Readers! Hello hello hello!

Here is the latest instalment of 50 Shades and A daughter , I hope you enjoy it.

Two things about this chapter and one thing about the story as a whole ;

Number one (chapter) – Chapter 26 revolves fully around Ana learning about Jose's death and her remembering a time when Jose was a good friend to her , therefore triggering her thoughts on his death and asking Kate how his death occurred , in advance I want to warn you that it is depressing and I hope it doesn't offend anyone who has suffered the same upsetting situation in their life.

Number two (chapter) – the song Ana sings to Teddy at the end is a strange choice I know but I've always loved the song and its personally gotten me through lots of hard times and I feel Ana sings more for herself then to calm her baby , although the song does make him fall asleep in the end. The song by the way is Cope by an amazing artist called Stephanie Mabey. I recommend following her on Twitter , she's extremely talented.

And number one (story) – I am sorry to report that the story is coming to an end , I'd say another 4 chapters max before I call it an end , something which I know I will find extremely hard as this story has kinda become my obsession.

Anyway I hope you enjoy the chapter , well as much as one can when reading about a characters passing :(

All my love as always and please review as I love hearing from you all , my twitter is still up and running so follow follow follow hehe

I also want to post a little hello to Prince George as I was actually in London on the day of his birth and feel a little connection to our future king hehe

Alexandra xxxxx

"Jose?" my voice is barely a whisper as I speak my friends name , feeling a piece of my heart shatter as memories runs across my eyes , remembering the man he was before everything became so dramatic between us.

"I'm so sorry Ana, we wanted to tell you sooner, you were invited to the funeral of course, but you've been unconscious for so long now Ana, we didn't know how to wake you" Kate's eyes are filling with tears as she replies, I reach my hand towards hers and smile as she takes it with a weak smile, feeling her squeeze it tightly for comfort.

"What happened?" my voice breaks slightly as tears slide down my cheeks, making me sniffle slightly. I smile a thank you as Elliott as he passes me a tissue, watching as his eyes move to Kate, taking in her shaking shoulders as she cries softly to herself. He kneels in front of her and opens his arms for her, allowing her small body to slide into his embrace, his strong arms holding her as she morns our friend.

I feel a small pang of jealousy , wanting and wishing I too could call on my husband to come comfort me , however I fear that if I saw Christian now he'd make me cry more. Drawing my eyes away from Kate and Elliot I find comfort in my window, gazing out at the now dark night sky, the moon's light bringing forth memories of the man I use to call brother.

"Ana! Hey Ana wait up will ya?" I stand at the bottom of the stairs, ignoring the annoyed looks of other students who are trying to get passed me on their way to class, and smile up at Jose who is now racing down the stairs two at a time to get to me. He looks so young and carefree in his washed out jeans and grey t-shirt with a light blue shirt unbuttoned on top, he still has every female eye trained on him. His deep brown eyes shine as he jumps the last step to stand beside me, his floppy dark hair falling around his chiselled face perfectly.

"I don't have time for hello's Jose , some of us actually have to do work for our diploma" I giggle as he rolls his eyes at my usual dig at his very physical engineering course , he works on cars and mechanical things all day while I sweat over hundreds of books , which I love but it's still hard work. I go to start walking towards my next class and notice him fall into step beside me, taking the large pile of books I've been struggling to carry since leaving the library early this morning. He doesn't even struggle with the books weight as we head out to the Quad.

"Yea I noticed that Ana , who'd have thought someone as tiny as you could move so dam fast , I swear you practically sprinted down those stairs back there. If I didn't know any better I'd have thought you were trying to avoid me" his eyebrows rise in mock accusation and I giggle again, playfully punching his arm as we round the corner towards my lecture hall.

"I have a class, its normal for students to run when they are late" I defend myself with a smile, pushing a strand of my long brunette hair away from my eyes as it escapes from my ponytail.

"You have 20 minutes till your next class Ana and Professor Marks is always 10 minutes late so technically you have a good half an hour to kill" he says with an easy shrug , I stop dead at his in-depth knowledge of my class schedule. He looks over his shoulder with a playful smile, knowing full well why I've stopped walking "yes Ana I learnt your schedule, shoot me" he turns back towards the direction we'd been walking, yelling over his shoulder "get moving or you really will be late" I can't help the boom of laughter that escapes me and I find myself running over to him, playfully jumping up on his back as I pretend to attack him. He lunges forward as I land on his back and my books go flying, scattering in front of us with loud thuds, my eyes fill with tears as I giggle more energetically , holding my stomach as I double over whilst watching him try to pick all the books up as quickly as he can , luckily he too is laughing. I look up and stop laughing, anger rushes over me as I spot the lowest form of man walking towards us.

"Oh God not him" I lean against a the wall as I watch Noah Bradley , otherwise known as Brad the Lad , flirting with a pretty little freshmen , noticing she too is flirting back as she flicks her blonde hair over and over again. Jose collects the books finally and stands up, noticing my scowl he follows my eyes over to Noah, his eyes cloud in confusion as he looks back at my disgusted expression.

"Yikes Ana, what's up with the hate for Bradley?" I don't answer for a while , I'm in shock as I watch Noah lean forward and whisper in the freshman's ear , making her giggle cutely , he then places a kiss on her cheek as she writes what I'm guessing is her number on a piece of paper and passes it to him , which leads to another kiss on the cheek. My stomach twists as I remember Kate telling me about how he use to kiss her and how much she loved how he made her feel , that was only last week!

"He went out with Kate and then dumped her for some waitress that apparently served them at dinner once" I shudder as I remember Kate's constant crying after their break up, seeing someone who usually acts so strong break down so drastically is enough to make any one hate the person who has caused someone so much pain, it's even worse when the person in pain is one of your closest friends.

"Oh shit, how'd Kate take that?" I send him a knowing look, everyone knows how much control Kate likes to keep on her personal life, so for someone to dump her so out of the blue would have knocked her pretty dam hard. Jose nods at my expression and frowns slightly "that bad huh?" I nod and he shakes his head, darting his eyes over to Noah who is now laughing with his football mates as they walk towards us. I notice the sparkle in Noah's eyes as he spots me, his team mate punches his arm to try and gain his attention but he ignores him, his focus is now completely on me. Jose steps in front of me to block Noah's view and I send him a silent thank you. Noah however doesn't take Jose's blockage as a hint and instead side steps him and stands directly in front of me , his arm leaning against the wall behind my head , making his whole body lean into mine. I shudder at his closeness.

"Anastasia I thought I told you to only wear a towel from now on, they look so good on you. But then you do look good without a towel as well" I turn my face away from him and cringe as I remember the morning he woke up and walked out of Kate's bedroom, just as I was darting out of the bathroom, let's just say my clumsiness became my worst enemy when I ended up tripping over my own feet and hitting the floor without my towel. Noah had both stared and laughed at me sprawled naked on the floor. It was by far the most humiliating moment of my life.

"Back off Bradley" Jose's voice is deep and serious behind Noah , I glance round and see that's he's dropped my books and is instead stood with his arms crossed in front of him , his eyes trained on Noah. Noah however keeps his eyes on me, staring intently at my bottom lip which I realise I've been biting down on in fear.

"Shut up Rodriguez!" growls Noah in a patronising manner. I risk a look up at him and tremble slightly as he leans even closer to me, his lips a mere inch away from mine. God please get him off me, please I send a silent prayer to anyone who may listen, even though I know it's useless, no one would go against Noah Bradley, not if they wanted to survive college without being beaten up every single day.

"Noah I said back away from her , she isn't one of your fresher girls , she has standards and you don't even come close" I feel a light of hope , Jose is defending me , looking out for me like he always does. But I couldn't stand him getting hurt by Noah for this , I once again send a silent prayer that Noah will just walk away , useless again because he's both stupid and stubborn , but it's worth a try. Noah sighs exasperatedly and rolls his eyes at me, obviously thinking I too am getting annoyed at Jose's interruptions. God how did this guy get into this University, he's as thick as two short planks!

"Why don't you go play with some cars Jose" he pronounces his name as Josie , a joke Bradley has used on Jose since our first year , he thinks he's cleaver for coming up with it but really it just makes him look uneducated and disrespectful to Jose's heritage.

"I'm trying to be patient here Bradley but I swear down if you don't move away from Ana in the next" he glances at his watch "ten seconds, well let's just say I won't be held responsible for my actions" I watch in awe as Jose rolls up his sleeves and stretches out his arms and neck, preparing for the fight which Noah will no doubt instigate. Noah straightens up and surprisingly his face is a mixture of amusement and admiration, obviously he wasn't expecting little Jose Rodriguez to get in his way, neither had I really.

"Oh Jose" once again pronouncing his name as Josie , the twat "you really are stupid some times , no one starts a fight with me" Jose squares his shoulders slightly and blows out a long breath , he's probably been holding that breath since Noah put his hands on me.

"Well there's a first time for everything Bradley , now move away from Ana or you'll be spending your next class in the medic-centre" I can't help but smile at Jose's confidence , however I also notice he's shaking slightly , a clear sign that underneath his witty comebacks he's petrified of Noah's strength. Noah rolls his shoulders and cracks his neck, the sound makes me shiver slightly and Noah glances over his shoulder with a wink, making me cringe.

"Your all talk and no fight Josie" Noah's football mates egg him on and Noah sends them a quick nod of acknowledgement , giving Jose a quick window to smash his fist into Noah's stomach , knocking our star player off his feet and down onto his ass , coughing and swearing at the surprise attack. Jose moves quickly and slams his foot into Noah's stomach again as the football player rolls around on the floor, desperate to regain his balance and bring the fight back to him, however Jose's weight is now completely crushing him to the floor, keeping him down.

"What was that Bradley? I can't hear you through all your coughing" I giggle as I watch Jose step off Noah and walk back over to me, his face is full of concerning, silencing my giggles "You okay Ana?" his hand brushes against my cheek and I smile softly, placing my hand on his and moving it away from my face, the gesture is far too intimate, even if he did just beat someone up for me.

"I'm fine Jose" he looks me up and down then back at Noah , who is being pulled up back to his feet by his football buddies. Once he's able to stand he pushes his mates away and turns back to Jose and I, his face is dark with anger and his eyes tell me he's looking for a rematch. I push Jose aside quickly and put both hands on Noah's chest, stopping him abruptly he looks down at me, his face clouded in confusion.

"Noah please leaves us alone" his eyes switch to stare at Jose, who is also staring at me with confused eyes.

"Ana I…" he trails off as I gently push him back with my hands, keeping my eyes trained on his.

"No one needs to get hurt , just walk away" he stares down at me , then back at Jose , before nodding his head and stepping back from me.

"I'll let this one go Rodriguez, but just cus Ana asked me too, if it weren't for her you'd be in the hospital" I roll my eyes at Noah's back before sighing in relief as he turns to walk away from us. Jose runs a hand through his hair and our eyes lock, seconds pass before we both explode in giggles.

"Oh my god! What the hell was that? You never ever hit people!" I try to reign in my giggles but they don't stop, my surprise ringing through my voice as I shake my hands in exaggeration. Jose runs his hand through his hair once again before leaning his hip against the wall and taking a long breathe in, letting it out with a roll of his broad shoulders.

"Honestly I just saw red and went with it" I giggle once again and mirror his stance, smiling at the memory of Noah hitting the floor after Jose's knockout.

"Remind me to never get on your bad side , you're a monster when you're mad" he laughs softly before collecting my books from the floor and shrugging his rucksack over one shoulder , nodding his head in the direction of my class.

"You'll never see me mad Ana" he starts walking towards my classroom and I fall into step beside him, raising an eyebrow at his previous statement.

"I can be rather annoying you know, I may be quiet but I have my bad habits" he chuckles quietly before turning his gorgeous eyes on me, our steps still perfectly in time with each other.

"Yes but your annoying habits are also what make you so dam cute" I feel my cheeks blush involuntarily and find my teeth biting into my lip. I know he means what he says but I also know his true feelings and that gives statements like those a whole different meaning.

"Jose" I start but he cuts me off with a shake of the head, his eyes don't meet mine but I can practically feel the sadness in them.

"I know what you're going to say Ana, you don't have to remind me that you don't love me like I love you" his words cut into me and I find myself falling behind in our brisk walking.

"I'm sorry Jose" my voice is a whisper but he still hears me, turning instantly and engulfing me in his strong arms, holding me tight to his chest.

"You don't have to be sorry Ana, I bless God for every day I get to spend time with you, even if you don't love me I will always be here for you, just understand that if you do ever change your mind, that I want you to tell me so I can start giving you the life you deserve" with the last words his eyes meet mine, his question washes over me, making me feel truly looked after. I nod because my voice refuses to work and he smiles, brushing a finger across my cheek "now you really are late for class" I glance at my watch and sigh.

"Oh crap!" I kiss his cheek, grab my books, and leg it down the corridor.

"Ana?" Kate's voice brings me back from my memory and I turn my head to look at her, she's still sat in the hospital armchair but Elliott is no longer holding her, instead my brother in law is leaning against the wall looking very tired, his suit jacket has been removed and his tie loosened slightly.

"How?" it's the only word my mouth will let me say, all the others words of that sentence are lost in my grief.

"Well the police have decided that it was suicide, there's no note but Jose was found unconscious with a bottle of Tequila and half a packet of anti-depressants in his system. He was pronounced dead on arrival to the hospital" Kate gasps back a sob before continuing , her words cutting into my heart "the police suspect he went home and started throwing your items out of his flat , all of your clothes had been cut up and some even burned to a crisp by some kind of bonfire , they suspect he was drinking and popping the pills while he did this" I stop looking at her , afraid that I'll see some sort of blame in her eyes , mainly because I feel responsible. Jose was angry with me because I picked Christian, I've always picked Christian and now I've been hurt severely by him, just like Jose warned. No wonder he was pissed off, everything he warned me about came true and yet I ignored him. Oh Jose I'm so sorry, so sorry I wasted the love you had for me, rest in peace my dear friend.

"Ana? Are you okay?" I nod weakly, lying in hopes Kate will leave me to cry in morning of him. But this is Kate and she can read me like a book, her arms are around me in seconds, holding me while I sob uncontrollably.

"It's my fault, he warned me Kate, he warned me that Christian would hurt me if I stayed with him and he has. Oh Jose why didn't I listen to you!" I scream this to the ceiling, praying my friend will hear me and forgive me, because I forgive him for what he did as I understand what it feels like to be betrayed by the person you love. I betrayed his love when I picked Christian and Christian betrayed mine when he picked Esmee.

"Don't you dare Ana, don't you dare think this has anything to do with you. Jose may not have told you but he's been depressed for a long time, probably since you graduated and came to live here in Seattle" I nod along with her but deep down I can't kick my guilt, if I had just spoken to him more, assured him that I'd always be there for him, no I couldn't love him like he wanted but I loved him like a brother, I would have made him know I cared.

"You don't understand Kate , I made him think I needed him then ran away , brought his hopes up to make Christian jealous and he got pissed off with me , he was right to do that Kate , I shouldn't have done what I did and now he's dead" buckets of tears spill down my cheeks as I remember the joy on his face as he helped me move into his small apartment , the jokes he'd made at my decorating and finally the overwhelming pride he'd had when showing me off to his clients at his show. He'd loved me fully and unconditionally and I'd used that to hurt Christian, never did I stop and think about what I was doing to his heart.

"Ana this is not your fault" Kate grabs my shoulders and moves my head so I'm looking at her , I try to stop my tears but it's impossible , my vision becomes blurred forcing me to close them tightly. I feel Kate's arms encase me in a tight hug, her soft voice floating into me as she sooths my sorrow.

"Can you bring me my baby Kate?" she nods softly, wiping away her tears as she walks over to Elliott, they exchange a look of comfort to the other, and then leaves my hospital room.

The room falls into silence as I stare out the window , my mind losing itself in my memories of Jose , it's not until I feel the bed move under Elliott's weight that I realise he's moved from the wall and is now sat with me , holding my hand tightly.

"Ana are you able to talk with me about this Esmeralda thing?" I blink hard, feeling tears slowly slide down my cheeks before my eyes temporarily stop them escaping.

"How did you know about Esmee?" my voice cracks making me realise how thirsty I am , Elliott also seems to notice and quickly pours me a glass from the jug on my bedside table , I gulp it down quickly and he refills it instantly , this time I just take small sips.

"At first I had no clue, I just thought Christian had been his pathetic protective self and pissed you off , I was angry with him of course , even told him he'd fucked up , but then I overheard him and my mum talking and he mentioned this Esmee woman , something didn't make sense so I went looking for an answer , turns out there is a Victoria Gold in recovery and her mother Esmeralda Gold is with her. Suddenly it made sense, well kinda, that's why I need you to tell me what's going on Ana. Do I have a niece called Victoria?" I can physically feel my heart constrict within my chest as I stare into Elliott's eyes , fighting the sorrow that fills me at being the person who has to tell him the mistake his little brother has made , how I wish I could just go back to sleep and pretend none of this was happening.

"You should ask Christian Elliott , it's not my place to tell you about Esmee and Tori" he nods his head and looks down , rubbing his temple as if lost in thought. We both jump at the sound of the door opening , then the soft hum of my precious son announcing to the entire hospital that he's awake. Tears fill my eyes as Kate places him in my arms , feeling my heart burst with pure joy as his eyes meet mine , crystal blue to crystal blue , the most beautiful bar his fathers to ever stare back at me. He's pure perfection , my personal teddy bear to hold when I feel sad , to cuddle when I feel low and protect with my life forever and always. That's when the name hits me , a name I never considered by now he's in my arms just seems perfect for him. A name which speaks grandeur but kindness , elegance but also a kindness and understanding , a name I believe will make his personality , make him a man I can be proud of and he can live to embrace as his persona.

"Theodore" I almost whisper it to him , feeling tears of joy rush down my cheeks as he smiles up at me , as if sending me his approval on my name choice.

"What was that Ana?" Kate is by the door with Elliott , they look stressed as they break away from their exchange , I must have zoned them out when Kate handed me Teddy , a nickname which belongs to my son in so many ways , looking at them now though it's obvious they've been discussing something very serious. They both smile over at me though as I gently rock Teddy to sleep in my arms , feeling his palm press against my chest as he sleeps soundly.

"I want you to meet Theodore Raymond Grey" Elliott is beside me in seconds , followed closely by Kate , they both just stare at Teddy as he sleeps , their eyes glazed over with their own tears of joy.

"What a perfect name Ana" I smile at Elliott and he places a soft kiss on my cheek before nodding to Kate , obviously sending her some sort of message but as to what they is I'm unsure , then he races out of the room leaving me with my best friend and my baby. Kate's eyes stay trained on Teddy but I can tell she's hiding something from me , I lift my free hand from Teddy and place it on her arm in comfort , she doesn't even notice the gesture , it's as if she's in some trance of thought.

"Kate is everything okay?" my words break her freeze moment and she shakes her head in state of dazed confusion before coming too and placing her famous Kate Kavanagh smile back on.

"Everything's perfect Ana, you make a beautiful mother you know , it suits you" I smile and stare back down at my little bundle of joy , the little man who has washed away all the darkness these past few weeks have been , my little ray of light. My Teddybear. Kate's heels alert me to her exiting my room and I call out to her , she stops at the sound of my voice , but doesn't turn to face me.

"Where are you going?" I had expected her to spend hours with me fussing over Teddy , calling people in to see her godson , but instead it looks like she can't wait to get away from me , I feel oddly hurt. However when she turns I spot the deep anger in her face and something inside me knows she's on a mission , but what that mission is I don't know.

"I'm going to get some answers from your so called husband" she goes to leave again but I stop her.

"Kate what do you mean , get answers , answers for what?" oh no , is all that goes through my head , what has Elliott told her?

"About this Esmeralda woman and her so called daughter , I don't like it when people hurt my friends and Christian has really pushed it this time , you were right to keep him away from your baby Ana" wait how does she know all this? How can this be happening? Kate isn't supposed to know , no one is supposed to know. Christian is going to be humiliated. But then isn't that what I want? To cause him pain because he caused me pain , oh god who knows what I want anymore. I just want to live a simple life with my family , my son and me. No more drama , no more danger.

No more Christian then perhaps? Oh god someone please stop this happening.

I look back up , hoping to tell Kate to leave Christian alone , to let this whole thing just end with him and me trying to work things out , to see if some time will be the healer to everything that's happened , but she's not there.

Teddy wakes with a cry and I zone into him , soothing him with a soft hummed lullaby , feeling my voice become strong as I sing him back to sleep. Singing the words of a song no one knows but to me speak volumes on life , hoping they will both calm my baby back to sleep but also show him that no matter what life throws at him , may it be a broken heart of a sleepless night , we all cope.

"She polished every piece of silverware

Straightened all the kitchen chairs

Saying "I'm so close but I'm not there yet"

She gets her grief to hide behind

Napkin rings and vacuum lines

He's not coming home , but the tables all set

Sometimes life is such a disaster

And until we find the piece that we're after

Oh , we all cope

Everybody's got their ways

Yea I know I've got mine"