Chapter 5

Spencer POV

"Seriously, the cobra mascot did that?"

"Yes Kyla. I even looked for him but I was told that the regular mascot called in sick so I really don't know who that was and I really didn't have a chance to thank him properly"

"Then what happened next?"

"Well, as you know, the next day I quit the cheering squad, told Madison to fuck off and the rest is history"

"I remember, you were by yourself for the rest of the week and I found out what you did, so Carmen and I came over, properly introduced ourselves and we became good friends"

"Best of friends" I corrected her. "So, have you uhmm have you heard anything from Carmen?"

Rising an eyebrow, Kyla looked at me concerned. "Ohh, well, no… I mean, yea, I heard she's doing well and living in Chicago right now"

"That's good" I cannot hide the pain and sadness in my voice. Kyla immediately came over to my side and place an arm on my shoulder.

"Are you okay Spence? I'm sorry I brought up Carmen like that. I really put my foot in my mouth this time huh?"

"It's fine Kyla. I just miss her" I reached over for my phone and send Lily a message. It's like a muscle reflex whenever I feel happy or cheerful, I always send her a message. In this case, whenever I feel lonely or sad.

"I know what will cheer you up"

"I'm really not in the mood to watch Magic Mike now, Ky"

"What? What's wrong with a little Channing Tatum? Every time I watch that I feel a lot better"

"Oh my god Ky I think after you watch that you're a little bit hornier" She blushed and looked away. I laughed harder. "Besides, I'm gay remember? Tatum's hot but he doesn't do anything to my lady parts, if you know what I mean?"

"Eww Spencer" Kyla throws a pillow at me. "Ok fine so no to watching a movie? What are we going to do then?"

I pretend to think but I already made my mind up.

"God Spence, I hate to say this but you want to listen to Ashley Davies album, right?"

I clapped and nod at her.

"You're so predictable"

I switched the album to my favourite song. As it begins to play, I close my eyes and imagine her singing it to me.

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one

I see you through the smoky air
Can't you feel the weight of my stare
You're so close but still a world away
What I'm dying to say, is that

I'm crazy for you
Touch me once and you'll know it's true
I never wanted anyone like this
It's all brand new, you'll feel it in my kiss
I'm crazy for you, crazy for you

I wonder when she sings this sing who is she thinking about? Who is she thinking when she wrote this song? Who is she crazy for? I feel jealous to whoever has the heart of the sexy musician. I put my hand on my head to stop myself. Gosh, I'm such a silly fan girl right now. My thoughts were interrupted when Glen walked in the room.

"Spencer, can you keep that down? I'm trying to study"

"Study? Really, Glen? Give me a break. You're just watching porn or something"

Kyla was trying to hide a smile. Glen realizing Kyla was in the room turned pale.

"Uhhmmm, ahhhhh, just keep it down, ok?" He left before slamming the door.

Surprised by Glen's reaction, I turned to Kyla. "Oooo… Touchy" We burst out laughing.

"I wonder what it is like going to one of Ashley's concert. Have you gone to one, Spence?"

Flashback

"I have a surprise for you sunshine but you have to close your eyes first"

I shut my eyes tightly.

"Ok sunshine you can open them now"

My dad standing in front of me is holding two concert tickets. I shrieked and jumped up and down.

"Oh my god dad Is this the memorial concert for Raife Davies? Ashley will be performing with purple venom. It's a once in a lifetime opportunity" I really wanted to see the concert and pay my respect to Ashley's dad but more so I want to be there for Ashley.

"Yes sunshine the one and only" I looked at my dad in awe.

"How did you get this? It's been sold out for weeks. It would have cost you a fortune"

"I have my connections. Don't you like it?"

I gave him a hug, burying my head on his chest. "Of course, I do. Thank you so much. You're awesome"

"If you like that so much, you're going to love this?" I lift my head to meet his eyes and raise my eyebrow.

"There's more?"

He took something out of his back pocket and showed it to me. I couldn't contain my happiness as I saw the V.I.P backstage passes he held. That was the last thing I saw as I fainted.

End of Flashback

"You what?"

"Fainted, pass out, lost consciousness, black out, knock myself out"

"Ok, ok I get it. I don't believe you actually met the Ashley Davies"

"Yea, well actually no, not exactly"

"What do you mean? You didn't get to meet her"

"Yea, I went to the concert with my dad but when we got backstage something came up and she had to leave all of a sudden. If it's worth something I got to see the back of her head like really up close"

"You're such a dork"

"Get out" I pulled Kyla up "Out" She was laughing all the way to my door. I shut my bedroom door and leaned on it and sighed. That concert was the best day of my life and I had to spend it with my dad. I walked over to my closet and took out a frame. Tears began to trace down my cheeks as I stared a photo of my dad and I when we were at the concert. I flipped it over and held the V.I.P. passes and tickets taped behind it. I held all of it closely to my chest as I sobbed heavily. I got my phone out.

"Dear Lily, had a good time hanging out with Kyla today until she got me to reminisce my relationship with Carmen and she also got me to recollect the good times I had with my dad. I really miss both of them"

My phone buzz and I read her message.

"Spencer, it's normal to miss them. It just means that you love them enough to miss them so. I'll be honest with you. It doesn't get any easier, no words can make this feeling of longing go away. Just remember I'm always here for you no matter what"

I stare at her reply. I will no longer be sad and depress. From now on, no matter what happens, I'll always have Lily.

Song:

Madonna - Crazy for you (This one's for you babe ;))

A/N: I honestly don't know where this story is heading. My mind is so messed up. I'll apologize in advance if and when (and I'm pretty sure it will) it starts to get a little bit confusing. Just let me know, okay? Thanks for the reviews guys. Keep them coming ;)