be scared?" JJ questioned. Spencer began playing with the hem of his sweater again. "Because, what if that's all she wanted. Would she leave? I trust her, yes I do, but emotions change daily. What if she doesn't have feelings for me anymore?" Spencer stated sadly placing his hands on the desk. He still had his doubts for how long they might last. His feelings for her grows every time he thinks of her, but what would happen if she left? JJ looked at Spencer with sympathy. She knew those feelings from when she was in high school. You're never sure if the other person truly loves you the way you love them. "Spence, you never know until you get there, and if she only wants you for the sex, then we, your team, will be there for you," JJ said as she placed a hand on his. "This is also why we want to meet her, Spence. We want to double check grounds you may have missed, okay?" JJ said trying to stay relaxed, although she felt anger towards Dr. Romanov for making Reid have to think about these issues. Reid is the purest member out of all of them. The most innocent. He never gives up, and sees the good in everyone. The team protects him, because evil loves to prey on the innocent. Reid nodded ever so slightly and stood. "I better get started on that paperwork before Morgan throws even more of his files on top of mine. Thanks JJ, you've really helped," Reid said with a small smile. "Anytime Spence, just don't tell Hotch yet, okay? Unless you want him to interrogate her till she leaves. We'll break the news to him. Papa Hotch is over protective of his youngest," JJ laughed lightly. Spencer smiled even wider and walked out of the office. Reid sat at his desk as he got started on his paperwork.